虽然不代表什么
但不知道为什么 真的好难过
本想哭过了就该忘了
但哭过了 还是很在意
似乎不是那么简单

深刻体会到事过境迁的意思
原来我错了
并不后悔 只觉得心很痛
是该放下了
而迎接新的学期

admiring the sunset @ 12:18 PM

不知道为什么
有时候
就会有种很想哭的感觉



好想跑去看部催泪的电影/韩剧/偶像剧
希望能看到一些赚人眼泪的桥断
放肆地让身体里多余的水份流出来
就这样痛痛快快地大哭一场

哭了
累了
睡了
就能忘了


有了希望才会有失望
原来那都是自欺欺人的一种假象


好想哭
你可以借我你的肩膀吗

admiring the sunset @ 11:48 PM

事情想不通就别想了
好希望能够这么简单
但现实嘛 怎会如此呢

或许真的是
天时地理 人都不合
告诉我该放手了

就是会有种既想放弃
又期待着什么会发生似的矛盾与复杂
希望时间能冲淡一切
又希望时间能证明一切

但是
还没开始
又哪来的结束呢

带我走 到遥远的以后
如果可以那该有多好
你懂不懂

admiring the sunset @ 1:26 PM

i didnt know my mood will be so easily affected..
not only my mood, my actions also..
keep thinking about this and that, imagining this and that..
am i thinking too much?

what on earth am i thinking man..
i need to focus on what im doing..
dont come into my thoughts anymore la..
i need to put a stop to it..
but i really dont know how to..

admiring the sunset @ 1:36 AM

last dae of 2008

went to watch bedtime story and had a good laugh..want bedtime stories to happen in real life too!! (:


didnt know watching disney movie can be so entertaining(:
didnt know xmas tree lighted up can be so magnificient(:
didnt know watching fireworks can make one so happy(:
didnt know not all countdown party have fireworks :
didnt know it can take up to 45 minutes to walk from esplanade to city hall :p
thank you(:


friday
wanted to go k de but apparently my friend ps me again *sobs* i msg her she dao my msg la!! so no k b4 sch start le xp wads this man..really dun lyk pple to dao my msg lo..irritating..

waited lyk one hr for yj on the platform coz shes late, again..shall make her wait one hr next time oso:p

saturday
finally went to ecp to cycle! on my way there the weathers lyk not v good..i was still thinking the weather cant be so bad to me rite..cant make me travel all the way there then ask me wait for rain to stop bah..when i alighted its still raining lo xp..super sad..but luckily, miracles do happen!! when we reach ecp, its bright and sunny!! 雨过天晴 (: cycled for two hrs and finally exercised!!! yay!! was damn tired after tat..makes me feel so unhealthy..lyk exercise abit jiu so tired..must exercise more man..wouldnt mind cycling every week if i stay in the east..haha:p

real sians sch starting le..must start mugging liaos and stop watching all the shows..cant go online tat often liaos oso..is there anyone whos looking fwd to sch reopening, pls psycho me..

admiring the sunset @ 10:57 AM

monday
went to tp to help transport logs back to sch..din really want to go but really bo bian kind..the tranporting was super inefficient and took super longggg la..we started moving at 10pm and only managed to transport everyth onto the van at 11 plus..tats coz we waited for the trolley to come abck and fro..actually we could haf used the trolley and some carry manually lo..that would haf speeded up the whole process..but i think they think we gals too weak, only ask us jaga stuff lo..which makes me feel we are so redundant there..well anw, by the time we reach sch, its alr 12 plus..and wads worse, the lady was on leave!!waseh cool la on leave! lucky we ask if not we would be stupidly waiting there lo..the staff seemed rather unfriendly too=( so bo bian nidda come back sch later coz the other lady was out for lunch..haha but we treat ourselves to seoul garden and ate from lyk 1 - 4pm(: the food lyk v little variety lei..and considering im such a choosy person for food, my choice is rather limited lo..haiz but when sakura is not available, seoul garden would be a substitute..after the lunch we all haf this weird smell on us lo..i can smell it whenever the wind blew my hair twds my face..horrible..our clothes and bags smell too..must brg perfume nxt tm we go for bbq / buffet..return to sch to settle the logs stuff then head to town to buy my text..haha..felt so tired at the end of the dae..shag..

lunch treat
they gave us a treat for the roadshow we put up on sat..wanted to eat at sakura wan..which would be GREAT la..coz i haf been wanting to eat sakura!!!this would mean i can fulfil my wish and not spent a single cent!!how nice!! but apparently 生活中还是有些不完美..sakura was fully booked so we changed to mathatten fish market..and its at PASIR RISSS!!!you know how FAR this is for me!! from one end of spore to another end lei..i think now they will all rmb me as the boon lay girl lo..and some more i nidda go sch after that coz got rice meeting at 2pm..the food was nice, especially the fish!(: i think we made a super right and intelligent choice for our food..to order platter(: enjoyed the food! elft at 1.35pm and thought im gg to be late for the meeting..well i was late but im still lyk one of the earliest there..haha..the 'meetings nv start on time' hypothesis was once again proven right;p

hasnt acheived much during this hol and its ending soon..why is time passing so fast..

admiring the sunset @ 11:12 PM

ooh the week was a cip week man..filled with nth but csp projects..two of them..

CCC
first up was the children christmas camp..all the while thought its gonna be rather cui..felt super unprepared for the camp..coz everyth seemed so last min kind..all the last min decisions, last min changes etc..well but when everyth is so bad, it can only get better, i suppose..the camp turned out to be better than wad i expected although the turnout for the camp wasnt as high as we thought (: on the first day the children were abit hard to control..coz they simply love to run ard..they can start their game of catching as and when they want to la seriously..and their energy level is lyk always so high man..can run and run and run..during the games even if its not their turn to run they oso want to run..haha..but everyth went better as the time progressed..slowly under control:p was looking forward to the hippo tour coz i noe i wun spent money to ride tat ever again..but well disppointingly, theres really nth much to see..or maybe coz its not at night all the lightings not lighted yet..or maybe duck tour will be better..haha..

i enjoyed my time with the children=D it makes me feel younger..haha..只有从小孩子身上才能看到纯真，诚恳和真心. you can really tell whether they like sth or not..dun hafta guess wad they are thinking..and they are always very truthful in their answers oso..when they lyk u, they will always hold your hands and want you to follow them wherever they go, lyk you are real important and needed..when they bua song someone, they can also very honestly sae they dun wan friend the person.. when they know their chances of winning is low, they will use their ultmate move, to cry..跟小孩子相处可以很放心，因为你知道他们所说的没有丝毫的欺骗，不需要去怀疑他们，真好。我也好希望即使我们渐渐成长也都能保留小时候的天真无邪， 因为它实在太珍贵了。但，似乎不太可能。现实太残酷了，为了成功，在社会立柱，人们也变得虚伪，现实。

roadshow
sat had our roadshow at tp station..the response wasnt as good as the previous one at woodlands..dun really lyk roadshow now..first time, the experience is new and good. second time it gets less meaningful and sian..esp when one has to see to everyth, from planning to liasing to buying to executing..wanted to get planning comm to do all the planning wan la but apparently yj has too gd a foresight in the allocation of manpower that in the end we haf no logs team and i had to become the logs person..nidda bao ka liao for all the logs for the roadshow..tat guy is sooo irresponsible la..sae until himself so despo for hrs then in the end quit at the very last min..irritating!! better dun let me see him again arh..otherwise i gonna kill him..promises are not meant to be broken right? don't give your words to it if you cant deliver what you say. tats so irresponsible la! anws the only thing i looked fwd to is my lunch!!coz they are all so nice, giving each helper 10 bucks meal allowance wor..so nice(: treat ourselves sth good for the hard work we put it(: do give yourself a good treat if you have been working very hard all the while. you desrve it(:

i really haf bad control of my temper man..easily show my bua song-ness and attitude to pple i dun lyk..tats real bad coz i'll 得罪 many pple without knowing lyk tat lei..and pple haf been saying i look lyk ah lian man..shits la..must do sth to it lo..tarnish my reputation mann..

din manage to persuade my mum to go msia for seafood on sun and there goes my wish to travel overseas during hols..so sad =( dunno need to wait how long b4 i can go overseas liaos..let alone my taiwan..and i realise oso that theme park has half price promo lei..waseh noe this so late if not i would haf jio-ed pple go with me le lo..this would be a substitute to my genting theme park..but sad to sae dun haf oso..

admiring the sunset @ 9:53 PM

monday.
we had lunch at just acia b4 gg to school for the smrt meeting..haha wads attractive at just acia is it has free flow drinks and icecream!! ((: the food wise ok la not bad..the meeting went fine just that i dun really lyk the hr pple..dunno y just instinctively dun really lyk them..and they even cheated on the hours for the minutes la..which i totally hated..the reason they gave is that some pple need to recce the place so worte the ending time later..i was lyk...just bcoz SOME pple went for the recce and you wrote the meeting ended lyk one hr later?? how great..i wonder what grades you will be getting for your ethics..

tuesday.
went to k with sab. we wanted to jec one lei..but when i reached jec i had a shock! haha coz the place was shut la..dunno its shut since when but this really shows how long i haf not been there really 今时不同往日 already lo..rmb my rv daes jec is one of the places i frequent after school lo..时过境迁 又再次回到那个地方 可以深刻的感觉到时间的流逝 alrites so we went to clementi de instead..the only good thing there is no one will chase you when the time is up but seriously, i want to complain their food there la..everytm i go cine is bento set wan lo..and their bento set quite up to std one lei, but dunno y i get to eat spaghetti la..and they totally cheated my feelings can..coz sab ask the staff wads in the spaghetti she sae seafood..SEAFOOD can..then in the end, wad o get?? the only seafood i saw on my plate is only 虾米 can..theres really nth in the dish..except spaghetti, sauce and 虾米..almost fainted when it was served..i feel so cheated lo..

wednesday.
FINALLY i went to rebond my hair!! i was still rather scared on tuesday night coz i scared i will regret this decision that i make..im so shocked with the 'final product'. thats so not me la..coz i din haf my specs on throughout the process so i was thinking ok arh it looks fine then when i put on my glasses at the end, i was telling myself lyk oh my whos that..its really v different sia..now my hair feels so light..i can finally understand wads 长发飘逸的感觉 now the hair dun feel lyk mine..有种好不切实际，随时会失去它的感觉 something lyk a dream then suddenly i wake up with my horrible hair again kind..haha i seriously hope my hair can last as it is now for long..if not i will feel so heatbroken.

thursday.
met up with pris and marilyn and ate our dinner at waraku..i must sae the staff there are too friendly le..and each welcome u everytime a customer steps in..when everyone is doing that its v noisy lo, to me..haah food wise not bad..we had a fun time taking fotos, as usual!! :D

monday.we had lunch at just acia b4 gg to school for the smrt meeting..haha wads attractive at just acia is it has free flow drinks and icecream!! ((: the food wise ok la not bad..the meeting went fine just that i dun really lyk the hr pple..dunno y just instinctively dun really lyk them..and they even cheated on the hours for the minutes la..which i totally hated..the reason they gave is that some pple need to recce the place so worte the ending time later..i was lyk...just bcoz SOME pple went for the recce and you wrote the meeting ended lyk one hr later?? how great..i wonder what grades you will be getting for your ethics..

tuesday.
went to k with sab. we wanted to jec one lei..but when i reached jec i had a shock! haha coz the place was shut la..dunno its shut since when but this really shows how long i haf not been there really 今时不同往日 already lo..rmb my rv daes jec is one of the places i frequent after school lo..时过境迁 又再次回到那个地方 可以深刻的感觉到时间的流逝 alrites so we went to clementi de instead..the only good thing there is no one will chase you when the time is up but seriously, i want to complain their food there la..everytm i go cine is bento set wan lo..and their bento set quite up to std one lei, but dunno y i get to eat spaghetti la..and they totally cheated my feelings can..coz sab ask the staff wads in the spaghetti she sae seafood..SEAFOOD can..then in the end, wad o get?? the only seafood i saw on my plate is only 虾米 can..theres really nth in the dish..except spaghetti, sauce and 虾米..almost fainted when it was served..i feel so cheated lo..

wednesday.
FINALLY i went to rebond my hair!! i was still rather scared on tuesday night coz i scared i will regret this decision that i make..im so shocked with the 'final product'. thats so not me la..coz i din haf my specs on throughout the process so i was thinking ok arh it looks fine then when i put on my glasses at the end, i was telling myself lyk oh my whos that..its really v different sia..now my hair feels so light..i can finally understand wads 长发飘逸的感觉 now the hair dun feel lyk mine..有种好不切实际，随时会失去它的感觉 something lyk a dream then suddenly i wake up with my horrible hair again kind..haha i seriously hope my hair can last as it is now for long..if not i will feel so heatbroken.
thursday.
met up with pris and marilyn and ate our dinner at waraku..i must sae the staff there are too friendly le..and each welcome u everytime a customer steps in..when everyone is doing that its v noisy lo, to me..haah food wise not bad..we had a fun time taking fotos, as usual!! :D

friday.
met up with the head for our roadshow and surprisingly everyth went smoothly..no too smooth liao that im doubting his words..tats the shortest meeting..everyth oso ok anyth oso ons..haha..after that went to eat dim sum buffet at this hotel (cant rmb)..its a bad experience..wanted to treat myself sth nice to aid recovery de lo but apparently i wasnt v happy after eating..the food was served v slowly..the service is bad (still charge us 10% for it!!)..the food comes in v small portions..they miss our orders (withour feeling apologetic when we told them so)oh yes the horrible part is the dessert!!! theres gui ling gao and mango pudding..which one will u eat first? i happily eating mango pudding thinking i made the rite choice..still askmy frens y eat gui ling gao first so bitter, later can taste the sweetness of the pudding meh..well apparently this seems to suggest that i fail my sciences..coz later when i eat my gui ling gao, it feels SUPER bitter la..as wad they sae 加倍苦..so its lyk kinda sad coz i had a sad and bitter ending to the buffet when im suppose to feel happy):

then went to watch 海角7号with ying..was rather disappointed with the show act..dun really uinderstand how van and the gal got tgt..lyk they just got tgt suddenly kind..was rather touched by the ending song sang though(: nice song! recommended..will appreciate the song better if you see the show i suppose:p

没有我想象中的唯美浪漫
没有我想象中的凄美动人
前半段有些罗索
后半段则交待地仓促

but still if i were to choose again will still choose to watch la..so yupp no regrets! (:

admiring the sunset @ 1:30 AM

她发现开始有些变化了
而这变化会带来一点尴尬和失落
所以她做了个决定 保持原状 将一切还原 恢复正常
是该停止了

admiring the sunset @ 11:27 PM

the much awaited holiday is here!! haha realise i haven been updating my blog but thats coz i really cant cope with all the projs after mid term la, thats y..plus some horrible grp mates that i haf, totally worsen the whole experience..i will always rmb this powerful statement that my beloved grp mate made: "even IF i dont do it, you all will still do it right? i mean IF i dont do it." haha for more details read yuzhu's blog..haha..if i feel lyk it, i will update more abt my horrible proj experience..everytime i tok abt that, my blood real boils man..

alrites back to hol! after finance on sat, went to eat w yu and walk ard..haha ealk frm ps all the way to bugis..haha..but time din pass as fast as when i was mugging..dunno y..time seemed to really FLY during the study week lei..oh shit i think results gonna release next week but i dun really want to noe my grades..tats the best i can do i suppose..i haf tried my best but i dun really want to know the outcome of this..okok back to hol..after that i went home to slp..haha really slp 够本 can, to make up for all the slp i lack i slp from lyk 3pm till the next morning sia (awaking in between)..haha really slp lyk a pig man..but tats really to make up for all the slp lost in the sem la..no i dun think make up all liao..coz i dun rmb myself slping early or anytm b4 1am after mid term break..yes its tat bad..haha..

mon we had ft dining, but i think the food is real horrible..its a torture sitting there for 2 hrs eating man..esp when the appetiser is served i was lyk omg am i in a forest..haha ok tats abit exaggerating but yea i haf this close to nature feeling lo..so apparently i din touch the appetiser except to finish the egg and the tuna..haha..i think my dish was the most intact..i cant wait for the waitress to clear my dish away man seriously..i was praying the waitress faster clear it away lo..lucky prof wasnt really there grading sia if not my dining sure CUI liao..the soup was ok la..just tat drinking too much will make me 腻 of the taste lo..but still ok i can still make myself finish it though i dun really drink these kinda soup of the day when im outside..haha wad big sacrifice i made man..then come the main course..the chicken was nice la but dunno y western dining always haf some funny side deco and food..and this time tat dun really look nice la..and it taste awful to me so haha tats left rather intact on my plate too..so i concluded that i really cmi for western dining..i hope i haf a choice to chinese cuisine next time i meet up w my clients man..if not i will REALLY need to learn and get accustomed to western dining sia..western dining is a real torture for me..and some more need to eat so 斯文oso..lyk acting as if im some 千金小姐dining w her 富家少爷..oh yes the ONLY nice thing is the dessert!!real nice..and the choc is delicious!(: so at least the ending was sweet(:

after dining went to watch madagascar with petrina..haha the show was rather funny and cute(: quite entertaining..can watch if we are too stressed mugging..haha..then we walk walk after that, before gg for the tax gathering..

oh the tax gathering is real nice..the food is nice! the pple is nice! the scenery is nice! plus its a treat! wad else can i ask for? before i went i was still wondering how it will b lyk..ok it turned out better than i expected..hehe..not as uncomfortable as i thought it would be(: i guess we pple adapt to our surroudings real fast..haha and i was telling yu hopefully theres min walking during the dinner coz my feet real hurts after wearing the heels for lyk 10 hrs..and she was still telling me wun la, cant poss walk when we are eating rite..haha she is wrong man..we did walk when we are eating..real grateful to yeeloong for treating us there..its at chinaclub la..dunno if i can ever go there again lo..the night scenery is real swee frm the top eh((: suddenly it makes my e$33 worth it for bidding for him(: he is a real pop prof and he REALLY teach well!! must save to bid for him for tp next(: haha and he brot lyk 18 bottles of wine, offering one cup to everyone..the smell of the wine is real strong la..and a sip of it is lyk..hmm dunno how to describe, but anw tats all i had, one sip..haha..though he sae we cant leave if we din finish all the 18 bottles..the guys can really drink..haha coz they are guys mah..the food was more or less finished since almost all went for the second round..this shows tat the food was nice(: i think most o the pple frm the class turn up for the gathering too :p

towards the end, yeeloong sae we must all tell a joke to get the exit pass to leave the place..if we skipped our turn then it will b double joke..haha..i think he lyk to listen to joke lo..everytime sae he want hear jokes..haha but i think coz got generation gap tats y he cant get some o our jokes..hehe..but anw to get off this, the joke get lamer and colder along the way..its real cold la *shivers* and i think most i hear b4, frm those taiwan 综艺节目..haha got some new ones too..so anyone who wants to bid for him must prepare a list of jokes to tell lo:p on the way home my feet real hurts liao..always at such times, i will wonder how those 太太s manage to walk and shop ard in those super high heels e whole day and can still enjoy themselves..enjoy to be tortured by the heels??!

tue went to k!! haha my much awaited k!!ying was late, again..haha i expected tat oso anw..erms we went to k still and we get to k till 3pm! haha yea so its not so bad..but kbox de aircon real strong sia..i brg jacket liao eh still v cold lo! k-ing still makes me happy! after tat walk and shop ard..and as always, at such times i will wonder if im sm rich 太太s i can just buy anyth i feel lyk buying and dun hafta look at the price tag everytime i wanna buy sth..well but it feels good to meet up with 老朋友, where i can be at my truest self - be it ah lian or wad (: feels great!! =D

oh but after tat its sm horrible expereince which i shall not mention here..yupp tats all for now..will update again:p

would want to go out and go k during the hol! ask me out if ur free oso k=D

admiring the sunset @ 12:47 PM