todae's a special dae..it marks my six mths working in this company!!smtm i feel rather cheated and exploited and thought of leaving..yet, at other instances, when teachers are so nice and friendly and there are frenz out there 跟我同病相怜，同甘共苦。其实感觉也是不错的。。perhaps its such a special dae, sth special happen..when i was doing settlement, the machine did fuction as usual BUT the receipt out was a blank one!!oh man!!i dunno wad to do..i was stupid enuff to log on again..bcoz when i ask yu for help i realise there is such a function called the reprint function..wadeva..anw i did did the settlement, jux tat it was a blank one..shall tell them tat tmr..hu noes wad happen and y such things happen when i was abt to go hm..it delayed me frm gg hm lo..den i went to put the test papers back into the rm..i saw a cockroach!!!argh!!i screamed!!i tink its the nth time such a scene took place..but obviously no one came to my rescue since there is no one there..okie tats my usual reaction..i cant help it..im real scared of cockroach k..i dun wan to get rid o cockroaches..esp the dead ones..pls dun ask me to kill them...i myself is scared of them..i rmb sat, there was one at the counter, the side where pple walk..den parents came in who saw it, signalled to me, as if implying me to get rid of it..oh man..perhaps i shd really get rid o it..but i m real scared la..luckily one courageous teacher killed it and anot courageous teacher cleared it..thx lots man..im real thankful..

as i haf said, she brot hm all the work to do..i double check them again coz i m the one to be held accountable for if anyth goes wrong i guess..den i realise there were sm errors..okie..i noe its inevitable for her to make sm mistakes bcoz it was afterall my work and not hers..and yes..i noe its kind of her to haf offered her help (though i tink there mb sm hidden agendas as wad i haf mention).. but i still hafta check it..so wads the point?i rather all the work to be completed myself..and there she was telling me she has done it le so i can do other things..i appreciate tat but its really not necessary, if u ask me..

我觉得有些人真的很虚伪。。明明就看某人不爽，但却能若无其事地和他相处。。我实在办不到。。至少目前为止是如此。。不太明白。。明明很讨厌某人，但却能像老朋友似的和他聊天。。或许这就是环境所逼。。我们周遭的环境导致我们变成如此。为了保护自己，我们必须戴上面具，不能让自己的真实感情流露出来。。为了讨好他人，有些人选择背叛自己的原则，乖乖得让他人唆使。。为了个人的利益，我们得跟别人攀关系。。或是是吧。。每个人都有自己蓄积的一面，只是看自己要不要将那一面表现出来而已。。

admiring the sunset @ 11:01 PM