i haf lots of things to say, lots of things to do and lots of things to buy.
haha..this is going to be a super long entry i suppose..w all the complaints i m gg to make and everything..bear w it my dear..

finally it all ended..although i cant balance wad i m supposed to balance all the time, i still find FA rather interesting..mb its sth new to me..its time to chill now..haha..

projects.
very proj based and u get to work with diff proj mates in different mod..i would sae the process is very much dependent on who ur proj mates are..count urself lucky if u find urself in a nice grp, w all cooperative and willing to work teammates..

ltb presentation- the prep was shit and the presentation itself was bad. no one wanted to put in the extra effort and tot that it can all be done very easily overnite..optimisstic yes but CAN it work? pls be realistic. no sense of urgency, there was no rehearsal. everyone wanted to leave early after allocating all the work.wad shit is that?all thinking tat it was due in wk 13 and happily thinking we haf whole loads of time to think how to do our presentation..yet who noes its act due on wk 12!! okie this is alr bad enuff..this meant that we haf only one week to do everything..the ppt and rehearsal and everything..starting from zero to 100% all done in one week..there was a meeting scheduled on wed to discuss this 'big thing' and this was to be completed (i tot so initially)..BUT during the meeting when only half the grp was there (coz the rest had class, joining ltr), the 2 proactive person in the grp discussed btw the two of them and allocated the task for the group to follow..den saying that there wasnt anymore thing to discuss they left, claiming they haf sth on..wth..wad is this man..u call this a proj meeting when all was decided by two people?omg..and the thing was all done w/o the book which contained all the guidelines for our presentation.. alrite so after tat i sent an email out to everyone telling them there were some things we left out coz we din follow wad the book wan..haha guess wad..the two proactive pple, took the inititative again and volunteered to do the work again..haha good then..do all tat u want..volunteer for all i care..earn all the participation points if tats all u wanted..this really disturbs me k..is this how a proj discussion is defined?of coz there were some in the grp hu think lyk me and voiced this out..den wads the reply? "dont be so emotional. lets be flexible". hahahah..i dunno how to cooperate in such a grp..which resulted in me being abit attitude..i think the TA realised my 'attitude' oso laand i strongly believed she marked me down for my participation. my ltb wasnt a very happy experience..alot of prob surfaced but everyone jux took it as if we were a harmonious grp with no conflict..haha how true..

wad crap is this..i cant stand it..this whole thing of grading participation points by TA wasnt at all FAIR..much as the Prof claimed this is much more fairer, i seriously dun think so..much as the TA promised tat she will be objective, i strongly believed the existence of '感情用事'..much as the TA was with us during the lesson, she wasnt present in our meetings and everything, i still insist that she din get a clear and true pic of wads happening in the grp..if this is how to earn participation points i am gg to die..

on the other hand, with gd project mates lyk in my fa and twc, even though i worked as hard (or even harder, staying up till lyk 4 plus to collate our reports and proof read it) , it was worth the effort. u noe that feeling? tired but happy. coz u noe all work as equally hard and all the efforts are recognised. im more proacitve oso, more initative taken etc.i shall pray that i get to work w good pple al the time..

oh yea we were so lucky tat time..twc..there was a presentation, where all the groups hafta prepare coz the Prof will only choose one grp to present in class..on tat day the Prof sae draw cards to decide how the grp is..in the end, one of my team mate drew the card and it turned out to be our own group! so unprepared etc but it brings laughter to pple in the class i think, from their responses..and Prof too...when presenting we werent even sure who the next speaker was..coz arrangement settled only at tat min lo:p next slide liao still expect more..haha unorgettable experience in a sense..

comm presentation, though abit late, still wanna thank ade for coming so early for the lesson (first time so early) thankew! first individual presentation. but i would say i did prepare hard for it. luckily this not all in wk 12 else it will be jux as screwed as ltb. with prep and all the pratice, i hope presentations will becom a norm for me and i can be more confident when i speak the next time. compared to the first time i presented for twc..haha..practice do make perfect at times.

a student ask the Prof, its not fair for our grades to be based only on the presentation. the Prof replied, much as we din wan to, many things function this way. when u go out to work and meet ur client, isnt everything based on that one visit w the client oso. its 100% based on your performance there and then. this left a deep impression in me.so true. much as u dun like it, the world jux functions this way. first impression do count.

lessons learnt.
its thro all these proj tat u find out more abt a person.if a person has gd impression mangement its hard to tell his real personality but in proj the true colours prevails..

i dun think i learn much in terms of knowledge gained. haha..except for fa ba..ltb not lyk i will go flip text to choose wad conflict mgt style to deal when face w a conflict..but there's skills learnt..haha lyk how to make a report LOOK pro, how to protray an effective political behavior etc..mb tats y pple all wrote super fake tings in their learning journals (not exc me of coz).. it seems lyk we always learn the same thing frm proj, communication skills, time management, interpersonal relationship etc..oh and save your work every now and then.when i was doing my ltb learning journal, all of sudden all gone, i almost break down. i was lyk crying and typing when i was doing is the second time.

there is going to be AT LEAST one super xiong week in each sem..and during tat week, i will be lyk a walking zombie..this sem its week 12..i haf three presentations, one quiz, one forum entry and one report due all in one week..haha but i survived..

sm pple so fake..tats the reality i guess. sae any prob can look for me and all the crap. but when the need act arise who act help.some will and im very grateful to them BUT not many in fact. PLS nv promise pple anyth u dun think u can deliver them.it ruins ur own reputation and destroys the trust pple haf in u!

one more thing..no more model ans provided anymore. ask for model ans den memorise everything there hopefully similar qn come out in the exams? tats alr part of history. tats y connections is so impt..i think..

the whole sys jux forces my to be untruthful of myself, sth i m not very gd at..haha mb at the end on grad i mb a transformed person..speak up, tok to pple lyk they are all ur buddies coz u nid the marks, u nid the connections. volunteer all the work and be a leader bcoz u nid pple to think well o u coz they are grading u for peer evaluation. do all the wayang for presentations and report coz tats wad Prof luv to see..email the Prof so tat they noe who u r, as an individual not jux a student. ask more intelligent questions in class so not only the Prof recognise u and rmb u, but oso ur course mates..how can i adapt? are there any ref books i can refer to? pls teach me how.

smtm i wonder i study so hard, wads the point? proportional relationship with results?

buy new shoes. buy new clothes. buy digi cam.. buy new bag. buy zai zai album.when can i realise all these?in my dreams mb..or mb if im a tai tai. i want to delete all the junk files stored in my laptop. change my blog skin. rebond my hair.go out and haf fun.watch all the bai fen bai and kang xi episodes i miz.watch all the shows i haf but not yet watched since duno when.and the list jux go on.

heard this while listening to the radio tat dae.
STRESSED and DESSERTS, mirror images. realise that? sounds cool huh;) when we view things from diff perspective, we get diff 体验. everyone noes tat but how many can act do tat?

on a happier note, zaizai!!! saw him on bai fen bai and kang xi!! so shuai!! and he can sing 现场 now!! his 演唱功力 improved..his 咬字 oso improved=)))) GREAT man!!! fell in love w him. again=)) im going to buy when his 专辑改版=D

and i m watching all the 星光大道 episodes..haha abit late la i noe coz it all happened lyk half a yr ago..how can i not know all these tat time man..mux be bcoz of the stupid work tat time la..waseh 参赛者超强的嘞，而且都超会唱..太有魅力了..有几次听了还会满感动的..感觉到了他们对唱歌的热爱和坚持..看他们的演出真是一种享受啊！！视觉和听觉上的享受=)参赛者在比赛中唱的歌，都会一首首地变红, 也让我再次听到一些之前被忽略的好歌..不知为什么，当参赛者被淘汰，其他战友也跟着哭了时，我也会哭，流泪..一只听他们在唱，自己也好想唱. 和本地的寻星节目，素质上真是差太远太远了..同样都是寻星节目，为什么素质差怎么远呢？哈,我的最爱：林宥嘉，许仁杰 :p 周定纬只是觉得他的舞蹈满吸引人的.. oh they are coming singapore!!

会唱歌的男人, 超赞.
会弹琴的男人，超吊.
会跳舞的男人，超 zai.
如果我有这样的一个男朋友，那就太完美了..但，这么完美的人怎么会喜欢上我呢？

hol liao. i wanna go taiwan. again..or hong kong disney land..haha it looks magical. december - the month of happiness..i hope its always dec!