fantasy

neverending project meetings

2010-05-16T22:16:00.004+08:00

seriously sometimes I cant help but wonder if project meetings are really necessary.

whats worse is when people meet, but do every other thing except discuss the REAL IMPORTANT issues..if so then why meet? i have absolutely no idea

regardless how early we start the project, we always end up chionging for it nearing the deadline, camping in school to chiong finish..WHY?? this speaks for itself how ineffective our meetings really were. its lyk nothing is confirmed but meeting still take lyk super long. or worse still, thought we gained consensus of the group and progressed 10% but next meeting overturned everything that was said in the previous meeting and de-progressed 15%. at this rate we are going, i really have no idea how we are going to finish the project. stop giving me perceived progress can anot. after that consultation, i do really see HOPE and feel DAMN MOTIVATED to get the project done up sui sui..its really lyk a power boost telling you that you can get A+, just follow what is being said. how positive and encouraging. but instead of focusing on realising what was said, what are we doing in each meeting? no content discussed (assuming or taking for granted everyone has the same content) but the argument of form over substance, and that content naturally flows once the structure is there. last meeting say everything agree then now come and say not possible. wth. when i thought everything is finally in place, there is bound to be surprises to overturn EVERYTHING!! HELLO THERE IS ALREADY NO TIME LEFT! of course, i also know that everything and anything is possible, but certainly THERE HAS TO BE SOME COMMON CONSENSUS FIRST! if not, how are we going to proceed, how are we going to reconcile the differences at the end? redo the report?!

cant do the part coz previous part not out yet. but i rmb that wasnt your reply when i asked you that time. how funny. agree totally to what is said and what we need is just a leader to tell us what to do. now disregarding everything i say and want to incorporate new stuff, then why bother me in the first place? if your part got write then i wont write. isnt content supposed to be settled and thus the work allocation? so we dont even know who is supposed to write what?? what rubbish. waiting to xiumin to think through. it has been proven sooooo many times that my comments are damn valid but it was just chosen to be ignored. how significant is my opinion seriously. its always her unhappiness but i thought at certain point in time those are also our common concerns, just that you choose to ignore and avoid but i didnt. close laptop and go home. best comment in project meeting of the year. i will always remember that. another more jing dian one inhibitor in our project. i never expect someone to describe me as that in a project group. no matter how cui or sucky my project mates has been, i have never made such comment, let alone saying that in front of the person. please mind your words. they hurt, if you realise.

is it just my problem or what. HIGH BEHAVIOURAL COSTS! why cant you just see things from my perspective but stubbornly getting me to accept yours? im trying to fix the problem but people dont see my problem as problem. why do i even need to go for meeting then?

wondering and wondering

2010-03-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

there are times that I cant help but think why
why the difference after that
what actually happened to cause that
but never have the courage to really ask why

there are times that I thought maybe things arent that bad
maybe things are improving already
but moments later I would be wondering again
maybe moments ago I was just imagining for something that dont even exist in the first place

there are times that I hope
time can bring me back to the good old days
and there is some magic I know to freeze time then
but no one ever taught me the magic to bring time back

there are times that I felt tempted to
yet sometimes the frequency seemed to have disappeared
not knowing what to do
but probably fine tuing first would help

我不难过

2009-08-13T12:18:00.002+08:00

虽然不代表什么
但不知道为什么真的好难过
本想哭过了就该忘了
但哭过了还是很在意
似乎不是那么简单

深刻体会到事过境迁的意思
原来我错了
并不后悔只觉得心很痛
是该放下了
而迎接新的学期

我好想好想

2009-04-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

不知道为什么
有时候
就会有种很想哭的感觉

好想跑去看部催泪的电影/韩剧/偶像剧
希望能看到一些赚人眼泪的桥断
放肆地让身体里多余的水份流出来
就这样痛痛快快地大哭一场

哭了
累了
睡了
就能忘了

有了希望才会有失望
原来那都是自欺欺人的一种假象

好想哭
你可以借我你的肩膀吗

不懂

2009-04-21T13:26:00.004+08:00

事情想不通就别想了
好希望能够这么简单
但现实嘛怎会如此呢

或许真的是
天时地理人都不合
告诉我该放手了

就是会有种既想放弃
又期待着什么会发生似的矛盾与复杂
希望时间能冲淡一切
又希望时间能证明一切

但是
还没开始
又哪来的结束呢

带我走到遥远的以后
如果可以那该有多好
你懂不懂

pls stop

2009-03-28T01:36:00.001+08:00

i didnt know my mood will be so easily affected..
not only my mood, my actions also..
keep thinking about this and that, imagining this and that..
am i thinking too much?

what on earth am i thinking man..
i need to focus on what im doing..
dont come into my thoughts anymore la..
i need to put a stop to it..
but i really dont know how to..

last week of hol (2)

2009-01-04T10:57:00.000+08:00

last dae of 2008

went to watch bedtime story and had a good laugh..want bedtime stories to happen in real life too!! (:

didnt know watching disney movie can be so entertaining(:
didnt know xmas tree lighted up can be so magnificient(:
didnt know watching fireworks can make one so happy(:
didnt know not all countdown party have fireworks :
didnt know it can take up to 45 minutes to walk from esplanade to city hall :p
thank you(:

friday
wanted to go k de but apparently my friend ps me again *sobs* i msg her she dao my msg la!! so no k b4 sch start le xp wads this man..really dun lyk pple to dao my msg lo..irritating..

waited lyk one hr for yj on the platform coz shes late, again..shall make her wait one hr next time oso:p

saturday
finally went to ecp to cycle! on my way there the weathers lyk not v good..i was still thinking the weather cant be so bad to me rite..cant make me travel all the way there then ask me wait for rain to stop bah..when i alighted its still raining lo xp..super sad..but luckily, miracles do happen!! when we reach ecp, its bright and sunny!! 雨过天晴 (: cycled for two hrs and finally exercised!!! yay!! was damn tired after tat..makes me feel so unhealthy..lyk exercise abit jiu so tired..must exercise more man..wouldnt mind cycling every week if i stay in the east..haha:p

real sians sch starting le..must start mugging liaos and stop watching all the shows..cant go online tat often liaos oso..is there anyone whos looking fwd to sch reopening, pls psycho me..

last week of hol (1)

2008-12-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

monday
went to tp to help transport logs back to sch..din really want to go but really bo bian kind..the tranporting was super inefficient and took super longggg la..we started moving at 10pm and only managed to transport everyth onto the van at 11 plus..tats coz we waited for the trolley to come abck and fro..actually we could haf used the trolley and some carry manually lo..that would haf speeded up the whole process..but i think they think we gals too weak, only ask us jaga stuff lo..which makes me feel we are so redundant there..well anw, by the time we reach sch, its alr 12 plus..and wads worse, the lady was on leave!!waseh cool la on leave! lucky we ask if not we would be stupidly waiting there lo..the staff seemed rather unfriendly too=( so bo bian nidda come back sch later coz the other lady was out for lunch..haha but we treat ourselves to seoul garden and ate from lyk 1 - 4pm(: the food lyk v little variety lei..and considering im such a choosy person for food, my choice is rather limited lo..haiz but when sakura is not available, seoul garden would be a substitute..after the lunch we all haf this weird smell on us lo..i can smell it whenever the wind blew my hair twds my face..horrible..our clothes and bags smell too..must brg perfume nxt tm we go for bbq / buffet..return to sch to settle the logs stuff then head to town to buy my text..haha..felt so tired at the end of the dae..shag..

lunch treat
they gave us a treat for the roadshow we put up on sat..wanted to eat at sakura wan..which would be GREAT la..coz i haf been wanting to eat sakura!!!this would mean i can fulfil my wish and not spent a single cent!!how nice!! but apparently 生活中还是有些不完美..sakura was fully booked so we changed to mathatten fish market..and its at PASIR RISSS!!!you know how FAR this is for me!! from one end of spore to another end lei..i think now they will all rmb me as the boon lay girl lo..and some more i nidda go sch after that coz got rice meeting at 2pm..the food was nice, especially the fish!(: i think we made a super right and intelligent choice for our food..to order platter(: enjoyed the food! elft at 1.35pm and thought im gg to be late for the meeting..well i was late but im still lyk one of the earliest there..haha..the 'meetings nv start on time' hypothesis was once again proven right;p

hasnt acheived much during this hol and its ending soon..why is time passing so fast..

CCC cum SMRT week

2008-12-28T21:53:00.003+08:00

ooh the week was a cip week man..filled with nth but csp projects..two of them..

CCC
first up was the children christmas camp..all the while thought its gonna be rather cui..felt super unprepared for the camp..coz everyth seemed so last min kind..all the last min decisions, last min changes etc..well but when everyth is so bad, it can only get better, i suppose..the camp turned out to be better than wad i expected although the turnout for the camp wasnt as high as we thought (: on the first day the children were abit hard to control..coz they simply love to run ard..they can start their game of catching as and when they want to la seriously..and their energy level is lyk always so high man..can run and run and run..during the games even if its not their turn to run they oso want to run..haha..but everyth went better as the time progressed..slowly under control:p was looking forward to the hippo tour coz i noe i wun spent money to ride tat ever again..but well disppointingly, theres really nth much to see..or maybe coz its not at night all the lightings not lighted yet..or maybe duck tour will be better..haha..

i enjoyed my time with the children=D it makes me feel younger..haha..只有从小孩子身上才能看到纯真，诚恳和真心. you can really tell whether they like sth or not..dun hafta guess wad they are thinking..and they are always very truthful in their answers oso..when they lyk u, they will always hold your hands and want you to follow them wherever they go, lyk you are real important and needed..when they bua song someone, they can also very honestly sae they dun wan friend the person.. when they know their chances of winning is low, they will use their ultmate move, to cry..跟小孩子相处可以很放心，因为你知道他们所说的没有丝毫的欺骗，不需要去怀疑他们，真好。我也好希望即使我们渐渐成长也都能保留小时候的天真无邪，因为它实在太珍贵了。但，似乎不太可能。现实太残酷了，为了成功，在社会立柱，人们也变得虚伪，现实。

roadshow
sat had our roadshow at tp station..the response wasnt as good as the previous one at woodlands..dun really lyk roadshow now..first time, the experience is new and good. second time it gets less meaningful and sian..esp when one has to see to everyth, from planning to liasing to buying to executing..wanted to get planning comm to do all the planning wan la but apparently yj has too gd a foresight in the allocation of manpower that in the end we haf no logs team and i had to become the logs person..nidda bao ka liao for all the logs for the roadshow..tat guy is sooo irresponsible la..sae until himself so despo for hrs then in the end quit at the very last min..irritating!! better dun let me see him again arh..otherwise i gonna kill him..promises are not meant to be broken right? don't give your words to it if you cant deliver what you say. tats so irresponsible la! anws the only thing i looked fwd to is my lunch!!coz they are all so nice, giving each helper 10 bucks meal allowance wor..so nice(: treat ourselves sth good for the hard work we put it(: do give yourself a good treat if you have been working very hard all the while. you desrve it(:

i really haf bad control of my temper man..easily show my bua song-ness and attitude to pple i dun lyk..tats real bad coz i'll 得罪 many pple without knowing lyk tat lei..and pple haf been saying i look lyk ah lian man..shits la..must do sth to it lo..tarnish my reputation mann..

din manage to persuade my mum to go msia for seafood on sun and there goes my wish to travel overseas during hols..so sad =( dunno need to wait how long b4 i can go overseas liaos..let alone my taiwan..and i realise oso that theme park has half price promo lei..waseh noe this so late if not i would haf jio-ed pple go with me le lo..this would be a substitute to my genting theme park..but sad to sae dun haf oso..

holiday week 2(:

2008-12-17T01:30:00.006+08:00

monday.
we had lunch at just acia b4 gg to school for the smrt meeting..haha wads attractive at just acia is it has free flow drinks and icecream!! ((: the food wise ok la not bad..the meeting went fine just that i dun really lyk the hr pple..dunno y just instinctively dun really lyk them..and they even cheated on the hours for the minutes la..which i totally hated..the reason they gave is that some pple need to recce the place so worte the ending time later..i was lyk...just bcoz SOME pple went for the recce and you wrote the meeting ended lyk one hr later?? how great..i wonder what grades you will be getting for your ethics..

tuesday.
went to k with sab. we wanted to jec one lei..but when i reached jec i had a shock! haha coz the place was shut la..dunno its shut since when but this really shows how long i haf not been there really 今时不同往日 already lo..rmb my rv daes jec is one of the places i frequent after school lo..时过境迁又再次回到那个地方可以深刻的感觉到时间的流逝 alrites so we went to clementi de instead..the only good thing there is no one will chase you when the time is up but seriously, i want to complain their food there la..everytm i go cine is bento set wan lo..and their bento set quite up to std one lei, but dunno y i get to eat spaghetti la..and they totally cheated my feelings can..coz sab ask the staff wads in the spaghetti she sae seafood..SEAFOOD can..then in the end, wad o get?? the only seafood i saw on my plate is only 虾米 can..theres really nth in the dish..except spaghetti, sauce and 虾米..almost fainted when it was served..i feel so cheated lo..

wednesday.
FINALLY i went to rebond my hair!! i was still rather scared on tuesday night coz i scared i will regret this decision that i make..im so shocked with the 'final product'. thats so not me la..coz i din haf my specs on throughout the process so i was thinking ok arh it looks fine then when i put on my glasses at the end, i was telling myself lyk oh my whos that..its really v different sia..now my hair feels so light..i can finally understand wads 长发飘逸的感觉 now the hair dun feel lyk mine..有种好不切实际，随时会失去它的感觉 something lyk a dream then suddenly i wake up with my horrible hair again kind..haha i seriously hope my hair can last as it is now for long..if not i will feel so heatbroken.

thursday.
met up with pris and marilyn and ate our dinner at waraku..i must sae the staff there are too friendly le..and each welcome u everytime a customer steps in..when everyone is doing that its v noisy lo, to me..haah food wise not bad..we had a fun time taking fotos, as usual!! :D

monday.we had lunch at just acia b4 gg to school for the smrt meeting..haha wads attractive at just acia is it has free flow drinks and icecream!! ((: the food wise ok la not bad..the meeting went fine just that i dun really lyk the hr pple..dunno y just instinctively dun really lyk them..and they even cheated on the hours for the minutes la..which i totally hated..the reason they gave is that some pple need to recce the place so worte the ending time later..i was lyk...just bcoz SOME pple went for the recce and you wrote the meeting ended lyk one hr later?? how great..i wonder what grades you will be getting for your ethics..

tuesday.
went to k with sab. we wanted to jec one lei..but when i reached jec i had a shock! haha coz the place was shut la..dunno its shut since when but this really shows how long i haf not been there really 今时不同往日 already lo..rmb my rv daes jec is one of the places i frequent after school lo..时过境迁又再次回到那个地方可以深刻的感觉到时间的流逝 alrites so we went to clementi de instead..the only good thing there is no one will chase you when the time is up but seriously, i want to complain their food there la..everytm i go cine is bento set wan lo..and their bento set quite up to std one lei, but dunno y i get to eat spaghetti la..and they totally cheated my feelings can..coz sab ask the staff wads in the spaghetti she sae seafood..SEAFOOD can..then in the end, wad o get?? the only seafood i saw on my plate is only 虾米 can..theres really nth in the dish..except spaghetti, sauce and 虾米..almost fainted when it was served..i feel so cheated lo..

wednesday.
FINALLY i went to rebond my hair!! i was still rather scared on tuesday night coz i scared i will regret this decision that i make..im so shocked with the 'final product'. thats so not me la..coz i din haf my specs on throughout the process so i was thinking ok arh it looks fine then when i put on my glasses at the end, i was telling myself lyk oh my whos that..its really v different sia..now my hair feels so light..i can finally understand wads 长发飘逸的感觉 now the hair dun feel lyk mine..有种好不切实际，随时会失去它的感觉 something lyk a dream then suddenly i wake up with my horrible hair again kind..haha i seriously hope my hair can last as it is now for long..if not i will feel so heatbroken.
thursday.
met up with pris and marilyn and ate our dinner at waraku..i must sae the staff there are too friendly le..and each welcome u everytime a customer steps in..when everyone is doing that its v noisy lo, to me..haah food wise not bad..we had a fun time taking fotos, as usual!! :D

friday.
met up with the head for our roadshow and surprisingly everyth went smoothly..no too smooth liao that im doubting his words..tats the shortest meeting..everyth oso ok anyth oso ons..haha..after that went to eat dim sum buffet at this hotel (cant rmb)..its a bad experience..wanted to treat myself sth nice to aid recovery de lo but apparently i wasnt v happy after eating..the food was served v slowly..the service is bad (still charge us 10% for it!!)..the food comes in v small portions..they miss our orders (withour feeling apologetic when we told them so)oh yes the horrible part is the dessert!!! theres gui ling gao and mango pudding..which one will u eat first? i happily eating mango pudding thinking i made the rite choice..still askmy frens y eat gui ling gao first so bitter, later can taste the sweetness of the pudding meh..well apparently this seems to suggest that i fail my sciences..coz later when i eat my gui ling gao, it feels SUPER bitter la..as wad they sae 加倍苦..so its lyk kinda sad coz i had a sad and bitter ending to the buffet when im suppose to feel happy):

then went to watch 海角7号with ying..was rather disappointed with the show act..dun really uinderstand how van and the gal got tgt..lyk they just got tgt suddenly kind..was rather touched by the ending song sang though(: nice song! recommended..will appreciate the song better if you see the show i suppose:p

没有我想象中的唯美浪漫
没有我想象中的凄美动人
前半段有些罗索
后半段则交待地仓促

but still if i were to choose again will still choose to watch la..so yupp no regrets! (:

抉择

2008-12-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

她发现开始有些变化了
而这变化会带来一点尴尬和失落
所以她做了个决定保持原状将一切还原恢复正常
是该停止了

holiday is finally here!!

2008-12-03T12:47:00.002+08:00

the much awaited holiday is here!! haha realise i haven been updating my blog but thats coz i really cant cope with all the projs after mid term la, thats y..plus some horrible grp mates that i haf, totally worsen the whole experience..i will always rmb this powerful statement that my beloved grp mate made: "even IF i dont do it, you all will still do it right? i mean IF i dont do it." haha for more details read yuzhu's blog..haha..if i feel lyk it, i will update more abt my horrible proj experience..everytime i tok abt that, my blood real boils man..

alrites back to hol! after finance on sat, went to eat w yu and walk ard..haha ealk frm ps all the way to bugis..haha..but time din pass as fast as when i was mugging..dunno y..time seemed to really FLY during the study week lei..oh shit i think results gonna release next week but i dun really want to noe my grades..tats the best i can do i suppose..i haf tried my best but i dun really want to know the outcome of this..okok back to hol..after that i went home to slp..haha really slp 够本 can, to make up for all the slp i lack i slp from lyk 3pm till the next morning sia (awaking in between)..haha really slp lyk a pig man..but tats really to make up for all the slp lost in the sem la..no i dun think make up all liao..coz i dun rmb myself slping early or anytm b4 1am after mid term break..yes its tat bad..haha..

mon we had ft dining, but i think the food is real horrible..its a torture sitting there for 2 hrs eating man..esp when the appetiser is served i was lyk omg am i in a forest..haha ok tats abit exaggerating but yea i haf this close to nature feeling lo..so apparently i din touch the appetiser except to finish the egg and the tuna..haha..i think my dish was the most intact..i cant wait for the waitress to clear my dish away man seriously..i was praying the waitress faster clear it away lo..lucky prof wasnt really there grading sia if not my dining sure CUI liao..the soup was ok la..just tat drinking too much will make me 腻 of the taste lo..but still ok i can still make myself finish it though i dun really drink these kinda soup of the day when im outside..haha wad big sacrifice i made man..then come the main course..the chicken was nice la but dunno y western dining always haf some funny side deco and food..and this time tat dun really look nice la..and it taste awful to me so haha tats left rather intact on my plate too..so i concluded that i really cmi for western dining..i hope i haf a choice to chinese cuisine next time i meet up w my clients man..if not i will REALLY need to learn and get accustomed to western dining sia..western dining is a real torture for me..and some more need to eat so 斯文oso..lyk acting as if im some 千金小姐dining w her 富家少爷..oh yes the ONLY nice thing is the dessert!!real nice..and the choc is delicious!(: so at least the ending was sweet(:

after dining went to watch madagascar with petrina..haha the show was rather funny and cute(: quite entertaining..can watch if we are too stressed mugging..haha..then we walk walk after that, before gg for the tax gathering..

oh the tax gathering is real nice..the food is nice! the pple is nice! the scenery is nice! plus its a treat! wad else can i ask for? before i went i was still wondering how it will b lyk..ok it turned out better than i expected..hehe..not as uncomfortable as i thought it would be(: i guess we pple adapt to our surroudings real fast..haha and i was telling yu hopefully theres min walking during the dinner coz my feet real hurts after wearing the heels for lyk 10 hrs..and she was still telling me wun la, cant poss walk when we are eating rite..haha she is wrong man..we did walk when we are eating..real grateful to yeeloong for treating us there..its at chinaclub la..dunno if i can ever go there again lo..the night scenery is real swee frm the top eh((: suddenly it makes my e$33 worth it for bidding for him(: he is a real pop prof and he REALLY teach well!! must save to bid for him for tp next(: haha and he brot lyk 18 bottles of wine, offering one cup to everyone..the smell of the wine is real strong la..and a sip of it is lyk..hmm dunno how to describe, but anw tats all i had, one sip..haha..though he sae we cant leave if we din finish all the 18 bottles..the guys can really drink..haha coz they are guys mah..the food was more or less finished since almost all went for the second round..this shows tat the food was nice(: i think most o the pple frm the class turn up for the gathering too :p

towards the end, yeeloong sae we must all tell a joke to get the exit pass to leave the place..if we skipped our turn then it will b double joke..haha..i think he lyk to listen to joke lo..everytime sae he want hear jokes..haha but i think coz got generation gap tats y he cant get some o our jokes..hehe..but anw to get off this, the joke get lamer and colder along the way..its real cold la *shivers* and i think most i hear b4, frm those taiwan 综艺节目..haha got some new ones too..so anyone who wants to bid for him must prepare a list of jokes to tell lo:p on the way home my feet real hurts liao..always at such times, i will wonder how those 太太s manage to walk and shop ard in those super high heels e whole day and can still enjoy themselves..enjoy to be tortured by the heels??!

tue went to k!! haha my much awaited k!!ying was late, again..haha i expected tat oso anw..erms we went to k still and we get to k till 3pm! haha yea so its not so bad..but kbox de aircon real strong sia..i brg jacket liao eh still v cold lo! k-ing still makes me happy! after tat walk and shop ard..and as always, at such times i will wonder if im sm rich 太太s i can just buy anyth i feel lyk buying and dun hafta look at the price tag everytime i wanna buy sth..well but it feels good to meet up with 老朋友, where i can be at my truest self - be it ah lian or wad (: feels great!! =D

oh but after tat its sm horrible expereince which i shall not mention here..yupp tats all for now..will update again:p

would want to go out and go k during the hol! ask me out if ur free oso k=D

SHORT term torture ended

2008-09-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

tax class haf surprise quiz..and coz its surprise, everyone is lyk wondering if theres quiz when the class started last tue..well, there wasnt..shd we b glad?this would mean that we will go into class every week, wondering if theres quiz every week eh..so scary la..and the class, surprisingly, ended early..i was still thinking mb he was kidding us..telling us ok class ended, nw we will haf quiz..but apparently, the class DID end early on tue..wonder when the quiz will be..and wad format its gg to be lyk..

Well fortunately or unfortunately, we had our quiz alr!its sort o a heavy burden gotten rid of..and we were still wondering if the Prof will be so kind to just give us true false or mcq, since tax got lots and lots of calculations..apparently, our wish did come true..possibly the profs are indeed kind..haha..finally had a good sleep after tat..more is to come..

we had just reached a concensus in class todae, to haf our quiz on sat after the wed class, which effectively means i will only three daes to mug for it..and to make life more interesting for me, i haf my first presentation on fri!! im certain this is only the beginning..excitement includes an officially declared term break for project chiong-ing cum self study pia-ing and climax in week 9 and 10, overwhelmed with presentations, mid terms and quizzes..what a challenging term ahead for me..i hope i can survive..

How i wish i can just burn my books, notes and reading and rmb all the content after drinking them, just lyk how we drank the 佛水..i wun mind buying two books in tat case, one for reading and one for burning..why is it that i can rmb the lyrics of the songs i memorised years ago but not the theories that i just studied ydae?so does it mean tat if i study those theories years ago, i can rmb them now?!dun think so eh since i dun rmb all tat i memorise for chi lit and the j2 stuff..haha weird..hopefully some one can find an ans to this then i will haf no problems studying liao..

why do i always haf this feeling tat im leading an aimless, no-life life..

go k someday..hopefully tat dae comes fast..

12 莲花 (:

2008-09-05T00:50:00.006+08:00

went to watch 12 lotus..after all the last minutes changes in timing and venue, we finally settled for eng wah at sun plaza..we were 5 minutes late for the movie (ard there i think) and we missed the yanzi part xp haf been wanting to watch the show, even before the show was out..possibly coz of personal preferences for royston tan(: AND I SERIOUSLY THINK HE IS MUCH BETTER THAN HIM!!

alr aware tat 12 louts has a super sad storyline, but still i cant help crying..i think i was lyk crying throughout the show..its lyk u feel so tired after the show coz of all the crying, which somehow seemed to drain away all your energy..ha so mb i can watch the show next time to haf a gd cry if im sad or sth..i did try to control can, but when u watch certain scenes, when u hear certain songs, the combi just makes my tears…

the show is rather heavy on hokkien, but i’d think it’s a plus point..lyk its sth tats 原汁原味, preserve the ‘feel’ of the show..for those who dun understand dialect, theres both eng and chi subtitles (though some of the translation sound weird, esp the lyrics of the songs)..though i haf heard of the song 12 莲花, but nv hear the full version before..now come to think of it, it’s a real sad song..even listening to it, i haf this sad feeling..

i lyk the part when the song 12 莲花was used to ‘thread’ the whole story tgt..
i lyk the songs chosen for the show , esp the 家后 part (so apt)..
i lyk the part when 阿龙 propose to 阿花 (somehow it touched me)..
i lyk the lyrics they changed for the songs to suit the story (if u paid attention to the lyrics)..

一个女人可以为了爱，牺牲她的一切，或许有人会笑她傻，但是爱情呢，似乎没有理智可言，除了当事人，又有谁能评论对于错呢？

爱赌的人啊，要早点戒赌啊，免得倒是把身边的人“赌输”，“卖了”，才来忏悔．不要在上海周围关心你，爱你的人了！

钱不是万能，但没有钱却万万不能
或许是因为如此，人们往往才会被贪念所迷惑。当我们在谴责戏中人物因钱而出卖爱情，亲情的当儿，曾想过周遭是否有人也因钱而背叛过自己呢？钱真的很重要？

没有痛，怎么会有爱？
没爱，哪来的痛？

its all coming back again

2008-08-30T12:46:00.002+08:00

sch has started, once again..and im no longer a freshie liao..haha..how did i act spend my 4 mth hol, i wonder..while pple are all away for hol, enjoying the snow in korea, shopping in hongkong, eating in taiwan, overseas exchange, usa for work and travel, intern-ing, ocip-ing etc, wad haf i been doing..it seems lyk i haf wasted my summer man..i shd haf engaged myself in some enriching activities man lyk ocip..besides crazily going after lin you jia at bugis, and the bdae celeb some time ago, i realised i haf been working only..how boring my life is man..other than being perhaps, financially independent, there isnt anyth im proud to say i haf acheived during this summer break..real sad huh..when can i go to taiwan man..

well sch starts = buying text/photocopy notes and lec slides + endless proj meetings + LOTS of deadlines to meet + MANY prac qn to be done + PILES of readings to be done..and the list just goes on..when im working, i would want to study..when im studying, i would love to go work..how ironic..i haf lots of work to do..but as all these work starts to pile up, all the more reluctant im to start clearing them and more work just come in..a bad cycle..so gotta get started SOONN!!!

and the episodes i haf accumulated for 篮球火!! argh my 篮球火!!!tats gonna be my motivation..

li jia wei!

2008-08-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

I haf been following the table tennis events in the olympics..haha yea only table tennis..was almost late for my class tat dae catching the semi finals..though she lost, I believed she has put up a good battle, at least for the semi finals matches..she announced it mb her last olympic le): somehow was feeling rather depressed when I heard that..

haf ur got any idea how much pressure she was withstanding when she was in the match?any idea how much hard work she has to put in, how much she has sacrificed, to be where she was standing todae at the olympic?any idea how powerful a opponent she was dealing with?instead of encouraging her on, ur act scolded her for losing points during the match, saying things lyk such an easy ball also din manage to get it in, y cant she just move faster to get that ball etc..and some even, debating on the old old topic of Spore using foreign talent in the sports arena, questioning if there was a need for us Singaporeans to be so happy with her entering the semis..whether she is a singaporean not, SHE IS 李佳薇.to me that’s sufficient..

佳薇哭了，我也哭了。还是想为她加加油，辛苦你了。
the other gal is the rising star of Singapore man..LOTS o potential..
冯天薇，加油了！前途无量啊！(:

bye bye

2008-08-17T23:53:00.003+08:00

its my last dae of work todae..and i must really sae i regretted to offer my help man..fri is supposed to be my off in lieu to make up for me working on National Day..but sm ugent matter crop up and im called in to relief..and its real sian for me la..was initially thinking of doing a favour for her since im free anyway but it certainly doesnt pay to be kind..coz sat got lots o classes and theres still lots of work to be photocopied for tmr..so i practically spent the whole dae photocopying can..and knowing her pattern when she work, really zo bo kind so i nidda prepare for next week's work too!!argh!!its lyk im working till sun only but i hafta take care of things until next week..coz i noe she wun do a gd job and some teachers will be rather angry if the work they haf given to us in advance was still not done by the time they want to use them..so photocopy photocopy and photocopy..this was somewad how i spent my sun there too..but when she came on sun (seeing that i haf alr printed a PILE of worksheets), then she sae, xiumin arh 不用印了，我可以印的，放住就好。我本来昨天要印的，但是怕印错，所以没印。 walao eh wad crap is this man..so fake la..and u noe wad she act complained sae i din update alot o receipt bk can..walao eh..how many things do u expect me to do man..i alr photocopy lyk siao, everyth print swee swee alr, wad more do u want me to do..really arh..asking too much from us lo..and din haf any sense of gratitude at all..lyk me helping out on fri (at such a short notice), only thank me after i hint to her i regret agreeing to help..real bad..

i think i wun want to be a boss next time(at least for now)..some how, it makes me feel as if one loses all the perspectives from the viewpoint of an employee after being an employer for too long..all that matters to him/her by then will only to make profits..every decision made are profit driven..but doesnt one need to consider long term relationships with the customers as well?doesnt one need to consider giving some (at least some) benefits to your employees for working so hard for u?afterall u depend on them for all the revenue that u collect..i simply dun understand...

alrites thats enuff of all the complains..move on to other things..lessons learnt:

1. TIME is all u need to see through a person..

some pple may look lyk so irritating but in fact they are the best..
some pple may look so hard to please but they are in fact the easier to get along coz they are the most truthful ones ard..
some pple may look so friendly but in fact, they are the ones who have been scolding pple and leaving a bad reputation behind..
some pple may look lyk some dedicated professionals, but in fact they have ulterior motives behind their moves..
some pple may look so kind, but in fact they are the most 虚伪 of all..

there are some pple whom i really respect from the bottom of my heart and of coz some whom i will sack immediately if i were the boss..

will drop by for a visit when i miss them..

2. its sometimes better not to be too informed.

when u find out too much abt sth, u get to jnow how 'well' treated u are in a company. when u noe too much abt someone, u get to know the ugly side of a person and lead you to believing how practical we humans are..i would rather be ignorant and naive, to continue to believe how nice the world is, how helpful people are and how kind reality can be..

3. things are taken for granted.

money is not everyth man..everyone noes this but can we truly practice this? employees are paid to work for the company but pls dun think its expected of them to do ALL the things for you..do sth too swee, more is expected frm u the next time..do sth too cui, sure kena scolded lyk siao..haiz nth is enuff..employers try to squeeze every bit out of you to make their money worth for employing you..pls consider wad benefits you as an employer had given to the employee in exchange FIRST..

4. dont anyhow sign a contract and be bounded by it
(haha but im still a minor now so i suppose im not legally bounded by it?)

well, despite all these not so happy things, i will still miss the place..not because of the ... but coz of all the REAL dedicated and pro pple ard..

HAPPY WORKING GUYS!

roadshow @ woodlands!

2008-08-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

took a dae off for the roadshow at Woodlands..well initially I tot it would turn out quite..coz when we came we realised that the goodie bags were not packed! theres lyk 300+ bags and none were packed..possibly we had taken things for granted..thinking that the goodie bags would come packed just as it was last year..well but things always turned out otherwise): seriously 祸不单行 man..we realised that the posters to be put on the exhibition panels for the roadshow cant be pasted on firmly using blu-tack..so in the end had to use LOTS of blu tack to fix just one poster on the panels..we used up one pack of blutack just to get 4 posters up..waseh real sian diao man..its lyk such a bad start..giving us this bad feeling that the response of the roadshow will be kinda bad..

but LUCKILY, we managed to get pple to sign up (of coz there were times we were treated lyk issurance agents/salesperson and got rejected)..im real surprised to see that there are act pple who are concerned abt all these..i tot pple will be thinking we were just bull shitting lo..some of the participants were real on too..haha..coz we tot that they mb tired out so had a shift scheule kind to rotate their roles: mobile ambassadors, sign up personnels and exhibition guides..of coz the sign-up personnels would be the slackest and the moblie ambassadors were the xiong-est..when there was a change in role, some act commented that they wanted to remain as mobile ambassadors!being sign up personnels were just too slack for them “not challenging” as what they had put it..woohoo~ so cool man..so on..how could we not grant you ur wish rite?overall it was good I would say..and their side was also quite pleased, (no in fact, VERY pleased) with the good response that we achieved..the goodie bags that they prepared for us were act NOT enough lo..haha guess how good the response rate was..

i believed (and I strongly believe so) the high sign ups could be mainly coz of the lucky draw prizes that we gave out..well FREE goodie bags was also a selling point..though this made me witness the ‘kiasu’ and ‘grab all the free stuff whenever possible’ attitudes of some Singaporeans (some even asked wad was inside the goodie bag b4 they sign up..and of coz knowing that it contain nth of much value except a NEWater bottle, they see no point in signing up since ‘there was act nth inside the bag sign up for wad’) at least this proved that our point to attract the crowd using lucky draw prizes WORKED FANTASTICALLY!!oh my, I wonder if I shd be happy to announce this.. if not for the questionaire that we got them to fill up to entitle them a chance to the lucky draw, I might even be abit 心虚 with such a high sign up rate (coz I would be asking myself if they are the real participants for the signup or just..)

oh yes!and I must really mention this guy..he was real 拽 can..he so hao lian la..kept on showing off how many signups he had got and comparing it with the others..kept on telling pple he achieved zero failure, meaning NO ONE had rejected to sign up if he had approached them, quoting him, 没有人跟我说不的，你只要跟他们将就可以的，我出马他们不会不要的。如果有人说不要，我就不做了。Kept on telling pple how hardworking he was, telling the whole world that he had not stopped for one minute ever since he came..waseh 欠扁can..not lyk we forbid you to rest la, say till lyk we ill treat you liddat..i was so bu shuang la so when he sae 我来到现在都没有休息到，I sae 对啦对啦，我们一直都在休息嘞..this sounds abit attitude though but I really cant stand him man..argh irritating guy..though hes real zai to get lyk 300 sign ups alone but I bet he must haf cheated a lot o aunties to sign up coz he was saying lyk 来来来，free goodie bags 要不要？I wondered those who signed up with him actually knew wad they sign up for not..or got cheated by the goodie bags, or simply cant stand him toking toking and toking non-stop when they refused to sign up initially..den towards the end, the staff came to take a look..then he was complaining to the staff lo, saying how poor thing he was, no water to drink (coz the response was too good and the bottles, which were supposedly for our consumption, were given out in the goodie bags in the end) etc, she went to buy vitagen for us to drink lo..walao eh made us so paiseh man..

other than him, the roadshow was GREAT!having a sign up of 507 participants, much much exceeded our targetted number..it was a unique experience experience too, toking to strangers..though I started off rather sin diao (coz I haf nv lyk this kind of toking to strangers things) i soon get used to it and got better after toking to more pple..indeed practice makes perfect..

it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be(: yay!!well done people!!

lin you jia is here!!

2008-07-19T23:53:00.003+08:00

等了这么久，我的林宥嘉终于来了!!

the queue for his autograph session was SUPER long la..i reached bugis at abt 3pm..i was still thinking, ha okie not so bad, coz i still see pple gathering in front of the stage..well but who noes, as i walked further in, i realised the queue was lyk so long that its separated (coz of the carpark) to the toast box side la!!waseh man!!its alr lyk 3.20pm liao eh and we were still outside toastbox..oh man we cant possibl stay there even when he's on stage performing ba..pls no pls!!haha luckily they squeezed the crowd and managed to squeeze us into the area in front of the stage(: haha hafta thx ying for lending me her digi cam to take fotos of yoga man（：

大概每个活动都是师妹先出场。是怕宥嘉的风采压过她吗：P 当力扬在演唱时，就下起雨了：（要请出宥嘉合唱传说也在下雨。好可惜没能看到宥嘉的出场，因为下着雨，每个都撑起了雨伞：（哈还有个人喊道：林宥嘉，我看不到你！真是说出了好多人的心声啊！！雨下了又停，停了又下，歌迷们也忙着拿伞，收伞。i must really thank those kind fans who shared their umbrellas with me..though i still get wet, coz there were simply too many pple sharing one umbrella and the rain could be real big at times, im still grateful for the sharing of the umbrellas(: well yet on the other hand, there were some without umbrellas but wanna share with others, so selfishly stood under the umbrella as if its his and not allowing others share as well.. (possibly afraid that he might get wet as a result)

只要雨势变小，后面的歌迷都会喊道：收伞！收伞！哈，场面还蛮搞笑的。林宥嘉的现场功力当然是无可置疑的啦！超赞, 超棒的！听着他演唱，真是一种享受！好想去看他演唱会哦！去他签唱和去仔仔的，感觉是不太一样的。说不出一个所以然，但仔仔就会像个白马王子 (afterall he is 偶像派的），让我觉得遥不可及，而宥嘉呢，会让我感觉好舒服，就像是个埋藏在心里的愿望终于达成了的狂喜（：他超容易high 的耶，可能是开过演唱会。。哈哈so enjoy 的在唱歌。

his autograph session really got lots o pple man..i queued for lyk one hour plus before i got on the stage, and still got lots of pple behind me la..heard that he din manage to finish signing for all coz he got other events on after that..

很欣赏他，看着他认真的演唱，卖力的表演，朝high 的演出，台下看的我们也好兴奋，好开心。林宥嘉，一个年纪和我差不多的人，就已经赚到了他人生中的一百万，开了3场个人演唱会并且场场爆满，发了个人专辑，也得到了不少前辈的赞许及外界的肯定，实在不简单，可想而知，他所要面对的压力不是我能想象的。

非常欣赏他
欣赏他的态度
欣赏他卖力，认真的演唱
欣赏他的可爱（this hafta pay attention to his little actions+the way he toks 他本人也挺可爱的！)
欣赏他的诚恳和真实，不做作。

好高兴能观赏到他的现场演出，虽然淋了雨，但还是没后悔来！(唯一的遗憾是没去他的音乐会at temasek poly..coz his even more high there man..and he walks ard la..mb im so lucky tat dae that he'd just walk to my side..waseh then that will be 近距离 liao eh..shd haf queued for the tickets tat time la! hai wasted man! )

继续加油！林宥嘉，你的努力我们都看到了！

绣敏疯狂的迷恋着林宥嘉！

new yet familiar

2008-07-16T12:53:00.001+08:00

right after the previous work ended, i started anot work..haha..i called them up to ask if i can start a few daes later eh..but apparently they say no coz they are short o pple..alrite alrite but at least i get to work at a place thats near my hse..and its a place tat im quite familiar with since i worked there before...but certainly there are new teachers (which some can be quite unfriendly) and new students (which i dun noe)..as usual there will b parents calling to look for her but refuse to tell me wads wrong..haha fine then save me all the trouble..

oh yea..the previous admin was partially irresponsible..partially coz she only did the computer stuff..the rest all din do la..so tats y im quite bz these few daes trying to sort things up and update the stuff..and the place is still the same..although its now renovated, still, its poorly maintained..especially the toilet! i will try not to use the toilet la..

somehow, it feels lyk time has travelled back to the daes that i was working there before i started sch..and somehow this makes me feel as if i haf went through alot in this one year..dun really noe how to put this in words..

anw will update if there are more exciting or interesting happenings there(:

last dae of work

2008-07-15T12:38:00.003+08:00

its our last dae of work and apparently the perm staff there all dunno, except the HR..act its kinda sad..to think we act work there for lyk two mths without interacting with the perm staff there..they din ask us to join them or lunch either..perhaps its coz we are working in the conference room tats y, min interaction with them..its only at the later part, when we get chased out of the conference room (coz they needed it for their meetings to prepare for their audits) to the table outside, that we started to tok to a few of them..haha a few of them are quite friendly(:

our job is rather slack..basically its only data entry..so mb the only things i learnt there are: 1. picked up some basic excel skills 2. type slightly faster 3. don't trust adults too easily - there will always be backstabers ard in the office (and its usu those that u think are nice and gd) as well as those wolves in sheep clothings. oh yes one more: know more online game sites!haha(:

the last dae of work was slack too..we basically finish all our work at 4+ pm..so the rest of the time was spent taking fotos and handing over the stuff we did to the boss..haha we took many fotos..

the temps(:

the server room!

this is the freezing cold room where we spent many afternoons inside. there are 2 air conditioners inside to maintain the room at lyk 16 degrees celcius, (according to them) so that their server wun be down. as they put it, its lyk winter season for us when we were inside.

the music gal(:

haha coz she plays music in the office..and the music she played are those we enjoyed, so we called her the music gal..shes v friendly too, sharing with us any food she has(:

the HR assistant(:

another friendly perm staff there..shes rather cute=D and shes of the same age as me!!

one of the supervisors(:

he is the kindest supervisors(: we were (supposedly) attached to one supervisor each..but apparently we were too insignificant in the company and they cant really be bothered abt us..only this supervisor tok to us regularly..haha and he qt slack oso..sometimes when we haf no work he'd ask us to 'wayang wayang abit'..hahaha he lyks to sae 'walao' and 'jialat' too..somehow the way he sae it makes it sound so funny..

haha..its all over now..the canteen there sucks..coz its lyk monopoly so the food wasnt nice and cheap..which make us having to travel to the hawker centre outside to haf our lunch..dun think i will go back to work again..but i'd say its a good experience working there:p

bidding is killing me

2008-07-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

this week is super stress for me k..all thanks to the bidding of our mods..omg i din noe bidding is so exhausting can..bidding is a real tortorous process..

1. you need to decide on wad mods to take for the sem (which is not easy coz hafta make sure the mods u are taking doesnt make your sem too xiong or too slack..)
2. after confirming the mods, you nidda ask ard for the profs, see who is better la etc (nidda find prof that can teach well and give marks generously haha, and at the same time, manage our e$ well if we wanna bid for gd prof since gd prof are ex)
3. arrange the timetable so that the classes doesnt clash
4. most imptly hafta find kakis to take the mods with you (coz most if not all the mods requires us to do projects)

and so in the process, i spent a lot of money, both e$ and S$. i used up lots o sms to gather and research on the market rates..the sms that i used up in this week alone can last me for a month i think, if i dun waste my sms..not only money la, still got time spent toking on the fone n msn to discuss, and my energy can..last sun oso troubled by bidding and i cant fully utilise my precious sunday to watch my show): and there was a nite i cant slp well coz we haven decide and confirm on the mods n bids when the deadline for our bidding was drawing near..and the next dae when we finally confirm our bids le i slept too well and i was late for work..kns..and yea the night when i wanted to bid, oasis was DOWN!! which makes me even more sian diao..i was thinking of bidding le then can sleep peacefully, who noes oasis to be down!

first round of bidding over le..and i cant get two o my mods, just becoz of a few cents can!!! kns!! i bidded for CAT for 38.01 and wads the min bid?? 38.5!! then i bidded FT for 12.01 and guess wad..the lowest bid turned out to be 12.5!!! argh had i know i would haf spent lyk $1 more to save me all the trouble now..dun think i can really 安心 until i get all my bids successfully la..sian diaoz..spent too much to bid oso 心痛 and scared not enuff money for subsequent sems, spent too little lei scared cant get our mods..really every cents counts..cant splurge on one sem then next sem cfm die..waseh its really market forces in action eh..demand for good prof high drives prices up! when there are some kiasu or rich pple in the market who die die want the mods, they r willing to spend to get it and in the end, spoil the market..pple not in my sch would not haf been able to understand the agony we are going through de..they dun understand why cant we just spend lyk $5 more to secure the bids instead of worrying not being able to get the mods..they dun understand why we hafta save the money when its not real money, and somemore the account will be topped up every sem..haiz 有苦说不清，不是当事人是不能体会的。

i must really thank jieyi, keith and shiyang for their precious advice and directions given when im so lost..and also yu if not i will be bidding alone liao eh, which makes me even more lost..and my frenz serene, ade, alfred, juliet, rachel, kevin, weizi, kiente and yunjing for telling me their mods so that we can plan to attend the classes tgt and their bids to estimate the market rates... and many others who haf helped me in one way or anot..a million thanks!(: if not i would haf 死得更难看...

argh i hafta go through this every sem..omg!! gonna bid again..its lyk going through the whole process again la..and the results would be out tmr, 4 hours after the bidding sys closes..haha efficient ba..pass me ur luck so that i can get my bids hor!!!

drastic change

2008-07-06T21:15:00.010+08:00

so many things happened in this week..

of coz the one which impacts me the most (in a positive way) will be tat lin you jia is coming singapore!!yay!!i bot his album!!tat dae i went to laser flair to get back my deposit..oh yea i was almost cheated by them which made me rather angry but tats settled le...and then i saw the poster abt youjia's activities in singapore!so excited man..then i cant see his album there eh so ran to sembawang music to buy..guess wad..its oso out of stock there!!waseh i was so scared its out of stock la then i chiong to toa payoh de cd rama to get one..so excited + happy man!yay!! got sth to look fwd in the hol le!!there is a 换票会 on sat at bugis but its while stocks last kind..and this kinda things sure got some fans who are 100 times more crazy than me who will go there queue super early..haha then i haf this weird thinking: mb everyone thinks the same way as me and fewer pple turn up in fact? haha then i oso 心痒痒 lyk nv go abit 对不起自己 at least i tried.. so i made a crazy decision to go after my work..but as expected the queue is looonnng la..满足一下我自己..so went home after tat..okie u may find this stupid or crazy but yea just to anw im going to his 签唱..gonna ask ard for digi cam again le..his album is v 耐听((: YAY!!finally my lin you jia is coming le!!

start of the queue

the other end

alrite anot major thing will b my job..大人做事都好虚伪! 怎么会这样呢？i hope i wun grow up to be lyk them..no! i will not grow up to be lyk them..they all noe when our last dae is and they alr promised us that they will extend alr lei..then suddenly on the last dae itself sae they nidda check with this and that..whether they nid us not la, whether they can not la, whether its within their budget not la..wad crap lo..shdnt all these be done and settled earlier..i really dun lyk it when things are done at the last min la..and she did ask me to come back to help out eh then noe sae nidda check with boss..den in the first place shdnt approach me first rite? i feel so cheated la..its lyk u are given a job opportunity and when u report for ur work the next dae u are informed that there is no more vacancy for the position liao..i super sian diao can..

and wads worse..we wun get any pay rise when we extend our contract)): besides this still got..they nidda sign our time sheet for us..so tat we can submit to the agency..we gave our timesheet to her at 2+ pm eh then she sae she cant sign for us yet coz she sae wad if she sign le then we ran off before the stated time..wad logic is this man..then nvm when we wanna leave at 5.30pm she sae she cant sign for us!!walao eh..wads this man..she sae she nidda rush sth urgent for the big boss so cant sign for us and told us to get it the next dae..wad shit la..how can we take it the next dae?? the agency only processed our pay on the 15th and 30th lo..we sae we hafta get it then she sae bo bian nidda wait for her till 7pm to sign!!waseh dua pai can..so bo bian lo hafta wait..we want our money mah..so i was super angry (for making us to wait so long) and disappointed (for being cheated and getting to noe adults being wolves in sheep clothings) 因为某些事突然又想到你，好想打给你，但都这么久没联络了，所以最后还是打消了这念头.

anw i was saying how i hated the way they work and handled our stuff when i narrate the incident to my parents tat night..but sad to sae this 人是现实的..much as i hate to admit tat..i was still saying how 虚伪 they are i think im not any better too..i did extend my contract with them..quoting my fren 'the pay is freaking high throw away all the so called values. i can assure u tat u made the right choice'. are we going to forego all our 'so called values'? did the society and the environment shape us to be liddat?? i got anot job offer le and i think i gonna work all the way during the hol..lyk so sad so no life eh..but if i dun work where do i get my money from?

before i take up the other job and get more deprived of time n freedom, i wanna go out..im not a 工作狂 k..who would want to work if one can choose not to..jio me out if ur free my dear friends..of coz im only available for dinner after my work..i wanna buy shoe from either charles & keith or d&c i think..still got where got sell nice to wear and durable shoes? yes flats i want get a comfortable one man..the one i haf is killing me can..and i want to use the robinsons/john little voucher lei..i want to go k again before sch starts too..and i wanna rebond my hair lei..but how? when? where? who wanna go with me? argh!!my summer is gone liddat): my only motivation will be lin you jia for now((:

nidda bid soon..anot headache thing..bidding, much freedom as we haf, it can be a torture..freedom is not always good and desired..

sianz..can only blog lyk once a week..coz work now cant blog le..they are having meeting n audits so they nidda use the conference room so we are chased out to the common area..and we are sitting at such unstrategic location la where everyone can see wads on ur laptop..so cant do anyth illegal..and after facing the laptop for 8-9 hrs a dae, ur eyes will be so tired to on the com and use it when u reach home..so bear with it..weekly entries tat are super long..yupp yupp..

谢谢你们的陪伴 part two

2008-06-27T08:53:00.010+08:00

mon.
klunch+dinner @waraku

MONDAY!!took leave to go out..i haf been going out these few daes..going to 闭门思过 after this week liao..haha..meet up with ade to go klunch..kbox is getting more and more ex now..they are lyk monopolising the market lo coz they get all the latest updates of the hito songs..gonna find other cheaper sub soon..两个人都很享受地在唱一首歌，真是超爽的。esp when u are singing the high 歌，真可以让一个人high 起来。当时的满足，无法贴切地用言语表达。although we get to sing one more extra hour liao, from 11 to 3pm, but still it never feels enough..k always makes me feel so happy, 超enjoy的。 yay!im loving it! i wanna go k again before sch starts! i hope i can fulfill this simple wish(: i haf been longing to go k since dunno when, i haf been wanting to get such a bag, i haf been hoping to own all s&k clothes (haha mb i can go work there and get staff discounts next time:p) thx gal u make my dae! ((:

after that when home for a bathe..den go central to meet the gals for dinner..i tot i was early man coz we arranged to meet at 7pm but its only lyk 6.45pm when i reach..oh time flies man..it has been ages since we met man..i think its lyk the first official gathering after we left nj..haha..mb tats y we chatted for lyk 3 hrs!! the food at waraku was nice..and yr found a shuai ge there..haha not bad(: and he mysteriously appeared in a foto we took..oh the scenery at night there was nice too! i wun mind going there again..after dinner we sat there and chatted..felt a bit paiseh when the waiters/waitresses kept topping our water once its empty though.. thx for the cake, thx for the dinner, thx for the night spent tgt, 谢谢了! and thank you for equipping me with the ability to kill:p haha dun annoy me or u will find ur name inside..

05s11 gathering!

the cake(:

wishes come true

the gift!!

its super cool interior!

wed.
dinner@pepperlunch

had dinner at imm pepper lunch with sab coz she wanted to go budget..i hope thats within her budget..she prepared a cake too(: haha thx! the candle look super big on the cake..hah din bother to 'cut' the cake liao so we jux dig..hahaha..hehe she tok abt her hol and we tok abt everything and anything we can think of..分手前，she made a comment which i shal lnot mention here and 我们说好了要再见了，记得我们的约定喔！

cake

thank you very much for remembering my birthday despite all the impt things to remember!

thank you ade for e klunch, cheese cake and the presents!

thank you yanru yawen huishan and cynthia for the dinner, cake and the gift!

thank you priscilla marilyn for the cake!
thank you for all your bdae wishes: serena ho, yuzhu, ade, nicholas, khuanloon, melissa foo, liqin, sab, ying, serena huang, melissa ho
thank you my dear friends for keeping me company these few nites: pris mari yy yu serena ade yw yr cyn hs sab!

有些朋友是即使很久都不见还可以一见如故的.

由衷地感谢你们和我分享的每时每刻！

谢谢你们的陪伴 part one(:

2008-06-22T11:51:00.002+08:00

tue.
dinnner @ the asian kitchen cum smu tour

yipee!!went out with pris and marilyn on tues..it has been a long long time since we last met man..haha met at city hall and went to raffles city to eat..i think its coz its dinner time, most of the eateries are lyk packed..haha gd biz eh..after taking the long q and us (haha pris and me) not being able to take spicy food, we settled for the asian kitchen..initially was a bit disappointed coz the dish was rather limited..and theres lotsa veg lyk brocolli kind which i dun eat..haha but after tasting the dishes, its good(: haha mb thats wad pris meant by them specialising=p or simply coz i was too hungry then..the portion looks small since they are served in lyk small claypots..but somehow the claypots seem to be able to store quite a fair amt..haha and its lyk one standard fixed price..i wonder how pple order when they are in big groups..order multiple dishes of a kind? whaha...

after dinner mari sae she wanted to go to the toilet..i was lyk wondering y she go toilet again? i tot she jux went before she met us at city hall..the next moment she came back with a cake!!!thanks lots!! haha she tried to light the candles with a lighter borrowed from the waiter..but apparently she looked so afraid of the lighter that she failed..(this reminded me of the times tat pple always get scolded when they cant light a matchstick for the Bunsen Burner=p) so pris took over..haha but she only managed to light only coz she said its too hot..suggesting to use the flame on one candle to light anot, mari followed, only to realise that the candle wax dropped on the cake..oh yea we only remembered to take a foto of the cake after i blew the candle..so how? relighted the candle again..lol..

the cake(:

after which, we walked round raffles city, aimlessly though..and as we were down the escalator to city hall mrt they mention the smu underground passageway..mari sae its famous..haha i din noe that..i rmb once i told a teacher abt it, then she was lyk so shocked and sae, oh i was wondering how students get from one school to anot..no wonder i dun see students crossing the road..lol..and guess wad..they wanted to go smu to take a look at the underground passageway!! haha when i was bringing them there i was telling them, dun haf too high hopes eh..dun be too disappointed when u see the passageway later lei..

haha turned out that they fall in love with smu!! or mb only the facilities..haha..they envy us for the sheltered pathway we haf and not having to walk under the hot sun when we rushed to classes for lessons; they envy us for the nice and quiet gsr that we haf all to ourselves; they envy us for the nice and new facilities which we haf; they envy us for the beautiful landscape we get to see from our seminar rooms; they envy us for the clean and tidy rooms we study in; they envy us for the 'separated-from-other-buildings' library we haf; and they envy us for the so proclaimed '10-times-bigger-than-theirs' gym...haha i feel so proud as a SMU student, living in the city(: (not the forest whahah)

guess where we are

thur.
dinner@nyny

had dinner with yu and yy at new york new york on thur..im real sorry to them coz i was super late..all thanks to my boss, who jux dumped me some work at 5.15pm (when im supposed to leave at 5.30pm) and told me to ot for half an hour to finish the work before i leave..waseh..so i left at 6pm but the bus which brings me to clementi was super super crowded..i waited for lyk tow buses liao still cant even hop on nor squeeze up the bus..no! the bus din even stopped at all la!! sian diaoz!tats coz the ulu place only has one pathetic bus in that area..so it will be SUPER crowded at peak hours..when i finally boarded a bus its alr lyk 6.35pm liddat liaoz (when we were supposed to meet at 7pm xp) and when i finally reached there its alr 730pm liao): so sorry..

ha my fren sae we will get candy floss while waiting de eh but we din haf any..then when we want to place our orders, the waiter sae he wasnt in charge of taking orders de..lol..wads this..luckily he got someone else over to take our orders, if not i think i may not step into the restaurant anymore..i ate fish n chips and yu ate chicken chop..as usual she ate v little and i felt lyk im a greedy pig whenever i ate with her xp well the fish was not bad..somehow it seemed to taste better than the fish at fish n co(: not bad..then come desserts..the one we ordered was lyk full of cream..the cream that we 'dig' out can fill a bowl i think..i lyk mango and i lyk icecream but the conbi of the two wasnt v much to my liking..but still its a nice try!by the time we finish our dinner was alr 9pm lidat le..walk walk ard but most of the shops lyk closing liao): tats abt it..wanted to walk more at amk hub de lei but the shops din wait for me lei x\

fri.
dinner @ 旺角

went to bugis with serena..wanted to wanted to eat the terra cafe there de (coz the name somehow reminds me of njc and i think got disc if i eat there) but well, it seems lyk i too long din go bugis liao, the cafe no longer exists..now they categorise all the restaurants and eatery tgt at level two..which i think is a not bad idea..coz pple lyk us dun haf to walk ard to search where on earth the reastaurants are..easier for us to make choices(: haha made the decision to eat soem chinese cuisine 旺角 sth..somehow we din get a v gd seat again..but anw the food was rather nice..when we were broswing thro the menu, the set meals caught my attention! haha but i couldnt exactly figure out what the whole meal comprises of..coz its lyk coffee or tea + garlic bread + desert or fruit juice or soup..haha lyk some complicated equation lo..she couldnt figure it out either..but still i ordered it..waseh turn out that the meal has lots of things la..the hotplate. juice, garlic bread, soup and dessert! ahah which makes me feel as if the money i spent was super worth it!!haha..and we ended up toking abt them again..after dinner she wanted to haf a dessert (ha coz her meal no dessert) and i think that shop sells real good desserts..coz i da bao back for my mum she sae its super tasty! shall try it personally next time(:

sat.
lunch@cafe cartel

worked half dae todae!and my dad fetched me from work to imm..i quite favour the food at cafe cartel ((: dunno y..just lyk it..ha nth much oh yea except the billing part..i went to the counter to pay for the lunch..so i was lyk asking the cashier lady how do i get the student privilege card she sae mux sign up so of coz the next qn i ask will be how to sign up then she sae go to the counter and apply but added that their counter dun haf..lol..then i saw student card on the list of discount cards..so i was asking student card can haf 10% disc arh..and she sae yes..so i ask my bro for it..i asked her ezlink can mah or wad card she want..but she simply ask if im a student..then she jux gave us the 10% disc..but its not 10% off total bill eh..yet it was clearly printed on the receipt 10% disc..i wonder if students are really entitled to the disc or she jux chin chai gave to us coz i simply asked her too many qn..haha..who noes..as long as got disc..

yay!!wad a happening week..more exciting week coming up!

to be continued...

dear diary

2008-06-16T23:34:00.007+08:00

somehow it appears to me that guys look 100 times more 帅 when they are in formal wear..dunno y i haf such thoughts..seriously when i see guys in formal wear and especially when they can speak so confidently and fluently, they are lyk the centre of my attraction la..haha..okies remind me of this.

dear diary,
today i saw a boy and i wondered if he noticed me he took my breath away.

或许有自信的男人最有魅力吧!

lot 1 (:

2008-06-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

oh yay!! finally managed to go out with ying(: went to lot 1 with her ydae..well tats a seldom last minute meeting which i had though..haha..lot 1 it has been a long time since i last went there..果然今时不同往日..there are so many new shops and oso a new extension..but the new extension was rather disappointing la..considering the amount of time and money they spent into building it..

we ate dinner at this hongkong style eatery..i think its called 湾仔奶茶店 or sth..the food there is not bad(: but the portion is abit big though..haha sth funny happened:p while ying was making the orders and paying, they served a cold beverage..thinking tat it was ying's i happily accepted it..when she returned she sae she ordered a hot yuan yang la yet they served us a cold beverage!! we were still wondering whether to tell them abt it not and meanwhile the drink was melting..in the end, when we finaly decided to 'refund' the drink, the waitress insisted that the drink served to us was the drink we ordered..and we were lyk huh?? we ordered a hot one lei..and noe wad she added 小姐,不要害我..whahaha..so funny..so she 名正言顺 drank it..somemore its worth more than the drink she ordered la..in other words she 赚到了haha :D 赚到at the expense of others..since someone mux haf taken her hot drink instead of the cold one..haha we were laughing and looked ard to see who can the suspects be..whahaha..

after dinner we walked ard..ha found out that laserflair rental rates is beta than ts de..not bad..will consider renting frm them..somehow it makes me feel lyk im leading such a no-life life..only work and lyk home..sad eh..cant imagine i wil hafta lead such life after i graduate..满向往毕业旅行的..oh yea it was published in the news a few daes ago "Why accountants leave profession despite their five-figure salaries"..the reasons stated are lyk long working hours and stressful work environment facing tight datelines etc..will u sacrifice time for a high pay job? at this moment i think i will choose the high pay job and earn money first..quit after a few years if i really cant take it..or is money really tat impt?

it was an enjoyable evening though we only spent lyk 2 hours tgt:)) she is flying off again..离别时,似乎有种离别的感伤..haha..we will meet up again when she is back, definitely! enjoy ur trip gal (:

looking forward to the next week:p

the tunnel tour! :D

2008-06-08T23:39:00.001+08:00

this week's a busy week for me..feel so tired going to work every day..took a half dae leave to go to sch in the morning for our training on tue..went to orchard station to hunt for a suitable location for our booth and roadshow on wed after work..haha we nidda take photos of the spot we want to use but it was lyk kinda weird coz there are so many pple standing ard waiting for their friends..and there were police patroling at that time too..haha wad if they tot we want to take photos for them and come and bash us up..so we were abit paiseh to take photo there..but in the end yunjing still manage to take photos, after the police walked away..hahaha...den after the location hunt went to mac to eat dinner cum meeting..somehow time passes more quickly at night..

oh yes! 5 june came the big dae for the big event!!!! the tunnel tour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!we arranged to meet at city hall at 11..apparently there were pple who were late and there were oso pple who pangseh us..sae will turn up but in the end jux sae cant make it liao..waseh so irresponsible lo..sae will turn up liao den mux reserve the date for it mah y suddenly back out lei..we went to the HQ to register and collect our goodie bags plus refreshments..its kinda weird to be eating refreshments at such a late timing..the time there was spent doing head count, eating, pulling pple to join our roadshows, and basically waiting..coz sec sch students were oso involved in this exercise..and we hafta wait for them to leave first before we can proceed to the station..when we walked to the station is ard 12 plus liao..and as usual, yj claimed to haf charged her things (this time its digi cam) but when u on it, it showed batt flat..so we were unable to take our own photos but hafta rely on others who brot their cam to send the photos they took to us..

when we arrive at the station, the personnel tok to us abt safety and security at the station, explaining to us things lyk escalator safety, the emergency stop plunger, the phone, snake catcher (dunno if this is spelt liddat) etc..when i heard abt 'snake catcher' i was wondering y they nid stht o catch snakes at the station..does this mean they will haf a bee catcher and a fly catcher as well? hahahah :p well it turned out that the thing will b used to pick up items when pple dropped them on the track..haha wonder y its called the snake catcher then...the personnel tok more abt the train lo, lyk how many fire extinguishers are there in the train, how long is the train, how many colours are there in the train, how long can the train last on batt if there is a power failure..haha..and u noe wad, the door wun be able to close it sth more than one inch was in btw it..haha so by rite it shdnt be able to close and sandwiched pple...but then he continued saying that the door will squeeze the thing and try to close..so this means if ur hand is stuck there, the door will squeeze ur hand and attempt (or mb force) to close so that the train can move on,,sounds scary huh..but he did mention that pple can try to force open the door if u r strong enuff..haha..of coz such sig events will haf guest-of-honour(: and he visited every cabin and tok to each grp..haha and he had a short chat w our president too..((: woohoo~

then there was detrainment..the lights and air con r all off and it was lyk a stimulation of a power failure, where passengers r brot out of the train, safely, shd there be any emergency..last came the finale of the dae - the tunnel walk! the event is lyk three hrs but the tunnel walk itself is lyk only 30 min..we walk in the tunnel for abt 250m to reach the emergency exit shaft..its real hot inside and dark..haha coz afterall its an enclosed area (haha tunnel mah) wonder how the driver drives the train under such dim lighting..wonder how the pple built the tunnel man..佩服佩服! :p oh tat time when we met the staff they were telling us the tunnel ex will be lyk some marathon and i was wondering where is the marathon part man..we jux walk along the tunnel nia mah..then i was wrong! coz the tunnel was deep so u can imagine how long we nidda walk to get out of the tunnel..when we get out from the escape shaft, its a super high fleet of stairs..the staff sae its 10 storey high eh!!!! the stairs seem endless and we were all climbing and climbing and climbing..imagine urself climbing the stairs at 1am when some were alr shagged and tired out..we were all so happy when we reach the top..finally get to breathe the fresh air..finally understood wad 'light at the end of the tunnel' meant, 见到了一线曙光(:

it was alr 0130 by then, took some grp photos, followed by speech by the personnels..reach home alr 0300 le..couldnt really slp well coz im afraid i will overslp and unable to wake up todae for work..haha i turned out that i wasnt as tired/sleepy as i thought..and i was early for work(:

it was a unforgettable experience indeed..a lifetime opportunity to haf a peek at the tunnel, the so familiar yet so unfamiliar tunnel..din regret going ((: next up will be our roadshows! support us during our roadshows k..(:

my life during the hol

2008-06-02T23:20:00.004+08:00

spent some money these few daes..bot a new shoe coz the previous white one was spoiling soon..the one was bot rather hurriedly which is so not my style..it looks fine la but the shoe is killing me..wanna buy a new wan man but u noe la my mum will go nagging saying i haf thousand and one shoe liao still buying more shoes):

and i spent lyk 100 bucks on skin care pdts from face shop..im beginning to lyk face shop pdts(: but feel abit heartache buying them all..i was only helping my mum buy her suncare thingy but the gal was promoting to me the pdts they haf..then see me hesitating so she continue persuading me saying lyk u are still young dun b lyk some aunties old married gif birth liao den want to start using skin care pdts..haha i was thinking ya lor..and since i haven been doing anyth to my face mb its time to do sth..haha so im defeated and bot them..i simply love face shop ((: haha but i guess it will be some time before i step in again ba..

its gss now and i haf lots o things i want to buy man, shoe, handbag, wallet, belt, jean, some nice clothes from some nice shops, lin you jia's album, earphones, swee swee compatible laptop case...when pple haf sth they will alwaes want more or better ones..greedy eh..haha always got a list of things to buy but always din buy..alwaes say say nia la..coz i oso noe the probability of getting these things is real low..most prob will only buy lin you jia's album and the earphones in the end..so got gss or no gss oso din really matter to me..usu i will eye on sth for some time before i really finally decide to buy it..i will feel so heartache buying things coz that will mean my hard earned money is just gone liddat..是满羡慕那些可以买东西不眨眼的人..

working now..its so sian..its rather slack at times coz no one will be supervising us directly most of the time..sian until one of the temp quit coz he was complaining its a torture for him to slack..so basically there are times when we are lyk paid to slack..haha..but mux alwaes be on the look out for 大人物..the superiors there are all super funny..especially the way they tok..hahaha...quite fun working there on the whole la..hehe..the only bad thing is we found out that the job agency really sux our money la xp

oh yes..im going to change my blogskin..haha i think i said this before le..haha gif me some time la..working now so im abit sian and tired to on the laptop after i came back from work..and im watching 原来我不帅 initially its coz got jjlin..but after watching think the show was quite funny..haha..rather entertaining..and 斗牛要不要..i was crying lyk siao when im watching it..haha this show initially tot its quite boring but somehow manage to continue watching and found it to be to my liking..i simply luv watching this kind o 台湾偶像剧，充满幻想，甜甜密密，参杂了喜怒哀乐，让人哭又会让人笑的(: lyk every 偶像剧 i watch i will cry liddat..haha..any more shows to recommend me? yupp tats all will update again when im free..

sakae (:

2008-06-01T09:17:00.000+08:00

went out with serena on fri..haha dunno our meeting alwaes got sth unexpected happening..this time she forgot to brg her hp..or rather she brot but no batt le..the previous time we wanted to meet up, i forgot to brg mine..haha..went i reached the place i msg her..and waited for lyk 20 minutes still no reply from her so i called her..its then that i realised her hp has no batt..omg how am i gg to contact her then? the worse thing is we din even sae clearly where to meet..so i went to the control station walk one round, still no where to be seen ): oh man..bo bian went back to the mall..then suddenly i rmb we wanted to meet at jurong east platform the previous time..oh shit..so where am i supposed to meet her?je or west mall?!! i was so confused man..then i came to this decision: i will walk to the control station again and if i still cant see her there i will take the train to jurong east to see if she is there..FINALLY i found her!!!!!!! both of us were so excited..haha she oso wondering how to find me without her hp..she tried to find a public fone but cant find one..its real hard to find a public fone nowadays man..

alrites after this 'excitement' we were wondering where to eat for dinner..all the places long long queue man..wanted to eat swensens de but the queue is too long le and im too hungry liao..but by the time its my turn, starve liao la..so settled for sakae sushi instead..we were offered a table which is at a super weird place..coz its faced outside de and pple outside can see us lo..i wanted to reject that table when serena sae ok..den when we sat at tat table she found tat its super weird and uncomfortable to haf our dinner at this table too..in the end ask for a change o table..so paiseh about it for troubling the waiter..but for oour comfort sake to enjoy our dinner:p

oh haha there is this waiter there who is super funny..dunno he sway or wad, pple lyk to place orders from him..but coz he is rushing ard, and whenever pple called him, he will haf suuden brakes..haha super funny la..den he stopped at our table, breathing lyk he has a lack of oxygen for a few minutes..we wanted to place our orders but he sae gif him a few minutes to take in some fresh air..mb he was still in a state of not so conscious mind, he couldnt really catch wad our orders are...haha..real funny..and i was observing him after that and i realised he lyk to make sudden brakes whenever pple call him..the sight of it is so funny la..haha..quite cute oso..and we were there laughing..hahahha..pple must be thinkng we are crazy..

i ordered bento and the bento is real nice..it looks appetising too(: or mb its coz im hungry..serena ordered udon but hers looked rather plain..淡而无味lyk tat..haha..oh we alwaes ended up toking abt them..toking abt how unreasonable, how fake and how bad they are..even though we started our conversations toking abt sth not at all related to them, we will end up toking abt them somehow..strange huh..and its the cant finish toking abt them kind la..this shows how evil they are..

after the dinner we were both too tired i guess and we went home le..despite the strong attraction of the gss..hahaha..its a real short meeting man..mb we shd haf sth more exciting next time(:

不想醒来

2008-05-18T22:01:00.003+08:00

感觉好真实
心里好踏实
真好想珍惜
惊觉是场梦
我难以忘怀
恨被人叫醒
愿梦想成真
再一次拥有
不知等何时

恶作剧2吻完结篇 ):

2008-05-08T11:27:00.000+08:00

互相依赖，依靠，勉励，弥补着对方的缺憾，两人真是绝配。

外表冷酷，内心却是如此的热情。他一点一滴的将回忆收集着，告白信，礼物等都一一保留，她看到了心里也有一丝深深的感动。

生命有了一个目标，那就是全心全意地爱着直树。努力的为直树活着，简直就把直树的命看得比自己的还重要。她那一句“他就算不醒过来，我也会照顾他一辈子的。”，实在令人震撼。为了要当他身边的助手，她努力地考上了护士执照，这是她自己连做梦都没想到自己能做到的一件事，就凭着她对直树的爱，一股巨大无穷的力量在支持这给予的力量吧。直树也因为她的一句话而决定当上医生，就这样，命运就将两人紧紧地扣在一起了。虽然在一些人眼中，会是非常幼稚的理想，但这就使她幸福的定义，又有何不可？

湘琴根直树喜欢的人应该是完全相反的啊，为什么会喜欢她呢？
有些事是不能单靠理智来解释的。
“他就像您咒语一样，一天到晚在我的耳边不断说喜欢喜欢的，真的烦死了，但是当这种厌烦慢慢变成一种利索当让的时候，突然又说‘我不喜欢你了’。当时，那股闷气，我到现在还记得一清二楚，本来应该是松一口气的，但却又好像不是这样。这世界上有90%的事，我做得到她做不到，剩下的10%我做不到的，她却能做到任何人都无法模仿的地步。大概是因为这一点被她打败的吧。’’

要保握眼前的幸福，不要把它当作是理所当然的。当你不知不觉喜欢上，并也变成一种习惯是，却发现他不在了，才来后悔，就太迟了。

努力过了，也得到了自己最想得到的。有了这种结果，即使再辛苦的过程都是值得的。就算没达到，自己也努力过了，无怨无悔。

超感动，哭惨了，每个人表达爱的方式也许不同，但爱一个人是可以从行动中体会到的。

haha I guess im too obsessed over the show alr:p

深深的领悟

2008-04-24T11:39:00.001+08:00

看了《白色巨塔》，不否认剧情，内容有下乏味，因为只围绕着医院常发生的事，动手术，死亡，新患者等，起初也只为了要看言承旭的演出才看的，但看着看着，也读了《白色巨塔》的写真书，导演和编剧似乎在传达一些讯息..

这虽然是个医院的故事，却只是这世界的一个缩影。在每个角落里，这些故事，其实并不曾停止过..

人生像是一座巨塔
将每个人都封锁在里面
诱你一直往上爬
谁也走不出去
除非你够勇敢

而有些人
总是毫不客气的
踩着别人的头顶
继续往上爬

人生，其实只是一场骗局，到了最后，你就会知道，原来最重要的，都不重要了。因为在自己得到的同时，也必然失去了什么。权力将人吞噬，令人迷失自己，只有珍惜才能呈现出生命的可贵。

满足会阻碍进步，自我满足就是进步最大的敌人。你不冲，怎么知道自己有多大的能耐?

我到底为了什么那么拼？希望你心里有个答案。

其实权力最不重要。我们要经历了多少才能真正体会这道理呢？

“当我进入医业时
我郑重的保证
要分线一切为人类服务
凭着良心跟尊严从事医业
病人的健康为我首要顾念”

看了这部戏，想当医生的人会放弃自己的理想吗？还是会更加坚持？
那对于那些已踏进医业的人呢，他们又会怎么想，我好好奇哦。

summing up

2008-04-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

i haf the best learning experience in bgs..good proj mates..we worked tgt and went through it all as a grp..numerous nights staying in the gsr till late, long threads of emails and stuff..wonderful..good proj mates are hard to come by..

biz law was not bad too..possibly coz we formed the grp ourselves..and its a all gals grp:p learn abt contract law..hope all these will come handy when I go out to work..when i enter into contract, is the contract valid, am i legally bound, is it voidable etc..haha…

stats ok la..if not for my interest in maths its gonna be bad too..din really pay attention in lec coz the prof was real boring..or mb the mod itself is boing..lyk last min chiong asignment then read through the chap de..i hope it turns out ok..

as cui la..real cui..finals cui grp presentation oso cui..i wonder who set the paper man..ask us to identify fallacy when I cant even understand wad the argument is?? lyk how man? and the mcq..which argument is valid and sound etc..real pei fu those as prof man..how did they manage to figure out all these things every day every second..and pointing out valid/sound argument, picking out fallacy in conversations with frenz..omg I wonder who wants to tok to them man..

ct anot shitty thing..i suppose ur heard enuff of this..but surprisingly the ta sae the video was well done and wans a copy of it..mb its some chim thing inside the video that superficial pple lyk me arent able to comprehend..

say bye bye to year one life..it passes so quickly..it seems lyk I din do much..din accomplish much and now its over..finals over..and results coming one by one..efficient rite..the long awaited holiday is finally here..继续疯狂的追着恶作剧2吻和斗牛要不要(:

well nidda find temp jobs oso to earn money..any lobang anyone? anyone free to go out?

hear my complains, again

2008-04-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

perhaps, im really not a creative person..

the grp presentation wasn’t a grp work la! more lyk an individual assignment for him to showcase his video editing skills and talents can..the whole idea wasn’t anyth lyk we discussed, we din appear in the video (NOT AT ALL), the video was filmed on his own (without us taking part in the filming at all) and the main thing is we were not told this video was alr in the making process (according to him, 70% done at that time).. when we wanted to change the idea,then he suddenly tell us its 70% done liao..din update us of the progress at all..he sae he agreed to the change when his actions all prove otherwise..listening to the ipod during the meeting, flipping his magazine and rushing to go home..the whole thing was lyk distorted..we wanted to kip his part to suit into our new idea but he sae he cant rmb wad he put in his video..COME ON!!is this poss? in the end, we continued with his idea coz everything is all so messy..

we din even noe he embarked on this video right from the start can..he kip saying he can do everything and he can do anything we give him..can anyone tell me in wad way is this a grp project? and wads worse..he refused to show us wad he has done (the 70% done video he claimed that time)..only assuring us once and again that he will get it done by then..HELLO PEOPLE!!if you dun show us wad u haf alr done, how can we improve on it? i appreciate all that u haf done but surely theres place for improvement isnt it? and this oso imply we haf no single idea of wads going on and wads happening in the video until the actual day when we present..i cant stand this..does this resemble any bit of a grp work or grp effort? when we ask is there any way we can contribute and help, guess his reply..no need..trust me la i will get the video done de.wad crap is this la..

and before claz on the day of our presentation, one of the proj mates called for a meeting (to hopefully make any last min changes to the video and watch it before we showed it to the claz)..we all turned up except him!he claimed he doesn’t even noe we haf a meeting!how wonderful..but the time he arrived, we only haf time to watch the video..no time to edit etc..

argh!it was a horrible experience on the whole basically.. its not i discriminate them lei..but its all the experiences with them that tell it all..all I need is one such example to prove my thinking right..i dun care if this is hasty generalisation or wad crap..sometimes it doesn’t pay to be good or kind.. I haf learnt my lesson..and I haf made a decision..silently..

tired out

2008-03-22T14:23:00.002+08:00

these few days
lyk super stressful and tiring for me man..two presentations plus one individual assignment..i barely haf enuff sleep..

AS presentation
it was SUPER chui..noe what the prof sae?
“… i din stop you all when u were presenting just now becoz the mistakes are too serious to be corrected there and then..”
i was lyk omg! its real bad la..and i would say we arent really that prepared too..this is a lousy experience for me..im quite angry with myself though..

i dun understand how some pple can simply be so bo chap abt their work?
arent they at all concerned with their grades? or am i too concerned?
are pple acting ignorance or they truly dunno wat is required?
i tot some things are just so obvious that i see no need to spell out everything.. or am i taking things for granted?
its lyk i cant seem to get along with them and get things done (at least not as much i as i want them to turn out to be)?

hmm act after seeing the presentations till now, none of the groups are fantastic kind..just so-so..mb coz AS is all abt stuff and not fluff, so all seems so boring and pple reading off from slides and so on..

BGS!!
but on the other hand, i or rather we, spend alot of effort on BGS..ALOT!! we placed bgs above all kk..thur fri sat and sun doing bgs..thur till 6pm, fri till 12, sat till 6pm and sun till 2am!!! and I spent lyk 20+ taking the cab home..we spent more time in school than at home la..behind all the nice things u see on stage, is all the hard work that goes into making the nice things....DONT FORGET THE BACKSTAGE PEOPLE!! for a short 30 min presentation, more than 30 hours of hard work and time has been devoted to ensure its success..and i would say its GOOD! the prof sae the first round of presentation has got high standards and we rose up to the occasion!! so glad everything turn out well and all the effort put in was worthwhile..YEAH~!! ihaf underestimated the power of IT..im so soory for that..the wonders of 07 really amazes me..i din noe subtitling can be so difficult and tedious..appreciated technology(: WELL DONE GUYS!!!

we were all half dead after bgs..they all went home to sleep..but I still got CT!! and that long procrastinated AS assignment..

Individual Assignment
Next came the chiong-ing for my IA..devoted my time to bgs previously so now its back to AS…printing reading googl-ing referencing..no single idea how to get started but time was lyk tick tick tick, passing every sec..so stress sia..i spent the whole of wed doing AS man..not only the IA but oso the weekly exercise which im rather stuck too..waseh I think learning from presentations wasn’t v helpful..im still qt confused abt the diff fallacies taught..pia till 3 to finish everyth..even so, I dun exactly feel I haf done a fantastic job..my AS will be super chui la..

Temporary Freedom
Now after all the hard work and chiong-ing my presentations and everyth ended..which means all my grades are more or less cfm and im more or less dead..only left CT and bgs report..and o coz all the mugging..haf not been touching the text since bz w all the presentations etc..im gg to haf a hard time catching up man.. OHH!!! still got my恶作剧 to watch..i feel so deprived not watching it for weeks kk..hope I dun get so into the show tat I dun haf any momentum to start my studying..spent too much time blogging liao..

start studying!!!! i shall motivate myself to STUDY!!!

previously

2008-03-20T12:39:00.009+08:00

alright I think this will be a super long entry ( to make up for all my entries these few weeks) first, updates from my previous entry (haha seems lyk all these took place ages ago, but well for my remembrance sake here it is):

batam trip
initially thought the batam trip would be rather un-interesting after looking at the itinerary, filled with toks by guests speakers..but come to think of it, the toks weren’t that boring afterall..actually, I tot the toks would haf been more interesting if all the speakers could speak in Chinese.. gained much insights..

1. biz is about branding and relationships..building networks of contacts is so impt, not only the high ends people but a mixture of people from different background..u nv noe when u will need their help in the future..
2. besides connections, a biz requires branding too..oh yea and I think using spore as a brand isn’t tat bad man..spore still has her standing globally (which I’d haf underestimated if I din hear it personally) haha can use spore to promote our stuff in future..
3. more practically, a biz needs to have excellent services to draw its customers back..of coz u can chose to cut corners here and there if you want to earn more profits..but will they come back for your service again? Just for the short term gains, is it worth it? long term sustainability in biz is all tat matter…

during the factory visits, at certain points in time, I feel rather sad for the workers..esp those working in the not so good working conditions, breathing in all the glue every second, doing the same job over and over again every day..看了有点难过..

and I made an observation..nv judge a book by its cover..coz I think its very rude to interrupt people liddat and I nv tot she will do that..its lyk 喧宾夺主can..or mb I think too much into the issue..

the sampan..haha..wanted to take photo with the 帅哥la..haiz miss the opp man.. and the food is good too..the shopping , although tats lyk the only thing we are looking fwd too then, it’s abit rush..onl lyk one hour only..and I din really buy anyth..haha except the long awaited A&W curly fries(:

other than these the highlight will be the kelong nite stay!! there is a ktv lounge!! haha haf been wanting to go kbox (haha actually now still) call that a sub for kbox ba(: but the songs there aren’t very updated though..but well its still a good sub :p we slept only at 4 plus tat nite..ade slept early though and so paiseh for waking her up when we went back to the room during the nite..oh yea when we went back to sleep, we tried to minimize all our sounds and noises liao and we tot we still woke her up (coz she made some sound..haha dunno how to decipher into words) but it turned out tat she din evennoe we went back tat time..okies anw we stay up partly coz we cant really sleep and partly coz theres some other ‘operations’ going on that kip us awake..shall not elaborate on tat since its not anyth v good..

there is a time lag of one hour..which makes us feel as if time passes so slowly there..
过了一天与世隔绝的生活，感觉好轻松，好懈意。
总归一句，增光见闻。

too many photos liaoz, shall just upload a few(:

biz law presentation
还算顺利..I presented without a script..and I think its not bad..just tat we were really shot during q&a which lasted lyk 30 min..haha luckily the prof stood on our side and helped us at certain times..i think the audience made a diff too..really admired those who can speak and present so confidently every time..我也希望自己慢慢地进步着..

as meeting
文化的差异所带来的困扰..elaborate more when i tok abt my presentation..

ct class started
没什么收获。ct surprise test, how surprise i really was.

黄城2008
Went to watch huang cheng again..almost couldn’t make it to watch this year..was regretting making the decision to go then coz I haf a meeting after tat to film our video..but after watching feel quite 爽..

同样的画面，同样的音乐，同样的场景，同样的感触，同样的地点
只是，时间不同了，人也不同了。
超赞的道具，许许多多不同的画面闪过眼前，好真实的回忆。
那是一段我最开心也最怀念的日子。
有些人可能无法理解，不是华初的人，为何要去看黄城。
也许只有我知道答案

我有好多话要说

2008-03-11T01:39:00.002+08:00

这几天发生了很多事，感触良多。

不，其实 after batam trip 就要 blog 的，但实在没时间了！救命啊！时间不够用！

batam trip 增光见闻，有些感想。
biz law presentation, 还算顺利，想发表感言。
as meeting 文化的差异所带来的困扰。
ct class started, 没什么收获。
ct surprise test, how surprise i really was.
黄城2008，超赞的道具，好真实的回忆。

又怀念起我不该怀念的事.
‘永远’真的存在吗？
一诺千金.
promises are not meant to be broken.

我真的有很多话要说，但我现在没那个闲工夫来抒发我的情感，更何况也没那个时间。
在等等一会儿吧，有心情又有时间时，自然会 elaborate details 的。耐心等待吧。

又两集的恶作剧没看了，有点失落。

好多事要做，我就快喘不过气来了。
突然，有种自己好逊的感觉，心情糟透了。
我需要我的精神粮食。
有谁能当我的加油站？

无言以对

2008-02-27T09:25:00.004+08:00

this week is mid term break but well as what i haf said, P (not going back to sch during mid term break) = 0. how true. ydae my only free dae in the week..wanted to sing k but apparently i cant find anyone to go with me=( so wish not granted. i guess im just fated to stay at home to mug on tue. intially wanted to use this week to catch up with BGS and AS but look at whats in for this week:

mon - AS meeting (first AS meeting to meet my grp. overall its not bad)

tue - slack at home

wed - Biz Law meeting + project sand interview

thur to fri afternoon - BGS overseas trip to Batam (mostly toks and factory trips. haha but theres a 1.5 hr free and easy at Megamall.

sat - most prob Biz Law meeting again (since presentation is just next week)

i suppose i will slowly get used to the culture here. at least now, im not so quiet in the group (not so quiet in grps for proj work only, not the socialising part in large grps) hoping for things to get beta. shd get more enthu and increase my small social circle. haha.

刚看了恶作剧2 吻第11 集。waseh, 我哭得好惨啊(the front half)，看过的人就能体会。哈哈，但还是喜欢看- 直树为了湘琴而作的改变，唐禹哲的演出（他在戏里还算是个够义气的朋友），还有炎亚伦的亮相！！他超可爱的！！爱死他们了: 新欢=))) and im lagging behind man. 我的斗牛要不要！！我只看到了第9集嘞，现在已经播映到第15集了！！好想看啊！！但又怕一看就会欲罢不能，没办法听，所以就忍住了。嘿，不晓得要到什么时候才能看了。*sobz* haha u must be wondering how come i can watch 恶作剧 but not 斗牛要不要rite? haha 因为我看恶作剧的进度和台湾的播映是一样的，所以即使我要在追下去看，也没得看了啊：p 已对本地制作失去信心了，只会看台湾偶像剧。算是一个精神支柱吧=）每天都期待着人家upload the videos..每期看偶像剧的时候都会哭，太感情用事了。有时候并不太喜欢这样的自己。

还有陈冠希事件，我真的觉得他并没有错，他其实也是受害者。他要拍什么，是他的选择，他的权利。更何况，他并没有意思要这么做。我们这么做反而使侵犯到了他的隐私吧。而那些女明星也是自愿的嘞，为什么好像变成了可怜又无辜的受害者。当事人的男朋友有必要那么在乎女朋友的过去那么生气吗？如果时间的男主角只是个路人甲，事情会闹得那么大吗？又或者时间的女主人是明星，但男主角却是路人甲呢？每天看到报纸登的都是事件的追踪报道，觉得有点替他感到不直。真正应该受到严厉谴责的应该是将照片放上网的人吧。他才是罪魁祸首！因该先把他揪出来，再来讨论谁的责任较大吧。有些心怀不愧的人，则借此机会，想要提高自己的名声。难道这种行为就该被纵容吗？好吧，或许偏激了点，这纯粹只是本人的看法。

i heard this from the radio a few days ago..
女生很在意男友的前女友，但男生在意的则是前女友的现任男友。男生很容易就会爱上一个女生，但要深爱她却很难。女生不容易爱上一个男生，但只要一爱上，就会死心塌地。
and i was thinking, how true..

女生不会了解男生为什么都不要掉眼泪。你知道为什么吗？眼泪的滴落就象征着他对一段感情的舍弃。 perhaps..

有太多话要说了
不知从何说起
就此结束吧

情人节快乐！

2008-02-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

its such a sweet day for couples todae..nearing vdae, u will hear lots o touching and romantic love stories, making me wanna be the female lead in those stories..proposing on air, long distance love 开花结果.. i will be so touched i will definitely cry..haha sound so drama..

some interesting observations
1. why do roses only sell well on vdae? with all the fluffy toys and cards..why not just say "i love you" everyday.
2. every restaurant is booked on that day and guys will usually hafta spend alot on those expensive dinner which dont offer nice food usually..
3. everyone (esp the gals) expects that it is being made a special day.the usuals - roses and dinner in some supposedly romantic restaurant. people want surprises. when everything simply turns out as they expect, they are not excited anymore. much as being sae, gals still hope to receive roses on this special day.
4. it makes the guys do things they dun usu do, like lighting candles and stuff. but it gets theminto trouble when they dun do all these. why? she act wanted him to do it.
5. mb this is wad the guys are thinking: where are my present? what do i get out of this special day?
6. and mb for some others, they have to buy the right size, style and colour and look as if they are not ogling at the salesgirls when buying while they are at.
7. romantic. 心思细腻的一些新点子吗？a simple act will do, so long as it touches the hearts of others..well, how the gals define it differs from how the guys define it. so how to resolve this difference?
8. it could be a make or break day for some.

许下的海誓山盟，都会兑现吗？
always happily ever after?

身为一个浪漫主义者，我始终相信人间有爱

祝单身贵族早日心有所属

祝有情人终成眷属

新年快乐！

2008-02-12T13:08:00.001+08:00

the excitement of cny is now over..more or less i guess..开课大吉 pple=))

cny eve went to temple to bai bai den off we go to chinatown just in time for the fire crackers and fireworks!!=) i wonder how a cny is lyk without fire crackers man..but the design of the thing is real lousy..the firecrackers were placed on top o a building (for safety reasons i guess) and so we cant see the birds eye view of it la..rather disappointing..but well its a unique experience i would say..chinatown was super crowded..but still went ahead coz its only there where one can experience the festive mood..就是那种人挤人的感觉..wanted to buy some cheap new year goodies but apparently it wasnt lyk last year..last year was lyk one box $1 only man..bot nth except a new year deco..

bot some new clothes though, not from chinatown of course..guess where?haha tats rite s&k!! if not for the sale i wun buy anyth there though i lyk their clothes alot..i spent qt alot there and most of my new clothes were bot there too..it would b a long long time before i buy clothes for myself again..but besides clothes, i still want to buy other things man..wonder when will all these wishes b fulfiled..its qt different this year..coz usu my mum will go w me to buy clothes and she will be the one paying..this time round i went on my own and paid using my own money! some children are given $300 to buy their new years clothes and a top alone cost $60+ where i need to even think twice b4 buying a jeans that cost $30..在这种时候，每个人都希望自己能成为千金小姐或是遇上白马王子，但倘愿望真的实现了，你会快乐吗？一瞬间，脑海里闪过公主小妹 的画面。或许，我应该只祈求做一天的千金小姐。

chinese new year went to relatives house..what to do to 打发时间 other than gambling?esp for adults.. but sometimes, i really dislike it when pple start to quarrel after they started to lose money..cant we just play peacefully? 真没牌品 everyone has the intention of winning when gambling and not simply to kill time..possibly thats y i din play much this time round..only enjoy playing at my ah ma hse and with the 阿姨s..cny will alwaes broadcast those 贺岁片 that has been aired a thousand times..all the show i want to watch is on cable..real sad man..if only i haf the company of those nice nice shows..

oh yea..强力推荐杨宗伟的鸽子+ 曹格的 Super Sunshine..worth listening..百听不厌=））（本人更喜欢鸽子哈哈！）

and needless to say, theres lots o work to be done..and mid term is coming..my stats and biz law fall on the same dae la..so lucky hor..gotta mug hard liao la..any lots o projects to b done too..what a happy happy new year..

i used to look forward to every special occasion where i haf the chance to mass send to pple..waiting for the reply..

do you only remember the birthdays of pple who mean alot to you or simply those whom you kept in contact with at that period of time?wonder if anyone thinks the same way as i do..

whats this

2008-01-25T13:06:00.000+08:00

so many new albums out..among all rather interested in yang zong wei's ge zi, gary's super sunshine and lu xue rui's album..hmm F4 released their new album too..haha if the four of tem come to spore for some autograph session, then i will definitely buy the album:p

tmr is a weekend but i still nidda go sch for proj meetings..i believe very soon the weekends will not be so weekend anymore=( found out that some mod req excel knowledge..excel is real powerful i guess, putting those who haf zero knowledge it, lyk me, at a big disadvantage..i haf come to realise theres lots of politics involved in order to survive in uni as well, something i sux at..learning, hard, how to survive..

一直认为感情是最真实的，但得知了仔仔和大S 分手后，似乎令我改观了。哈哈，虽然有些高兴（因为我总觉得大S 是个魔女），但还是很惊讶。他们俩都没有任何分手的迹象。而且，上次去他的签唱，主持人问到他关于大S 的事，都脸带笑容，幸福洋溢地回答。难道艺人的感情就是经过包装，媒体利用炒新闻的卖点吗？还是这只是他们对于自己职业的一种尊重和专业。虽然我也会对艺人的绯闻感兴趣，但大概都只是看了就算了吧。除非是从艺人口中说出来的，否则我都是抱着看了就算了的心情。只有当事人说的话才能相信。多给一人一点隐私吧！难怪他们都选择不公开恋情。因为只要一公开，恋情就会变得很商业化，寿命也特别短。

真实地面对自己的感情是一种挑战吗？
自由恋爱万岁！

what am i thinking

2008-01-22T13:30:00.000+08:00

two weeks of sch term has passed. somehow i dun tink i did a very good job during the last two weeks. lots of readings to digest and read over the weekends each week, im really afraid im not up to wad it takes this sem oso. it seems lyk a lot o pple in class noe a lot o pple except me:( mb im too anti social..as usual msn throughout some of the lectures, esp stats..but i find some of the mod rather interesting, surprisingly..project meetings on the go, assignment deadlines to meet..tats typical of school life i guess..

世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人
我们一直被灌输这观念，我起初也是那么认为的。但，不是每个人都有能力当勤劳的女人的。要买一样东西，第一就是看价钱。没办法，人活着还是必须现实点。

最近又在追几部偶像剧, 追戏的感觉还不错。恶作剧2吻 让我见识到了小综其实也是个good kiser..(initially only 贺军翔 is on my list..haha) as for 斗牛要不要 initially watched it coz of 贺军翔, but somehow he reminds me of 杨丞琳, 应该是看了换换爱 和 恶魔在身边 的关系，感觉他们俩像荧幕情侣，而每次他的角色都是被爱感化的坏男人，在斗牛要不要 也是，太没挑战性了吧。是因为他长得够帅才会有这种角色，当男主角吗? (somehow i guess so) 所以, 我深深被李威吸引了，被子聪对胜雪的爱感动了。爱死金子聪了，他应该跃升为第一男主角才对。多希望自己身边也有个金子聪，那该有多好。

“当我很喜欢很喜欢一个女人的时候，
不管发生任何危险，我都会站在她前面替她挡
不管多难实现的愿望，我都会当她的阿拉丁神灯，替她实现
只要看她笑我就会开心，看她哭我就会难过
如果她受伤，我会气我自己没有把它保护好
当她不在我身边的时候，我会担心她现在是不是安全
当我失去她的时候，我一定会很难过，很无助
希望我能永远保护她，照顾她，直到她发现我一直守在她身边”
if someone tells me this, i will be super touched. i alr 感动落泪 when i heard that in the show.

“爱情就像这样，如果你不狠狠地热它一回，朋友怎么变情人呢？” 或许吧.

在整理书橱时，找回了一段我就快要遗忘的记忆。那个时候，那是我唯一的推动力，就像是黑暗中一道温暖的曙光。

爱情会让人变苯吧，尤其是暗恋的阶段。
你会因为看到了他，即使他没留意到你也无所谓，足以让你心跳加速。
你会因为看到了他的微笑，即使那个微笑不是给你的，却能让你一直记住那灿烂的笑容，让你高兴一整天。
你会一直注意他的一举一动，似乎自己来的目的是为了注意他。
你会因为他的一句鼓励，而加了一百倍的油，增添了一千倍的自信。
你会因为紧张，跟他讲话时不敢正眼面对他。
因为拥有了这一切，你会觉得自己是世界上最幸福的人，更因如此，你希望能一直保持现状，不要有人破坏，自己也因而没勇气表白。

胡言乱语
胡思乱想
到此为止

不一样的仔仔!

2007-12-30T11:25:00.000+08:00

我去了他两场活动- IMM 的签唱会和 St James Power Station 的音乐会。签唱会预定在2pm 开始，但大概是因为一些媒体的访问，耽误了他的行程吧..当他出现的那一刻，我可是很疯狂地在尖叫哦，有点不太像我。而且呢，这种尖叫是发自内心的，不是因为faci / OGL 要你叫。没有人会因为你喊得最大声而瞪着你看，因为每个人都是为了同一个目的去到那里的- 追仔仔！不太喜欢这活动的主持人，觉得她老是在promote 自己的station, 和buy poster to do charity. 排队的时候，就一直看到人们都在借笔和纸，原本有些疑惑，干嘛需要纸嘞？后来才晓得，原来是要写自己的名字，好让仔仔签上的。当让，我也就follow 了=）

有点同情那些为了陪老破获女友而来到签唱会的，因为他们怎么也不了解，自己的老婆为何要被挤，排了一整天的队，就只为了一睹仔仔一眼，就像她们也不了解他们为何为了一场足球赛可以不眠一样吧。还有那些为了追女朋友而去排队的男生，真是辛苦了。如果我有男朋友，如果他会为了我去排队的话，我可是会非常感动的。

或许是因为大家都想多拍几张仔仔的照片，都不太像往前走，一直站在原地猛按digi cam, trying to capture every move of his..也因为如此，我还算蛮早就拿到了他的签名。一看见他，就得到了他很温暖的一句hello，当让我也很热情地hello 了！在他为我写下了To: 绣敏并签上了他的大名的那一刻，我实在有点心跳加速耶。签完了，也充满感激与兴奋地回敬了一个谢谢，脸带笑容地离开了会场。就像一个疯狂歌迷看到了久违的偶像般振奋和激动，好高兴好幸福哦！一滴眼泪掉了下来…

记得我爱你 签唱会 VS 我不是F4 签唱会

签名和当时的很不同吧，这次会觉得更值得了，因为我换到了一张属于我的，独一无二的专辑！

也因为一时的兴奋，决定去他的音乐会。我找不到St James Power Station, 差点就迷路了..还好，就当我要放弃时，最后给我找到了..原本说好是5pm 开门的，到了六点都没开门。我站了好久好久，站地脚好酸好酸，自己好累好累。最后终于开门了！！！近距离地看到了仔仔，也访问了他一会儿，就觉得一切的等待是值得的。哦，要特别赞赏着活动的主持人，觉得他为活动增添了不少色彩，更会炒气氛，也访问的更深入。

本来有些后悔一个人去的，但一看见他本人，就觉得应该的:p 一点欧没有后悔自己所作的选择。看到了帅帅的他，向王子般出现在我面前，就像做了个美梦，太完美了。

他已经不是以前那个沉默寡言的仔仔了，所以不要再以鄙视的眼光看待他了。他在被主持人访问时，好多话说哦，也会不忘搞笑，好幽默耶。他的现场实力也大大增加了。至少现在的他可以很有自信地唱现场了。听听他的专辑吧，的确成熟了不少。你或许会觉得我疯了，或是无法了解我的快乐，但请不要笑我。diff pple haf diff pursuits..

感谢ade 的digi cam=)

All I want for Christmas is 周渝民!
All I want for New Year is 周渝民!

truly magical christmas

2007-12-26T11:01:00.001+08:00

haha last week was rather eventful..so many things took place and i m so tired i dun haf the time to update...haha..the weekend b4 xmas went for truly magical xmas..its a blood donation drive..tot the target was too high but we did exceed the target=) haha i think we were qt impt..the flyer distributors..coz the last weekend there was a donor recruitment drive and only about 20% of those who signed up came la..haiz so irresponsible man..our job v v tiring la..standing there and distribute flyer..tired n sian..the first two daes i more slack la coz the pple ard me oso v slack but the last dae i v hardworking lo..coz i change station and theres a v enthu volunteer near me..motivated me to work harder..from my conversation with her, she sae that sone interviews for attachment/internship nid 13 rounds la..omg i was lyk gg to faint when i heard it..theres maths round and everything..im jux wondering how am i gg to survive there with the lousy GPA im having now..

well, it seems lyk many pple jux went there to clock hours..as in really sit down and tok, or loiter in PS..i dun deny im oso liddat at times but i dun take more than 10 min each time, except during lunch mb, coz i v anti wan,so din really tok to pple...haha..its qt a meaningful thing on the whole..and it made me realize the impt of publication and raising awareness..we did it!!
i met a few fenz there..qt happy..its lyk surprises that make ur dae..wonder if spore is small or DG is a hot spot to shop and hang ard during wkends..

WOOHOO~we made it！

hmm still got my 追星 experience!!我的白马王子!太累了，下次再说吧..stay tuned:p

latest craze!

2007-12-25T10:35:00.000+08:00

总算看完了星光大道1.. 蛮精彩的。为了让大家enjoy,（或是让我自己回味吧:p）, i shall upload some wonderful performances!! 开始疯狂爱上他们了。曾一度想过要去追他们哦，只是没实践罢了。你们大概会觉得我疯了吧..this entry is entirely on my 观后感of星光大道 and craze of 星光帮 ..haha if not interested, dun read this entry then..i wun mind, really=)
　
个人喜爱

林宥嘉_你是我的眼完美演唱！

林宥嘉_我爱的人完美演唱！

旧爱还是最美

陈亭慧＋潘裕文＿手分手　
亭慧的自创曲，还蛮欣赏亭慧的创作的．听了这首情歌，两人的合唱，好感动，好陶醉哦。。觉得他们应得到更多灯: 已经不是第一次被潘王子的声音感动了．．

林宥嘉+蔡政霖_拔河
他们俩有着深厚的友谊，演唱时能感受到他们兄弟情深，当然蔡政霖也为他加分不少。也因此留意起了蔡政霖..看了他之前的比赛片段，觉得他其实也不错:p

许仁杰+卢学睿_少年
又一段兄弟情深..完美的组合，擦出了不同的火花..好听！！
　
艺人合唱

潘裕文+林志炫_离人
哇噻..中间的刹车，太美了。有了恩师的在旁引导，真的帮了他不少。有时候有贵人相助也是粉重要的嘞=) 更深情的潘王子！

康康＋林宥嘉＿到不了
只有一个字：棒！

值得一听

陈亭慧＿给姐的祝福
她的创作，听一听嘛，强力推荐。我听了是挺感动的，眼眶会泛泪哦。
prefer她的创作to 刘明峰’s
　
值得一提

周定伟_sad tango
一直相当台湾的Rain, 看了他这个演出，令我惊艳。觉得他离目标又更近一步了:D 他的舞蹈真强，而他说舞蹈可是看MV 自己学的哦。哈哈，或许我也可以去看MV学一学舞蹈:p

世纪之战

萧敬腾PK 杨宗伟＿新不了情
本人prefer 杨宗伟's 版本，尤其是后面那一句，真是一绝啊！！超赞，超震的！！

英雄惜英雄的战争．英雄惜英雄的感觉真爽。
　

每次节目的结尾，看到参赛者被宣布淘汰，我都好难过哦。最伤心的一次就是许仁杰被淘汰那一集。哭了嘞，觉得有点可惜。他做了一个很勇敢的尝试，好佩服他的勇气。理直气壮地作自己！dun seem to be able to find this part on youtube..can only find the below wan..fast forward to his performance..haha wan to noe他获得几个灯 ask me ba:p

许仁杰＿安静
自弹自唱，好帅哦！所以一直都很欣赏能自弹自唱的歌手，觉得他们超man 的:p
看了这集之后，就超爱安静这首歌

他们的毕业典礼比红星大奖精彩几千倍。i can assure you that=) 看了，有一丝丝的感动。
只要我相信星光合唱歌词写得挺有意义的
真是辛苦了编剧和剪辑师

评审的评语满幽默的，桃子的主持功力更是可圈可点，给节目大大加分了。看了这么多集，发现有些歌是曲红，演唱者不红，有些呢是chorus红，但却收不出歌名是什么。

见证了他们所建立的友谊，还蛮羡慕的，因为他们都有相同的经历，有种‘同舟共济’的感觉:p　建立一段友谊　难　　维持一段友谊　更难

没能遭遇挫折，哪能成为强者？
有些事情需要自己亲身经历过才知道有多难，也就能更体会并敬佩那些能将这些事情做好的人，打从心底的佩服他们。

有时候人们需要的只是一点力量，一个拥抱而已。难道这也太贪心了吗？

参赛者人气逐渐上升，粉丝也慢慢庞大，不晓得为什么参赛者也越来越有明星味，难道这就见证了‘人要衣装’的道理吗？

人因梦想而伟大
祝福他们有更辉煌的明星路　加油！
挺你们到底哦=)
买了他们爱星光精选 [昨天今天明天] 的专辑。虽然考虑了很久，但在决定卖的那一刻，似乎有些匆忙。abit of an impulse buying..its the sudden feeling of: jux buy it:p well, 听了之后，觉得还不错，没后悔，也蛮耐听的。highly recommended=)
爱星光帮！

FUN at the peak!

2007-12-14T12:12:00.000+08:00

went to genting for a holiday..for three days..and i spent $70 to make a new passport la!simply coz my passport foto nidda change but they dun provide the renewing of foto passport at all!!waseh man waste my money lei..considering how many pathetic times i go overseas each year..before the hol my mum was asking me want to go overseas during the holiday not..of coz my ans was yes..den she asked where and obviously my ans was TAIWAN!! but knowing that the probability of gg taiwan was rather small, i sae i wun mind genting..so in the end we went genting...the main attraction of going genting was the oudoor theme park=) i would play most of the thrill rides there..and my cousin was very excited coz he finally reached the height requirement to play those thrill rides..but the weather wasnt very good there lo..reached there on sun but couldnt go outdoor..so bo bian lo stay indoor..but indoor abit sian though coz most are family rides..only bumper car..and as a result the q was super long la..we q lyk 45 min to play the game la..played from 7 plus to 12 plus went back to sleep hoping the weather willbe better the next day..

so disappointed when the weather had heavy mist and rain..its real cold there lo..so cant go outdoor and too sian w indoor, so hafta find other activities to entertain ourselves and kill time..so went shopping..my bro bot his nike shoe and i bot my addidas bag=))) woohoo~ so happy=D den went to watch Enchanted..the movie was quite nice..the girl is so beautiful(: still happily ever after? den lunch at kfc..oh yea theres lots of eateries there..after the lunch the weather wasnt v kind still): went to k in the end at be a star..haha its much cheaper to k and watch movie there:p den waited to go eat dinner..we went to this place to eat, which was not in genting..nidda take car to reach there and the restaurant provided vans to drive us there...when we came back, the weather was real bad..its real misty and raining..couldnt see anyth la..and the driver is real POWER la i mux sae..we were all in the car, and we cant see anyth lei..visibility was lyk zero la..but the driver knew when to turn, when to stop, when there was any incoming car..omg im super impressed man..im sure he can even drive even if his blindfolded la..i was rather sad la coz i couldnt go out to play:(

finally the long awaited day came!!!we woke up v early the next morning, ate breakfast at mac den chiong to outdoor liao!! mb its still very early and everyone was still sleeping..there was no queue at all..haha such a good news to us..no nidda waste time queuing..save a lot of time..coz its our last day there and we only half a day outdoor so times rather precious to us..at last my wish was granted in the end...有种死而无憾的感觉=)) on the way back home, i was sleeping throughout the journey..haha enjoyed myself and played too hard..tired.. my glasses broke when i was waiting for my games tat dae..so im lyk blind for the rest of the trip coz no glasses..on the other hand, this oso meant i will b able to get a new pair of glasses..

alot o couples there lei..but mostly youngsters..i think its qt a nice place to 拍拖 lei..duno y..its seemed to me that its a rather romantic place..haha coz the adults and elderly all in the casino..when im 21 liao oso want go in see see lo..dun mind going genting again..the outdoor theme park!! hmm mb to most its the same as our escape, but somehow i jux feel different..simply excited w the tot o going overseas=)

self reflection

2007-11-21T13:04:00.001+08:00

i haf lots of things to say, lots of things to do and lots of things to buy.
haha..this is going to be a super long entry i suppose..w all the complaints i m gg to make and everything..bear w it my dear..

finally it all ended..although i cant balance wad i m supposed to balance all the time, i still find FA rather interesting..mb its sth new to me..its time to chill now..haha..

projects.
very proj based and u get to work with diff proj mates in different mod..i would sae the process is very much dependent on who ur proj mates are..count urself lucky if u find urself in a nice grp, w all cooperative and willing to work teammates..

ltb presentation- the prep was shit and the presentation itself was bad. no one wanted to put in the extra effort and tot that it can all be done very easily overnite..optimisstic yes but CAN it work? pls be realistic. no sense of urgency, there was no rehearsal. everyone wanted to leave early after allocating all the work.wad shit is that?all thinking tat it was due in wk 13 and happily thinking we haf whole loads of time to think how to do our presentation..yet who noes its act due on wk 12!! okie this is alr bad enuff..this meant that we haf only one week to do everything..the ppt and rehearsal and everything..starting from zero to 100% all done in one week..there was a meeting scheduled on wed to discuss this 'big thing' and this was to be completed (i tot so initially)..BUT during the meeting when only half the grp was there (coz the rest had class, joining ltr), the 2 proactive person in the grp discussed btw the two of them and allocated the task for the group to follow..den saying that there wasnt anymore thing to discuss they left, claiming they haf sth on..wth..wad is this man..u call this a proj meeting when all was decided by two people?omg..and the thing was all done w/o the book which contained all the guidelines for our presentation.. alrite so after tat i sent an email out to everyone telling them there were some things we left out coz we din follow wad the book wan..haha guess wad..the two proactive pple, took the inititative again and volunteered to do the work again..haha good then..do all tat u want..volunteer for all i care..earn all the participation points if tats all u wanted..this really disturbs me k..is this how a proj discussion is defined?of coz there were some in the grp hu think lyk me and voiced this out..den wads the reply? "dont be so emotional. lets be flexible". hahahah..i dunno how to cooperate in such a grp..which resulted in me being abit attitude..i think the TA realised my 'attitude' oso laand i strongly believed she marked me down for my participation. my ltb wasnt a very happy experience..alot of prob surfaced but everyone jux took it as if we were a harmonious grp with no conflict..haha how true..

wad crap is this..i cant stand it..this whole thing of grading participation points by TA wasnt at all FAIR..much as the Prof claimed this is much more fairer, i seriously dun think so..much as the TA promised tat she will be objective, i strongly believed the existence of '感情用事'..much as the TA was with us during the lesson, she wasnt present in our meetings and everything, i still insist that she din get a clear and true pic of wads happening in the grp..if this is how to earn participation points i am gg to die..

on the other hand, with gd project mates lyk in my fa and twc, even though i worked as hard (or even harder, staying up till lyk 4 plus to collate our reports and proof read it) , it was worth the effort. u noe that feeling? tired but happy. coz u noe all work as equally hard and all the efforts are recognised. im more proacitve oso, more initative taken etc.i shall pray that i get to work w good pple al the time..

oh yea we were so lucky tat time..twc..there was a presentation, where all the groups hafta prepare coz the Prof will only choose one grp to present in class..on tat day the Prof sae draw cards to decide how the grp is..in the end, one of my team mate drew the card and it turned out to be our own group! so unprepared etc but it brings laughter to pple in the class i think, from their responses..and Prof too...when presenting we werent even sure who the next speaker was..coz arrangement settled only at tat min lo:p next slide liao still expect more..haha unorgettable experience in a sense..

comm presentation, though abit late, still wanna thank ade for coming so early for the lesson (first time so early) thankew! first individual presentation. but i would say i did prepare hard for it. luckily this not all in wk 12 else it will be jux as screwed as ltb. with prep and all the pratice, i hope presentations will becom a norm for me and i can be more confident when i speak the next time. compared to the first time i presented for twc..haha..practice do make perfect at times.

a student ask the Prof, its not fair for our grades to be based only on the presentation. the Prof replied, much as we din wan to, many things function this way. when u go out to work and meet ur client, isnt everything based on that one visit w the client oso. its 100% based on your performance there and then. this left a deep impression in me.so true. much as u dun like it, the world jux functions this way. first impression do count.

lessons learnt.
its thro all these proj tat u find out more abt a person.if a person has gd impression mangement its hard to tell his real personality but in proj the true colours prevails..

i dun think i learn much in terms of knowledge gained. haha..except for fa ba..ltb not lyk i will go flip text to choose wad conflict mgt style to deal when face w a conflict..but there's skills learnt..haha lyk how to make a report LOOK pro, how to protray an effective political behavior etc..mb tats y pple all wrote super fake tings in their learning journals (not exc me of coz).. it seems lyk we always learn the same thing frm proj, communication skills, time management, interpersonal relationship etc..oh and save your work every now and then.when i was doing my ltb learning journal, all of sudden all gone, i almost break down. i was lyk crying and typing when i was doing is the second time.

there is going to be AT LEAST one super xiong week in each sem..and during tat week, i will be lyk a walking zombie..this sem its week 12..i haf three presentations, one quiz, one forum entry and one report due all in one week..haha but i survived..

sm pple so fake..tats the reality i guess. sae any prob can look for me and all the crap. but when the need act arise who act help.some will and im very grateful to them BUT not many in fact. PLS nv promise pple anyth u dun think u can deliver them.it ruins ur own reputation and destroys the trust pple haf in u!

one more thing..no more model ans provided anymore. ask for model ans den memorise everything there hopefully similar qn come out in the exams? tats alr part of history. tats y connections is so impt..i think..

the whole sys jux forces my to be untruthful of myself, sth i m not very gd at..haha mb at the end on grad i mb a transformed person..speak up, tok to pple lyk they are all ur buddies coz u nid the marks, u nid the connections. volunteer all the work and be a leader bcoz u nid pple to think well o u coz they are grading u for peer evaluation. do all the wayang for presentations and report coz tats wad Prof luv to see..email the Prof so tat they noe who u r, as an individual not jux a student. ask more intelligent questions in class so not only the Prof recognise u and rmb u, but oso ur course mates..how can i adapt? are there any ref books i can refer to? pls teach me how.

smtm i wonder i study so hard, wads the point? proportional relationship with results?

buy new shoes. buy new clothes. buy digi cam.. buy new bag. buy zai zai album.when can i realise all these?in my dreams mb..or mb if im a tai tai. i want to delete all the junk files stored in my laptop. change my blog skin. rebond my hair.go out and haf fun.watch all the bai fen bai and kang xi episodes i miz.watch all the shows i haf but not yet watched since duno when.and the list jux go on.

heard this while listening to the radio tat dae.
STRESSED and DESSERTS, mirror images. realise that? sounds cool huh;) when we view things from diff perspective, we get diff 体验. everyone noes tat but how many can act do tat?

on a happier note, zaizai!!! saw him on bai fen bai and kang xi!! so shuai!! and he can sing 现场 now!! his 演唱功力 improved..his 咬字 oso improved=)))) GREAT man!!! fell in love w him. again=)) im going to buy when his 专辑改版=D

and i m watching all the 星光大道 episodes..haha abit late la i noe coz it all happened lyk half a yr ago..how can i not know all these tat time man..mux be bcoz of the stupid work tat time la..waseh 参赛者超强的嘞，而且都超会唱..太有魅力了..有几次听了还会满感动的..感觉到了他们对唱歌的热爱和坚持..看他们的演出真是一种享受啊！！视觉和听觉上的享受=)参赛者在比赛中唱的歌，都会一首首地变红, 也让我再次听到一些之前被忽略的好歌..不知为什么，当参赛者被淘汰，其他战友也跟着哭了时，我也会哭，流泪..一只听他们在唱，自己也好想唱. 和本地的寻星节目，素质上真是差太远太远了..同样都是寻星节目，为什么素质差怎么远呢？哈,我的最爱：林宥嘉，许仁杰 :p 周定纬只是觉得他的舞蹈满吸引人的.. oh they are coming singapore!!

会唱歌的男人, 超赞.
会弹琴的男人，超吊.
会跳舞的男人，超 zai.
如果我有这样的一个男朋友，那就太完美了..但，这么完美的人怎么会喜欢上我呢？

hol liao. i wanna go taiwan. again..or hong kong disney land..haha it looks magical. december - the month of happiness..i hope its always dec!

我怀念的

2007-10-20T13:58:00.001+08:00

like poles repel and unlike poles attract..但是，我们往往会和自己类型的人混在一起，因为那会使我们较自在些。。如果是这样的话，这理论怎能成立呢？可是，我们又无法想象两个anti 的人走在一起，而会联想 anti 配 outgoing 的人。。人生中总是充满着矛盾。

电视剧里常常看到杉菜和道明寺类的浪漫爱情故事，但在现实生活中呢？真的会有灰姑娘的真实故事吗？那，我的道明寺呢？我的白马王子呢？我的第十号男生呢？

我怀念的是坐在classbench 大伙人闲聊的悠闲
我怀念的是荡秋千时荡在空中的无忧无虑
我怀念的是工作得很累但却享受的满足
我怀念的是想买什么就能买的挥霍
我怀念的是和朋友在一起的自在
我怀念的是做工时的专注和用心
我怀念的是放假时的不顾一切
我怀念的是考完a lvls 的自由
我怀念的是kbox-ing的快乐
我怀念的是逛街时的松懈
我怀念的是彼此间的默契
我怀念的是你对我的了解
我怀念的是做自己的真实
我怀念的是小时候的单纯
我怀念的是无话不说

如果明天是世界末日，你会记得我吗？
如果我就这样离开了，你会记得我吗？

我走了

week after mid term break - week 8

2007-10-20T13:05:00.000+08:00

thur was the second major presentation for twc..i realised i cant focus if i nidda speak and click the slides at the same time..i will get distracted..haha jux cant co-ordinate..if i rmb my speech, i wun click..if i click, i forgot abt the slides..mux appoint pple to click slides next tm, at least for me..i was rather stressed w this presentation, so the moment it ended i was v relieved and sort of slack diao..tats bad!! i nidda find a motivation to work..i would sae its beta than the first time, but theres still room for a lot o improvement..i tink we will soon get used to all these presentations..as time progress..somehow..and hu noes, when i graduate i will becom a confident speaker alr lei..haha..transformation in me..

tue after acad was stressed up again..coz we nidda start planning for the 8-10pg essay alr..which is lyk torturing for pple lyk me who cant write..after staying back to do sm research, went to yishun..i tink its most prob the last tm i go there liao..人在一个地方久了，就会有记忆存在。而，往往是因为周边的人和事物影响着你对一个地方的感情，并不是环境本身。当你离开一个地方，你会记得那里的人，你讨厌的，你喜欢的，你都会记得。即使回到了同样的地方，但周围的人都变了，你还会一样想念这地方吗？

mon was the ltb implementation day..i wun say its fantastic la..the initial part was qt cock up..rather screwed coz the video we wanted to play cant be shown in the tv..i tot cds burnt frm the com cant be payed on the tv..but they insisted tat it can be done..i suggested trying the burnt cd at the player at our homes but they sae its not gg to help coz the one at home is diff frm the one at their place..so in the end, we had to resort to playing the video rom our laptops..i hope its not too straining for the old folks' eyes..while we were trying to fix the video, the old folks were all waiting, i was so afraid the whole thing will jux screw up tat moment..so we started off w the clay moulding..the gal forgot to brg the sample tat se did..haiz waste her effort in making the samples=( so we jux demo on the spot..and i demo-ed too..speaking in eng, chi an hokkien..haha..suddenly i feel so pro..so proud of myself to be able to speak dialect:p den the thing progress qt ok frm there liao..although there were sm unenthu old folks who arent v involved..well, in all activities, there are bound to be sm unenthu or anti ones..i played a part in this grp too..before..den there was a transtition to the video..den sort of end the things liao..

smtm, u cant judge a person by the first impression created by them..it can be misleading.. dun be misled my dear friends..jux lyk me, i m not a quiet person if u noe me well..

i haf lots of things to do man..im trying to figure out wad to write for my outline and the proj report （ the part im responsible) no input.no idea.tried to start by reading the articles in the reading package but apparently the article i read, i haf absolutely no idea wad the crap the author was toking abt..haha..mb no only my writin sux, my understanding sux too..cant read btw the lines..REAL SAD..i wonder how to survive week 11 onwards..three major presentations, one essay, two learning journals, two project reports. and of coz, not forgetting lots and lots of proj meetings..all waiting to be due..SOON!!SAD LIFE, living to meet deadlines..haha if i continue, gonna start grumbling again..i shall stop here=））

mid term break?

2007-10-14T09:23:00.000+08:00

last sat i agreed to help them to work again..and i tink im qt responsible lei..at least i stayed back to complete the work for that dae b4 i left, thus ot-ing till abt 640pm..tat dae was qt 'exciting' act..coz i get to hear a few shocking news..

sun was spent doing acad essay..i act took one whole day to rite my essay!!i cant believe it..and its only the writing process lei, not counting the planning and research..i spent too much time on this tat im wondering if i shd haf devotd the time to do other stuff instead..if only time spent α result obtained, tat’d be too wonderful..

den came recess week..tis week passed too quickly..blink blink, its sun liao..most of the time was spent on proj meetings..its more of a proj week than mid term break..mon i had ltb..tue i had acad, twc and fa..it makes me feel lyk im businesswoman, running ard for meetings..all the way from 10am..10-12 to do acad, 1-3 for twc den 4-6 was fa…wed was the only free dae i had for the week..thur was the supposed proj implementation and fri asoc + fa meeting and i spent lyk 12 hours in school..real tired when i reach home liao..pple even suggested to haf meeting on sun, which i firmly object to..but sat still haf anot meeting..and i din do any research for the proj yet..i was too tired i couldn’t stay awake anymore..decided to go zzz and wake up early the next dae to do the research..

alrite sm details on the highlights of the week..

sat.
went to the lib to return books after the meeting..i luv tis grp..meetings are rather productive and we get things done..theres progress each time..wanted to borrow some books as research for my proj den study there..apparently the lib was closed bcoz it’s a public hol todae..i guess we are too bz w our own stuff tat it act slipped our mind todae’s a PH..went to j8 instead..i saw the s&k jacket again!!oh man..wanted so much to buy again la..haha ‘wanted’ which means din buy..someone sae it looks ok nia..anw bot a shirt from s&k instead.

s&k tshirt :)

bot anot shirt as well, but that wasn’t for me..anw, all these (and sm other 有的没的 o coz) amounted to lyk 50 bucks man..i shd start studying liao..the break is gg to end soon and i haf barely touched my book..

fri.
shdnt haf cancelled the thing for asoc la..i dun tink i played an impt role in the rehearsal..i belief they could act do w/o me..it does allow me to get an overview of wads gg to happen on the actual day itself, but more than half the time was spent waiting..waiting for other members and com to come, waiting for the rehearsal to start, waiting for each program item to rehearse their parts..wait, wait and wait..

thur.
its totally screwed..completely man!! irritating la..told them we nid a rehearsal, yet they insisted there isn’t a need to..din lyk it when pple want to get things done via email, esp when there are sm hu din check their mails everydae or jux simply cant be bothered to reply… so in e end nth was done and things are jux left hanging there..din lyk it when pple promised to do sth and volunteered to do it yet, the end result was diff from wad was promised and discussed..din lyk it when pple insisted to get things done as planned when it was alr clear and obvious to all tat we were totally unprepared and problems which we din expect surfaced..din lyk it when pple assumed tat they knew everyth and tat all will jux run smoothly when all the smoothness was bcoz we din plan enuff nor tot thro throughly..mb it was my fault in the first place to haf changed the date..or did i jux brg fwd things tat will occur one dae earlier only?

mb tis is wad teamwork is all abt..mb tis wad proj aims to teach us – to work with one anot and conflict management..mb tis is wad we shd learn – resolving differences among pple..mb tis is wad we call reality - the true colours behind pple’s angelic faces..

i hate all these..pls brg me back to the good olden daes when theres only black and white, and no grey..wads proj all abt?

wed.
the only dae i din go sch..went to meet ser for dinner and pass her the things she wanted..ate at fish and co in the end after walking round and round imm..the staff was, no were qt weird..first was tis gal who intro herself to us den a whole chunk o words, which i couldn’t act catch wad she was saying..following which was this guy who insisted on serving us sth which we din order when we wanted to place our orders..and the gal took anot cup of water when ser requested for more water instead of refilling for her..den lastly there was anot gal hu wanted to refill both of ser cups (yupp rmb? she had two cups nw) when she refilled our cups.. and i tink its sm fish and co tradition to get the bdae gal / guy to stand on the table den sing bdae song for tat person..omg if its me, i tink i will most prob feel so paiseh la..will i really be happy? den went to walk walk..somehow, we kip 电到 each other la..dunno y oso..haha not tat kind of 电 tat u r tinking abt..dun 想歪 :p

tues.
after one whole dae of meetings, i was alr qt tired..cant imagine how its lyk if everydae was spent liddat IF i bcm a OL in future..haha..but i was meeting yy coz she miz yishun and wanted to go take a look, so i accompanied her..

以不同的身份回去，不是回去工作，纯粹是为了探望‘老朋友’，感觉有点不同，还蛮爽的。时代好像变了。。她居然穿短裤和拖鞋上班！那个人所谓的‘formal attire to be presentable’呢？她大概会觉得我们很烦吧，心里很可能在想：这两个是谁啊，在我地盘肆无忌惮地，太欠揍了，并决定向那个人complain 也说不定.. 本来想和她聊天的，她看起来很dao, 所以放弃了.. 这让我想起了我第一天上班的情形。。记得那天的我非常anti and quiet..问yy 我们怎么聊开的，她只回答了一句：缘分..的确，很多事是在不知不觉中萌芽的, 缘分把两个来自不同背景的人拉进了，缘分将两个陌生的人变成了好朋友！！

after which we left..wanted to get a drink and yy accompanied me..i din noe ntuc closes so early..anw, after buying the drink we tok..abt anyth we could think of, anyth we wanna update each other abt, any gossip we wanted to share..she seem a bit sian diao to hear news frm tat place..i will try to refrain myself frm updating her abt tat..yupp try (: it was a gd chat indeed=))

在认识新朋友时，自我封闭只是个保护自己的方法而已.. 我不能像个social butterfly, 自在地和初次见面的人谈天说地。。much as i hope i can, i failed to do so. 所以，有时候真的很珍惜和朋友在一起相处的时间。。因为那会是我最舒服，自在的时刻..认识我久的人会发现，我其实并不是个quiet person..我也可以玩得很疯的..

我怀念的是无话不说..

我的第一次就这样毁了）=

2007-10-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

alrite..finally its over..the COMM assignment, TWC presentation and FA quiz..i haf only one word to sae. screwed, tats the only word for it..firstly assignment. i act signed off wrongly!! omg..this makes me feel so stupid..then presentation..thats my first presentation lo..the first major presentation of the year, the first major presentation in smu..my part was qt bad la coz i was lyk shivering and so nervous..i kept looking at my script lo and tats bad..i did practice lei..sm how i jux panickes when i stand up there..sad..but our group, on the whole, did qt well..and there is a super good speaker in our grp..he spoke, rather fluently and confidently, and he din prepare any script la..waseh so cool sia!! if only i can present lyk him..i oso noe reading frm script is lyk news paper reporter..i wanna b a presentor too, but i guess im jux not up to it..at least not at the moment..i did tot o not preparing any script oso..but wad if i go up there den totally mind black how???!!

next was the quiz..tats 100 times worse..i did studied for it k..it was an open book paper but well, tat din make much difference..u dun really haf time to refer to books and there isnt much really useful things..as in those u hafta noe u alr noe..i tink its difficult man..and my balance sheet is not balanced!! haha..which means my ans confirm wrong liao..coz as the name suggests, a balance sheet needs to be balanced!!its so irritating la!! my balance sheet is alwaes not balanced man!! den i cant figure out where my mistake is..im super irritated and sian diao..and im act qt shocked they act prepared multiple sets of papers to prevent pple from copying man..smart, cool!!! the qns are the same but the options arent placed in the same manner..this means if u copy frm ur neighbour, u mb mislead by his/her ans, thinking tat urs isnt rite..but so many sets, how are they gg to mark i really wonder..im really impressed..needless to sae the quiz is lyk shit liao..study so hard oso no use..and marks will b deducted for wrong ans too..i hope i wun end up w negative marks man..i seriously hope so..waseh man..first quiz of the year lei..first quiz in smu lo..wad a lousy experience..

anot stressful thing..my acad essay!! argh!! tat is driving me crazy too!!apparently mid term break is next week..but we all noe that it isnt..with all the proj and deadlines, wad a nice break we are having..oh my..its real fast man...转眼间七个星期就这样过去了。。我学了什么呢？我必须好好反省一下。。我本来还是相信的，只要我努力，我尽力，那就足够了。。但是时好像并非如此，除了努力，好需要一点运气，一点内幕。。好沮丧。。

my essay!! when can i get my outline and draft out man?? at this rate im progressing, nv..HELP!! y torture those who cant rite man??

HAPPY-ing..then

2007-10-03T12:38:00.000+08:00

i had fun last fri and sat=))

fri

met up w yy again..this time for kbox=) we haf been saying tat ever since we were working la..it was hard to find a time to go tgt when we were working coa its not v likely tat they will let us off on the same dae..haha..finally wish granted now, after the long wait..we had this meeting fixed qt early coz she seems lyk a 大忙人..so mux make appointment in advance..she 千叮咛万嘱咐us not to ps her, and i assure her i wun, yet in the end it was her the wan who ps me..haiz..so sad man..anw, the kbox session was qt fun:D and apparently she did not go learn and practice those songs that i sent her tat fri..we din act sing a lot of new songs, more those 耳熟能详 kind..haha..u noe y la :p and we sang duets..but the guys and gals parts not v distinct..haha when we cant reach the gals pitch jux switch to guys and vice versa..i tink she is in luv w the prince..okie the klunch wasn’t very nice..i used to tink their lunch was qt nice lei..duno y 水准下降了..the crispy fish wasn’t crispy by the time i ate it le..in fact it was rather hard..i couldn’t believe it la..she act din touch the food at all lo..okie she touched..only the few slices of fruits..omg..tats such a waste of food..after tat we walked ard cck but there wasn’t much anw..den it was abt time for her to leave le and she ps me..i was walking ard and i saw this bag..i haf been wanting to buy such a bag man...

the bag i was eyeing on

after which, i made my way to je lib to study b4 meeting serena..haha found myself anot date since she ps me.. the aircon in the lib was super cold despite me wearing a jacket alr..met w serena and ate at café cartel..the food there was nice man!!! it’d be nice if i can eat there again=)) nice food + good service + reasonable price = ((= cool man!! i dun mind gg there again=) i tink i was abit high there..sharing and laughing..i guess my laughter was contagious..hehe..oh yea ser act broke a pen while she was playing w it..omg..cant believe it if i din witnessed tat..laughed lyk mad den..HAHA..

sat.

went kbox again, w ying this time..haha and i din exactly sing the songs i sang on fri..cool!!the aircon there was super cold there la!! Din expect such an ulu place to haf such strong aircon..haha i tink their business there wasn’t gd coz they allowed us to sing till 1430 coz we were slightly later than 1100..mb tats a result o competition from kster..kster seems to be offering gd deals..shall go check it out when im free..yupp den we k till 1500 without being chased by the staff..fun!! woo hoo~ i luv kbox-ing man..it kinda makes me happy..once again, sad to sae, i was being ps again..she join her hall pple for anot session, which means she k frm 1100 to lyk 1900..wow..cool!!

din feel lyk gg hm after tat, so went to walk ard..bot sth=)

necklace

i happen to come across this jacket at s&k and its really love at first sight man!! too bad..my one doesnt haf a superb camera..wanted to get a digital cam too..haha..sm dae..meanwhile, bear w these pics first..

fall in love w it

s&k lei my fav shop lo and its during a sale somemore..its tough to resist myself from buying it..haiz but no choice..if i buy sure being nag..i can imagine this in my head: 家里这么多jacket liao, 还买jacket.你可以穿这么多jacket meh?

好开心能这样出去，和朋友聚一聚。。我爱你们！！(((= 想你喔:p woo hoo! i passed my elw!! i wonder if i act passed it or they jux pass me coz they duno wad to do w it..well anw, the fact is i passed=) and my printer is working now..the previous few times when i attempted to print, the com sm how jux couldnt detect the printer..haha guess wad?tat time my com kena virus so we change a hard disk and so all needs to be reinstalled again..all i nidda do is ti reinstall the printer again..oh man..it makes me seems o stupid again..

sun.
nth much..back to work..sm of the classes are ending and there are sm changes in the timings for e classes..i was abit confused..i hope i din tell pple the wrong timing or collect the wrong amt frm parents and create prob for pple..there were two students who came for makeup..i tink they really champion la..to haf done tat in his class..shall not elaborate here..tell u in person if anyone wans to noe..haha..and i din haf time to do wad I wanted to type..i want wad i deserve..argh..y they so inflexible wan lei..haiyo..ma fan la..shall see how..cant be bother w tat liao..v bz these few daes..

until last week i was still enjoying life..mb tat explains my stress these few daes..slack too much liao..this week is super xiong man..i haf graded assignmentS on wed (jux over, and i dun tink i wrote well and i act sign off wrongly for one of them..omg!!) , major presentation on thur, quiz on fri, which i wasn’t prepared at all coz there are still a lot of things i dun understand..omg at this rate im progressing, i wun b able to finish studying all the topics in time for the quiz and im gg to flunk the quiz man..and the prof will blacklist me..still got the 4-6 pg essay, forum posting, learning journal entry and the list jux goes on..oh man..thinking of the amt of work to be done, im gg to faint liao..so stressed sia..

nxt wk is supposed to be my mid term break la..yupp supposed..coz at the present moment three daes in a week has alr been taken up to do the projects!! and i expect more to come=( wad break is that man!! *faint*

oh yea..almost forgot..as wad i haf promised i shall acknowledege my source for my fireworks pic in the previous few entries..she is saying tat wasnt the best she took..kudos to ade and her sony ericsson's fone:) haha compared to mine, her seems to be much more clearer..took the pic frm her blog..pls dun sue me for plagarism..i acknowledge my source le..

woo hoo~ =D

2007-09-22T13:29:00.000+08:00

fri was, once again, wasted, not studying..the day started with me gg to the hello shop to change my plan.. my bill exceeded and my mum scolded me, asking me to pay for it myself..so change to the student plan..who is a singtel subscriber? pls let me noe..haha..oh we took a super long time to locate the hello shop la..its situated in sm ulu place, not exactly inside the shopping mall..we had a hard time finding it man..and when we reach there, the staff sae we mux clear all the bills first..i was lyk okie, why din u tell us tat on the fone?? so we made our way to pay the bill and go back to change my plan..den we were wondering if we shd change to the mio plan..and in the end we did=) so there's alot of paper work and we got a new fone at zero cost..of coz i wun be the one to use it..i am very happy with my motorala=)

anw this whole process took lyk two hrs la..i tot it will b fast lei so i din brg my fone along..i feel so sorry..i was late to meet yy..so apologetic for making her wait so long..oh finally!!!we meet again!! and we tok alot..haha mb she was expecting more from me ba..updated each other of wad happen and tok abt anyth under the sun..我可以感觉到她对一些人的思念，让我看了也有点心痛。。we chatted and chatted and chatted..den went to walk ard..but apparently, jp wasnt a nice place to shop..settled for crystal jade to fill our stomachs..the waitress bluff me la..saeing tat the dish wasnt v spicy..waseh everytm liddat wan lei..when i ask pple, they alwaes sae not spicy..but when i eat, its so spicy k..haiyo..y mux it b spicy?? cant it be a normal dish..those who wan eat spicy jux add chilli themselves la..it'd haf tasted much beta w/o chilli lo..y mux torture pple lyk me who dun take spicy food lei..

after dinner, went to her hostel..since its qt near my hse, but no direct bus though..oh we were carrying the same bag!! so cool man!! it wasnt intentional..as in we din plan to carry the same bag..and we din buy them tgt oso..haha pple mux b thinking these two gals mux haf bot the same bags deliberately..

our bags - left black + grey, right's mine, black + white:)

guess wad i did there?? she's act uploading the songs frm my fone to enrich her collection of her songs on ipod!! okie tats still secondary..she even ask me to change the song title, all to chi titles..coz according to her, my han yu pin yin is more zai..haha it seems lyk a great honour to be able to tell wad the song is after listening to its prelude or knowing the artiste of the song by jux looking at the song title:p so basically the two hours there was spent sending songs, me changing the title of every song she sent..the funny thing is, i seem to haf a beta idea of wad songs she alr haf lo..and the most frequent qn asked was ：我有没有这首歌？i think one nite, she sent lyk 80+ songs?? lyk abit exaggarated but i feel lyk im approving all the requests for the songs to b sent via bluetooth and editing the songs titles the whole nite...she mux b v grateful for the invention of bluetooth..im asking her to learn some of the songs, if not all, so that we can sing them tgt when we go kbox the next tm:)) i 'taught' her how to input chi and she 'taught' me to dl skype as well..time passed rather fast sia and soon its tm for me to go hm..she din wan to let me go not bcoz she 舍不得让我走..instead, its coz she haven finish transferring all the songs to her com..waseh i feel so hurt man..before i left, we manage to take some pics..

on her bed

in front of the toilet, i tink

study desk

okie la, i noe..the fotos were not v clear..coz my fone only 1.3 megapixel nia..well but its still beta than nth la..duno why the situation was rather out of control wheneva we took fotos..tat tm at the centre oso..after i sent her the fotos (coz she insisted), i left..how i wish i could stay overnite there..i luv such get-tgt =D

是一种亲切感和彼此间的默契，说不上为什么，就是很享受这种熟悉的感觉。并不需要多说什么，也不用作太多的解释，彼此都能明白各自要传达的讯息。。好怀念这种感觉。。期待着下一次的约会=)

cool!! cool things happen tgt man!!! anot wish granted again!! im so happy!!! my next wan will be to go ying's and polly's hostel..and go kbox sm dae..its their mid term break now..ours hafta wait two weeks later..

i have been looking fwd to fridays..when i was working, i luv fridays coz its my off dae..when i m studying, i luv fridays coz its my free dae..i simply love my fridays..

881:D

2007-09-21T00:23:00.000+08:00

oh cool!! finally, my wish to watch 881 was granted!! im so happy=)) this may sound abit slow coz the show was alr showing for qt sm tm le..well its okie..

the reviews were gd..i lyk the show.i lyk the songs played in the show.i lyk the lyrics of the songs, they match wad the show wanna sae.the behind part is the touching part..i tink there r pple in the cinema who cried coz i see pple taking out tissue paper..太赚人眼泪了。也令我想起了一个人。一个已经离开了的人。这也让我跟清楚地记得：anti tts. yes, i will rmb.

after watching the show the 一人一半 tune kips playing in my mind..一人一半，感情不散，一人分一点，感情才会久（hmm translated to chi, it doesnt sound as nice lei）

野花不要采 - 881

最后一口气 - 881

its a sad song..listen to the lyrics..argh makes me wanna cry man..when i heard it the first time esp..

its a culture- rich show and i would sae no everyone will lyk to watch it..but for me, i really love the show..i dun mind watching it again lo=) shall consider whether to buy its ost or not..=)

shall not spoil this happy entry w all the not so happy stuff..881 rox=）

random thoughts in a confused mind.

2007-09-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

still recovering..strepsils isnt very effective in relieving sore throat, i realise..i tink pi pa gao would haf been a beta choice..bcoz o the blocked nose, pple mux b tinking im rather disturbing in class..and it has been proven, from my past experiences, that, a lack of sleep has led to a decrease in the level of concentration and ability.tired, bith physically and mentally. and i dunno wad i m doing..i feel so aimless and lost.i nid someone to direct me, to lead me to be on the right track again before i wander off too far..feel lyk gg kbox again..

我一直都认为只要我全力以赴，那就足够了。即使成果没有我预期的好，但至少我已尽力了，对得起自己，也无怨无悔。但是，这想法似乎不是很正确。。无法说明为什么我会有这种想法，就是一个莫名的感觉。为什么？难道尽力了，还是不够的吗？那我还欠缺什么呢？有谁能指引我吗？

还有很多事要做，但没有一件做得好。。我想做的事都没办法完成。。怎么办？我想是因为休息太久了，不太习惯读书时所必须承受的负担与压力。。常常会有些幼稚的想法，像是把书本都烧了，再把它们都喝下去，像是喝福水一样，保佑我考试顺利。。时间一分一秒地过去。。它不会因为一个人的离开，难过或失望而fast forward，让人忘记，更不会因为一个人的快乐，兴奋或不舍而pause，让人回味。时间不等人，岁月不留人啊。。

我的花费习惯（i meant spending habits) 八成是被我老妈影响的。每当我想买东西，都会三思。我无法理解，为什么有些人买东西根本就不需要在乎它的价钱，想买就买。拜托，谁不希望这样啊？不是每个人都有本事的。。那天买了一双鞋（而且是在店打折的时候买的），刚拿出来穿，老妈就问我为什么又买鞋，有钱了就会花钱了，还说鞋架上都是我的鞋。我的嘛哟，我记得很多都不是我自己买的。我还想买多几件衣服让我上学穿。但我还没说她就唠叨起来了，要我去整理我的衣橱，因为我的衣服实在太多，太乱了。。说实在的，我并不觉得自己买了很多东西。。本来还想再买多一双鞋的，看来要打消这念头了，以免老妈又唠叨了起来。要我怎么开口问她，自己的头发去烫直会比较好吗？我开不了口。。

璀璨的烟花

我一直觉得，能有个人在夜空下陪你看烟花，或在海边看日出，会是件很浪漫的事。。即使是在克拉码头欣赏夜景，聊天，也是个不错的选择。别在做梦了，回到现实吧。。是时候醒醒了，把自己分内的工作做完吧！人啊，常常会做一些虚无缥缈的梦，来换取那短暂的快乐。虽然很清楚那太不切实际了，但还是会胡思乱想。

潜移默化 [成] - 人的思想，性格在不知不觉中受到感染，影响而发生变化。开始了解潜移默化的意思了。。

心情不太好喔。。如果现在有颗流星划过天空，我一定会许愿，希望忘掉所有的不开心，做个开心人，也希望我周围的朋友快乐。。又是一个天真的想法。。实际一点吧，还是专心念书好了，为了自己的前途和钱途努力。

sick

2007-09-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

omg..blocked nose..how am i suppose to breathe liddat? so uncomfortable lei..tis mux b bcoz o the lack o slp..it mux be..slping late and waking up early..mon, tue and wed are the most xiong wan la..coz i haf super early morning claz..my only confort is tat my fris are free=) i am feeling so tired todae..wanted to do the reading and analysing of articles after FA de, but sm how i jux feel so sick tat i haf the urge to pon class and go hm (obviously i was guai enuff to stay in sch and b a gd student).. i was so tired i fall aslp..so in the end i din finish wad i intended to..again..presentations.projects.assignments.essays.reports.proposals.all to be due soon..and yea my participation!!!this is anot thing tat is troubling me..i haven spoken up in class man..really cmi liao.. dunno y my productivity is so low..and the quality is low too..i get distracted easily..

i want to finish my work.i want to finish my work. i want to finish my work.

没有期望，没有盼望，没有等待，就不会有失望吗？真的是这样吗？

tired

2007-09-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

i went to work todae..i believe there must be pple hu tinks i am crazy le..but yupp i did work..its qt heartwarming to see pple u noe, to work w pple u are familiar w and to tok w pple u can tok to..not those hi-bye kind, tats wad i mean..and there were small kids there..its so nice to see small children..i feel so happy seeing children..they played w me lyk i knew them long ago..lyk we were cloz frens..i luv such contact..i luv playing w children bcoz u see innonence in them..alrite, at least i do..they show wad they feel and they sae wad they wan..i dun hafta guess wad are they implying..its jux them and me..as who we r..it feels great..and for tat moment, i did act forget all the stress and troubles i was facing but truly enjoying myself - playing..i wonder when will be the next tm i haf such happy moments..因为在他们身上，我找到了天真和无邪。。不晓得从什么时候开始，自己已渐渐地失去了单纯和纯真。。那似乎像是孩子拥有的一种权力。。

oh yea..the machine was irritating!! which makes my dae so pek chek there..it kips jamming la!!! and in the end it starts to rebel..sm parts of the printed material cant be seen coz its jux too light..so its equivalent to not being able to print them..he was rather irritated too..he complained to higher authorities..coz he simply cant stand it anymore..haha..i hope they do sth..its real troublesome la and ma fan..esp when u r bz tat tm and it kips giving u prob..yet, i doubt there will b any concrete actioon plan..anw he tot me sth new..wow cool!! i was rather impressed..i learn sth new..well, although it only managed to solve the prob temp, i was still thankful=) his real helpful=) i lyk to hear his complains..coz smhow, here and there, i can hear my voices too..i lyk to hear him tok abt all those stuff lo..its entertaining mb..haha..i lyk sun there partly bcoz of this..haiz but the bad thing is i haf super early class in the morning on mon..its tiring to work..hmm although cm to think of it, i dun seem to haf done alot lei..i hope i haf been of help to her..i feel so tired when i came home tat i could haf fallen aslp if i haf laid on the bed..but i nidda do my work..and tmr is mon again..a new start..a new list of deadlines..oh man..i jux realised i was wrong..it seems lyk it shd be deadline instead of dateline..okie fine..my eng jux sux..cmi kind..and i cant express myself well in eng lei..tat explains my chi entries..omg..i m feeling stress again..stressed..how to destress..saying destress three times? detress.destress.destres.haha this sounds foolish..wad abt this? i wanna go out..i wanna go out..i wanna go out..it doesnt help much beta=(

wads happening

2007-09-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

woohoo! finally i went out w ying todae!! it was lyk duno since when tat i last saw her...we tok and walked and shopped..tok abt anyth under the sun..tok abt anyth we wanna tok abt..tok abt anyth we are unhappy with..yupp simply anyth..it feels great..i can be myself when i m w her=) i lyk tat feeling!! i hope we can meet up more often..best if its on a regular basis!! alrite i noe it isnt v poss..haha the meeting has brighten up my dae..hmm dunno how to put it..it jux makes me feel comfortable=) manage to take a few photos..wait for her to upload ba:p oh and we both bot shoes=D cool.nice.happy.enjoyable. great hug heals the heart..

oh yea..anot issue..shd i rebond my hair?i haf been thinking abt this for qt sm time liao..in fact very long le..and i still cant make up my mind..my hair is lyk..cmi..so not straight and dry etc..so unconfident of myself..to sm extent, appearance does play an impt part..in other context, appearance play a significant role..dunoo..shd i spend this sm of money and rebond my hair?im afraid i will regret the decision i make..i dun want to haf regrets lo..so shd i?shd i?gif sm suggestions lei..

this week is a real stressful wk for me..its lyk all the projects and everyth all cm liao..u face the reality..all the datelines and everyth..and project work means u hafta work w all kinds o pple..be it u lyk or u r comfortable w, u r jux stuck w them..mb this is wad they wan us to learn..to work w diff pple..im esp stressed on mon..coz its the start of a week..when your old assignments and work r not completed yet, there are new ones coming up..tue oso la..after my acad writing..i haf been thinking abt tat since tue..but i haf been staring at it..i told myself i mux finish it on fri..yet anot part of me sae i cant finish them by fri..haha so i haf been staring at tat qn for hrs and still nth comes to my mind...mb i shd haf a more concrete plan the next tm..and not purely satring at the qn..it will only procastinate my work..i haf a long list of work to do...and the list will only gets longer..haiz..i noe i nidda start studying now but i jux cant seem to brg myself to do it..duno y oso..

okie i shall tok abt the floorball training tat i went on mon..when i jux entered, i din really feel welcome though..qt different frm wad i expected..anw there came the warmup, which is running..feel qt shuang running lei..mb it has been a long time since i last jogged ba..or even exercised..the sweat, the wind, the run - feels great..den theres drills, which is ok..and games..which can be qt tiring..haha but that mb due to my lousy satmina oso la..anw i din regret gg lei..

and the sun trip..although the journey was rather long, at least we haf each other's company to tok on the train so it wasnt tat bad afterall..and the 1st place i went jux reminds me of tat place..the second one was much beta than i tot it would be..din expect to see her there..haha coz she was fotocopying..haha..it was qt a nice trip i would sae..at least gg to places which i dun really go..

时间一分一秒的过去，我又浪费了可以读书的时间了。。随着时间的流逝，有时会感到恐惧，害怕。。是莫名的那一种。。不知道为什么，我会有种孤军作战的感觉。。好像很难交朋友。。或许是因为我的个性吧。。我很想早点把事情做完，但我缺乏动力。。一点动力都没有，怎么叫我自己去做呢？想找人出去，因为那至少让我有个期待，有个推动力，可以激励我去做我的功课。。但大家好像都在忙各自的事，没什么时间。。有些失落。。为什么我这几天的心情都这么低落？有什么高兴的事要和我分享吗？我需要找到能让自己解压或开心的事。。这样，我才不会那么烦，那么不高兴。。独处的时候，会让我想起些不开心的事情，心情也就会跟着低落。。不知不觉，现在的心情也不是很棒了。。一个拥抱胜过千言万语。。great hug heals the heart..

2007-09-02T09:27:00.000+08:00

a series of things took place these few daes..of coz there are happy and unhappy stuff..

sat
i agreed to work for them ydae..act they want me to work both weekend de, but i rejected them//and being the beginning of the mth, it was a very busy dae..super busy..one dae alone, i collected a large sum of money (ha but it wasnt mine anw). although she was ard to help me, her only concern was to collect money..and photocopying stuff which was due next week.. alrite i noe its gd to prepare for those materials in advance, but sat lyk so many classes and teachers want to photocopy stuff, so it sort of delayed sm of their printing..anw i work ot again..i stayed back to complete sm stuff..well, there are still mch to be done but i hope i haf helped her..super tired at the end of the dae..luckily rejected working on sun..

fri
went kbox-ing w ade..finally my wish was granted..if i really wanna go kbox, its usu the times when im real sian or feeling down..singing makes me happy..tats y i was rather happy on fri..the kbox session was fun and enjoyable! =D and ade sings real well=)) after the kbox session i went to the mic tea session w ade..except for the part when sm pple take it as their singing session and dedicated songs non stop, its fine:)

thur
当天晚上发生了超难过的事。。我的课上到1845。。下了满大的决心才决定要去的，希望自己可以有个不同的体验。。但，遗憾的事，事情往往事与愿违。。下了课回家，换了衣服吃了晚餐就出去了。幸好有她在我身边，和我‘相依为命’，不然不知道会怎样。。所以感觉已不是很棒了。。谁也没想到接下来要发生的是更令人扫兴。。事情发生了之后，我更本就不想再踏进去半步。。太难过了，我离开了。。对于那些因为这件事而使那天晚上没那么快乐的人，我非常抱歉。。这是我最不希望看到的。但这也让我看清楚了一些事情。。真正的朋友是在你有难时，会挺身而出，力挺你的人。谢谢你们！！到了地铁站，我根本就不想回家。。不希望让家人看到这样的我。。想找人陪我，但我不晓得要打给谁。。打了，但却不知道该说什么。。幸好最后她来了。。我终于能深刻地体会‘眼泪像断了新鲜的珍珠，一颗一颗掉了下来’这句话。。看到了她，我强忍的泪水也不由自主地流下来了。。那是因为接踵而来所发生的一些事。。我开始后悔了自己的决定和一切。。非常后悔。。哭了，发泄了，舒服多了。过后就到 mac 聊天。。聊了满多的。。很迟才回家。。感到非常抱歉，因为她可能因为迟回而被骂。。太抱歉了。。

朋友是一股支持着人类的力量。。看到了小孩子的纯真会很开心，因为周围的一些人渐渐失去了自己那可爱的纯真。。或许是因为生活中的勾心斗角和尔虞我诈。。我并不需要很多朋友，即使是几个知心的知己，我也会满足的。真的。。

不晓得为什么，现在在阐述着当天的事，心里会酸酸的。。给我一点力量与勇气吧。。

2007-08-29T15:45:00.001+08:00

现在的心情糟透了。。好想好想大哭一场，因为那大概可以让自己发泄下，那心情似乎就会变好了。一支压抑着自己的心情好像也不太健康。哭了，很希望有人也能把手借给我，帮我擦掉我的眼泪。。或者是借个肩膀让我靠一靠也可以。。再不然，给我个热情的拥抱也可以。。不热情吗？即使只是个拥抱也足够了，让我感受感受温暖到底是什么。。没办法吗？那坐在一旁默默的陪我也行啊，只要让我感受到你的存在和关心。都不行吗？一句鼓励的话总该可以了吧。。在人最脆弱的时候，即使只是简单的一句加油，都足以让人心慰。。

2007-08-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

sch has started for abt a week..omg..its really diff..i mean i expected it to be such a style but i jux haf difficulty accomodating these changes..i am having a hard time now..in every class, the prof starts emphasizing on how impt class participation is, the projects coming up and the datelines due for each report and assignment, plus the bidding of courses lyk which to bid, how much too bid and whether i shd bid them now or later..omg these are all bothering me..pls help me..im real stress now lei...i wanted very much to go out..esp kbox and watch secret..i belief i shd go out this few weeks b4 all the impt datelines draw closer and i m real dead and too bz chiong-ing to go out..class participation is anot difficult thing for me..i guess i will jux get zero for it la! but den it will den imply my GPA will b super lousy since class participation plays such a crucial role to our grades...omg stress again..a lot of readings to do and i spend long hrs reading them..partly bcoz it takes time for me to understand and absorb the content (blame it on my lousy eng=（）, and oso since i cant understand most of the stuff, i tend to fall aslp while reading them..stressed up..real stressed..omg and this is only the first wk of sch..argh!!can smone pls help me!!!

oh ydae went back to work again..i noe pple mux b thinking i m crazy..but well, i agreed..partly bcoz i can earn money, but more for my collegue i'd say..i hope i did help her and not create more troubles for her..haiz but back to work means exposure to the ugly reality..but o coz got the kind side of human as well:p went for dinner and ate fish n co..their fish and chips is nice=) but its rather filling...thx for the dinner..thx for the laptop case too=))

wanted to blog abt the national day outing..though it happened rather long ago..haha bascially it was a 期盼已久的聚会. b4 the dinner we went bugis to shop..nope more accurately is yy..we are sort of accompanying her lo..没想到也让我们赚到了便宜货。那个老板莫名其妙的送了我们3个书包。哈哈，世界上也会有这种事发生在我身上。we had to meet them for dinner so hafta leave bugis at ard 6 plus.met ser at the mrt and we walked to our destination tgt..wa seh city hall was real crowded then man..mux be bcoz o the ndp lo..its super crowded and the police blocked the underpass..luckily im not alone..else i wun noe how to go there w/o the underpass route..we went to eat at a jap restaurant..the food was fine..qt nice..at least the food which i ate was nice:) oh yea and i tink the 'highlight' was the banana split..they act asked me to eat the banana when i told them i hated bananas liao..wa seh man..i dislyk the taste o banana lo..y din they ask the pro banana person eat the banana but the anti-banana me to eat it..they force me to eat it..haha i haf evidence..

forcing me to eat the banana:(

when they finally succeeded..i will hate bananas more now..

enuff said o bananas..den we went to shop ard..haha more o look see look see for me.. but i tink the gathering was fun!!hapo we organise more of such outings in future:p

oh and im addicted to why why love now..omg..this is bad..it is distracting me frm my reading..well its okie it jux means tat i will hafta slp later..less slp wun kill i suppose..the show is nice!!and it is addictive..beware..haha:D

updates - i'm back!

2007-08-08T11:53:00.000+08:00

the past few weeks had been eventful..ftb, followed by asoc camp and there was also the 5-day english language workshop..hmm i was rather anti social and quiet during the camps..well i was usually quiet when it comes to getting-to-noe pple..for both camps, the weather wasnt v gd..it rained and drizzled, which is kinda disruptive esp in the midst of sm activities..ftb was more of a teambuilding thing which emphasized on reflection and wad u learnt kinda things..there were sm thought-provoking stations lo..but i felt tat rafting and final challenge were the best..tunnelling was lyk shit..it was so dark inside la..cant even see anyth in there..and all thx to tat, i got all my blue-black on my leg..the tent we slp in was big but wasnt really water proof..well mb bcoz o the heavy downpour oso lah..my tent was lyk flooding..okie la mb its only my side..which woke me up fr my slp..the meals okie lo..it wasnt fantastic la but i din expect much since we were at camps..however, the drinks were nice..the chrysanthemum and chestnut..

as for asoc camp, its more fun..jux play and enjoy ourselves..station games and sentosa..it seems lyk every camp will be gg to sentosa..buffet during the last night..tats our best dinner=)we drank during the asoc camp..or rather we were 'forced' to drink..we started to play yee-ha cum diu diu diu and card games which were initiated by the facis..and the forfeit was to drink..initially our drinking wasnt very xiong..but after anot faci qiang xia to our faci, he decided to increase the amt we drink each time to half a cup..wa seh den in the end, i tink tat nite alone i drank lyk 4 cups lo..mb even more..after the drinking was the dancing..i tink its qt standard there..so we danced and danced till 3 plus 4..the next morning when i woke up i got rashes lo..omg..

and the 5- day elw..omg i really hope i can pass the test..if not i hafta take anot test which i haf no idea wad will b tested nor wads the format lyk..the 5-day workshop was really killing..imagine urself spending 8 hrs a day, fr 9 to 5, for 5 days, jux to study eng..oh yes..i realise studying grammar can b tough too..there's so many rules to rmb..i have been doing qns on grammar usuage rather instinctively or whether it sounded correct not..omg!and there will b a test at the end o each dae, which will be counted twds our grade in the end..pls pray hard for me..i dun really think i learnt much tat is useful when i was doing the test..perhaps bcoz my attitude twds the workshop wasnt v positive alr at the v beginning..why is it only those w not so gd grades in gp nids to go for such workshops?i do feel tat my lousy grades in gp has deprived me a lot..

went to sch for an academic briefing ydae..there wasnt much additional info given during the briefing, so it'd haf made no diff if i had not went..i act sprained my ankle on my way there when i was walking..i haf no idea i could haf sprained my ankle when i was wearing track shoes, not heels, while walking..no one would haf believed this..pple are all laughing at me when i told them this..its still swollen now..and painful too..

现在已经是八月了。这也意味着我可以离开我的工作。工作的这八个月，我认识了不少好朋友。或许是因为我们都感同身受，也一同经历了一些风风雨雨（哈哈，似乎说得太严重了），更巩固了我们的友谊。工作的这段期间，也不断在抱怨着管理层是怎么地在剥削员工，但，我们还是选择了回去帮忙。当时不断想着可以怎么脱身，现在终于解放了，却又回去了。。或许人生就是这样充满矛盾的吧。有些人大概会认为我们疯了，但我不得不承认，我工作的这几个月，快乐的时光的确躲过那些被她们骂的日子。认识了一些尽心尽力、怀着对教育有一番热忱的老师（我是打从心里的敬佩他们），当让也有一些浑水摸鱼的，以及让我莫名讨厌的，还有同甘共苦的知己，和凡是有空就会下来跟我们聊天的 auntie..我学到了不少东西，也意识到了人心的险恶和社会的现实。他说得没错。。不要被人欺负，也不要太单纯。有些人看起来表面上对你很好，怎料却在背后此你一刀。好的，我会牢记在心。。不管怎么样，我还是坚信世上是充满温情、充满爱的。

lousy daes

2007-07-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

sat.

i went to work as usual..but smhow i was feeling rather moody..i was telling her its my last sat there and she was rather shocked..subsequently the teachers were shocked too..when they sae they gonna miss me, i feel so sad..i gonna miss them too..我是一个重情重义的人。只要是产生了一段友情，我会非常的舍不得而热泪盈眶。。那一秒钟，我的确感觉到眼泪在我眼睛里打转..这世界是充满爱、充满温暖的。。it happens to be a relief teacher's bdae..she ordered pizza and we all get to eat them=) 没想到好景不长在。。i called to tell her abt tue..tat i nidda go sch and may not b able to make it in tm..and u noe wads her reply?she sae cannot..mux reach there in tm..crazy pple..i dun lyk them..cant they be more flexible..and i tried to tell her tat it will be my first and last two daes there..den she sae y i liddat..only last few daes only still haf such requests..following which she doent want to tok to me anymore, saying tat there is incoming fone calls liao..

我好难过。。或许是对她有些失望也是。。即生气又伤心。。结果我哭了。。我在想既然他们这样，我也不需要太仁慈了。。本来是想这样就算了，但她提起了，我边讲，忍不住哭了。。结果惊动了太后。。没想到她却愿意帮我。。真是太感激了。。一提起那件事就落泪，让我觉得自己很脆弱，很不坚强。。这是似乎是一件非常小的事。。我好像在小题大做。。我讨厌遮掩得自己。。我讨厌这么不坚强的自己。我要变勇敢些。。请告诉我怎样才能让自己更勇敢，更坚强。。有没有什么仙丹有这个作用呢？我想我哭太多了。。眼睛好痛。。

fri.

went to bugis w ying..haha i alwaes tot she will be late but it turns out tat i m the one late and not her..so paiseh lei..haha shdnt alwaes assume things lo..she is sick and i seem rather tired too..both o us seems qt dead..walk see walk see..manage to buy a shirt, or rather a blouse..and sm choc..i was tinking o buying sm choc for my collegues and sm nice teachers and take it as a farewell gift or sth liddat=) a token of remembrance..den went off to kiddy palace to buy sth for the baby..after which went to yishun..

i planned to gif yy a pleasant surprise so i din tell her beforehand i was gg..i wanted it to b a memorable fri there coz subsequent fri i wun be free le..i suppose she was rather shocked to c me..haha which meant i succeeded..it did surprise her!!!but hu noes there's a greater surprise waiting for us..omg..i cant believe it..i was so accurate..i was still saeing if she will appear..after they assured me no, the next sec she came!! really, 说曹操，曹操就到 man...she stayed back to check all the stuff there..and she act tok till abt cloz to 11pm..was ratehr bu shuang w sm o the things she mention but i wasnt as agitated as yy..poor gal...it was meant to be a nice meeting and we jux tok and tok and tok..but her sudden appearance had totally spoilt everyth..b4 we part, there's still a big hug..没想到一个拥抱的力量怎么大，让我心暖和多了。。至少心情有些舒服些。。haha and the guys mux be thinking we are les..great hugs heal the hearts.

an awful dae

2007-07-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

haha be prepared to read a thur entry..its gg to be full o complains..

i worked ot voluntarily again todae..left the centre at abt 1050pm..i really hate thur man..it sux..i was calling them to look for her, instead anot told me she has sth to tell me..intuitively, i knew it wasnt anyth gd..obviously, my guess was rite! she asked me to go je! i was shocked la o coz..sm more its for two daes..so i ask her can i sae i dun wan..she sae cant..wa seh..den ask me for wad?her reason being im gg to leave soon so i shd jux do her this favour...i dun lyk them..the way they handle things..i jux hate it..tis not the distance lei..its familiarity kk..i would rather go yishun instead o je lo..so i took the chance to ask her abt my leave..she sae its granted..haha when they nid smone o help them, everyth 好商量. else everyth seems so difficult for them..it seems lyk i cant end my work any earlier..i can only take leave for the daes im having camps..and everyth was set when the wok schedule was out..it totally affected my mood at work..argh!!

den came more bad news..coz she appeared at the centre and starts to 翻箱倒柜 coz she was finding sth..i managed to find one o the things she looking for..she was still saeing 原来是你收的，还我被他们骂。oh man wad is this?i m at fault?i rmb myself passing it to her..its her not kiping it kk..well i shd still count myself lucky tat she wasnt in a bad mood..else sure kena scolded wan lyk siao wan lo..den smone was asking hu is working tmr..so she sae it shd b me wan..wad is this man!!!why is it me????fri IS my off dae kk..den her reason being i nidda take leave off next wk..crazy man!!im entitled to off daes and leave..y shd i ought to be the one working jux bcoz they couldnt find anyone to replace me??further more she din ask me to change my off dae and work tmr..wa lao all the more i dun lyk them..it seems lyk she is doing me a favour by working tmr..hallo its not doing me a favour k..pls get this clear..i shall jux pray that everyth goes well tmr..i hate it when i nidda settle lots o things when i return to work on sat..pls pray for me too..den anot..she act ask me to mark the students' script bcoz the relief teacher din do it?wa lao..wth..im only an admin lei..think i wad arh?bao ga liao isit..do admin work, fetch students and even yupp..den now still nida mark their scripts..its the relief teachers who got the pay..not me lei!!y ask me to mark..jux bcoz they collected fees frm e students but the relief din do a gd job and i nida do it incase any parent complain?so wad if i m gg uni soon?it doent mean tat i can or i hafta mark these lower pri work..y din they instruct the relief clearly when they approached them?it will save us alot o trouble and any misunderstanding..

so basically i haf been cursing and swearing after tat..fortunately the kind teacher offerred to help..if not i really duno how i m suppose to mark those work..thousand thx to the teacher..i was so angry tat i feel i shdnt mistreat myself for not eating my dinner again..luckily i made the right choice..after the meal, i continued w my work..wad to do lei..难道就不做工了吗？如果不做，只会累计得越多，因为始终我都必须完成。。chiong all the photocopying and highlighting..still got the tpying oso..i m so tired nw... i feel so drained..its my last fel daes alr (deducting my leave), and yet this is how they treat us in return..so disappointed..anw its ten more daes if im not wrong..im counting down to it..

现在好想看戏。。看那些会让我痛苦异常的戏。。或许大哭一场后，会让我舒服一些。。

enuff of all these..im gg to 2 camps..one freshmen camp and the other acc camp..im looking fwd to them..i m looking fwd to my uni life..i hope it will be a great one..and not lyk yupp..yea excited..

2007-07-06T11:13:00.000+08:00

thur.

my thur entries r alwaes full of complains..so ydae i was photocopying and photocopying and photocopying..causing me not to haf tm to finish updating my payment still..wa seh..work has been piling up...i haf been working ot volunteerily these few daes..not bcoz i really luv the work..but bcoz if i dun stay back to do, i wun haf the tm to finish it..argh!!

and i dislyk that teacher..he is so irritating..he seems so unserious everytm..alwaes tok crap..and i tink he acts strangely too..there's anot teacher who tinks likewise as well..i hate anot teacher oso..i feel uncomfortable toking to him everytm..he's so fake kk..who noes if he may backstab me or sth..i really hope they change him..i rather they change the teacher than ask the student to withdraw frm the class..omg..lucikly there r real nice teachers still..and i luv them=) hehe=p they r those who really haf the passion for teaching, those who really haf the interests of the students in their hearts..

wooh hoo..its friday again!!i hope nth big happens again..i shall pray hard now..

2007-07-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

finally i haf finish typing my attendance..yupp, after staying back to ot for a no. o daes..now left w all the photocopying stuff and updating the payment..i tink i haf accumulated lyk two or three receipt bks these few daes le..i realise i haven bin toking on the fone w yy and yu these few daes..she is coming back soon..when she is ard, it makes me feel so redundant..well, mb tat means i can take leave to go for all the camps and everyth..i scared i may hafta work morning when she returns..i dun wan it..i dun lyk to work morning shift de..mb morning there is less prob and such but i jux dun lyk it..it has been such a long tm since i woke up so early in the morning..its qt slack to work in the morning and so time pass by slower..and since most classes are at night, i wun b able to see many teachers and tok to them..i hope i wun be scheduled to work morning..i will be so sad..

当我了解到他们是怎么对待一些老师时，我的确替他们感到不值。他们尽心尽力的在为他们教课，可得到的却只不过是如此罢了。太过分了。。世界就是那么不公平。。你对人好呢，他未必会记得，但只要你对他有丝毫的不好，他将会牢牢地记在心里。。有时候台替他人着想，人家也未必领情。。或许就是这样，才会导致人们都变得自私自利吧。。

tired

2007-07-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

the copier broke down todae and it really spoils my dae..many things are undone as a result..it seems lyk we cant do w/o it..still heavily dependent on tech..there's lots o work to do and i skip my dinner again..haha mb i can go on diet by not eating dinner to help me slim down..im real tired..very tired..tired bcoz im occupied w work..tired bcoz there's things for me to settle which arent act my responsibility...can anyone relief my tiredness? wad is this? asking me y i told her to do the typing and she not getting things done bcoz she takes a long tm to type only a few classes when i noe tat she type v slowly?! this makes me rather bu shuang..she type slowly so no nidda type?i tot its precisely bcoz she type slowly tats y nids more practice so tat she can type faster?? she does everyth slowly coz she will b toking all the tm..but she seem to tink she has accomplished alot..and there will alweas be things which i nidda settle on e nxt dae..alrite i understand the fact tat she may not b v familiar w our schedule..but its not the first tm students get enrol into the wrong class alr..omg..den there's anot thing which makes me more bushuang..they dun seem to care when we ask them how to settle stuff and push it back to us..wad are we supposed to do then?they are not at the frontline and they dun understand how difficult it is for us to handle and face the parents..we are lyk slaves..working so hard for them (at least i tink so) and they tink tats wad we ought to do and obviously not appreciated...there are simply sm things we cant settle on our own..smtm its their attitude which makes me v bu shuang and want to 以牙还牙oso..since they dun care for us, y shd we bother abt them?budden its not v fair to the others..victims i mean..

sun.
nth much..i only noe i v bz..collected a lot o money..if only all those money were mine..and there's alot o typing to do..i stayed back till 7pm to do all the work..but still, not able to finish them still..

sat.
as expected, she din help me rite my payment slips..and i hafta do it myself..she saw me doing it and ask me y din i write them ealier..wad is this? y dun u go ask her instead wad she has done on fri?i reported work early coz classes start early but i still go hm late..sat - the busiest dae o e week..

fri.
i luv fridays coz i can at least rest..but i received a few calls tat dae..i slacked at hm and watched sm shows..it seems lyk ages since i last watch these tv prog..den went to yishun..i did reach yishun earlier..haha..but i brot my work there to do..afraid that i will tok to yy and not able to complete my work, i isolated myself in the rm to accomplish my task..so sorry yy..din really tok to yy on fri..so sad..anw we left the centre tgt and i went home on my own..

well, it seems lyk i haf been leading a rather no life life..它似乎让我失去了很多和朋友聚在一起或见面的时间，有时会让我觉得好难过，好失落，好空虚。。想和朋友约个时间有点麻烦。。朋友们，千万别把我忘了啊！想念着大家。。怀念着我们美好的时光。。

2007-06-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

thur is a day i dread alot...duno y alwaes v bz wan..lyk occupied w lots o work..left the centre at abt 1030 lei..i cant believe it..i din even eat my dinner todae..every tm i eat my dinner, i cant eat in peace..there will b fone calls, or sm enquiries or sm parents will appear..plus the fact that i eat v slowly, my dinner was no longer appetising when i want to eat it when i m finally free..den i wun b able to finish the not-so-appetising mea anymore and this waste my money=( so i might as well dun eat dinner..save sm money den shunbian go on diet to slim down...haha....as usual fotocopied materials to be used on fri and sat coz i noe she wun help w my fotocopying..afraid that she is v bz tmr and no time to write, i alr wrote the slips for the classes tmr..i chiong many classes todae lei..todae's classes plus tmr de..which makes me no tm to type the things i wanna do initally..most if not all..i hope she helps me w my sat ones too..i hope she does sth tmr and not tell me she is v bz or sth..its so unfair kk..esp the money issue..life is so unfair..

well, tmr is friday again!!i simply love fridays!!why?coz its my off dae..i can go out w frenz, go kbox, go shop, slack ard, watch bai fen bai..haha..so happy=) and it oso signifies the end o a wk, or smtm even end of the mth!!this oso means i will b getting my pay soon:D

我想每份工作都有它各自的烦恼。。每个人都会在发牢骚。。我认为这是难免的。。只是个管道来抒发自己的情绪而已。。哈哈星期四的 entry 最无聊了。。只会在 complain 这个 complain 那个。。nag 这个 nag 那个。。没办法啦，人嘛，生活就是如此。。你说是吗？

2007-06-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

oh cool im 19!!hmm it seems lyk i haf been feeling rather high these few daes..duno y..mb the after effects of my HAPPY birthday..hehe..stay happy alwaes man =)

there is this parent,hu is on rather good terms w us, told us she wans to rebond her hair..many wasnt v supportive of her decision and tot tat rebonded hair doesnt look gd on her..hmm so i ask wad if its me? den they were v supportive o it..she was saeing 要趁年轻去做头发。。haha..as u all shd noe, my hair is lyk dry grass, as my mum alwaes calls it, and i haf been wanting to go rebond it.. but wad if i dun look gd?wad if the effect isnt v lasting, den i hafta rebond every now and den and this waste lots o money lei..den if rebond, nidda buy those shampoo and take gd care o the hair which i think i m too lazy to do it..shd i go rebond my hair?is it a waste o my money?

my birthday!!

2007-06-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

i luv fridays..i luv saturdays..and i luv sundays..esp these few daes..i had much fun, and surprises as well..

fri.

went to kbox..its a rather last min decision coz we planned to mit at orchard initially..well, anw we ended up at cathay still..din expect to haf so many pple though..thx pple for coming to wish me happy birthday=) as usual, ying was late..i tot im late liao, but hu noes i m act the earliest to reach..waited till abt 1130 for them to arrive..den our kbox session starts!! kboxing the whole dae!!so happy!!so shuang..so shiok..went for the klunch..but i guess there are too many pple and too many songs waiting for us to sing them, so we stayed on for anot package too:pthis means tat we act sang from 11 plus all e way to 7pm..initially i tot so many pple gg kbox sure abit sian diao wan coz hafta wait v long to sing the song u want to sing..and there will surely be pple hu wans to snatch the mike as well..but, i quite enjoyed this kbox session..linrui who is very involved throughout the whole session, sab wanting v much to dance and get high, ying abit tired but still enjoying herself, weekeat singing his eng songs and trying to learn to sing new songs, sinwei waiting patiently for his songs and sixiang singing along with us..poor mingshu nidda leave early for her tuition..thx lots pple!!i really enjoyed the session..and he klunch as well..my bdae - a dae for frenz to spend their time tgt..i luv it..lets haf it again anot dae=p

haha im not in e foto coz im the fotographer:p

a pic taken when i left..pics, evidence of sweet memories..

cakes..and the bdae song..happy birthday to you..

the cake i chose among the three..mango cake!!i luv mango cake!!took a long tm to figure out how to eat it though..the wrapper was rather difficult to open..

the freeflow titbits..hmm thinking abt it..this session oso not bad lei..mb we shd consider gg 2 to 7pm the next tm..

left for kbox at ard 6 to go yishun..called yy up to order the pizza first..hehe this tm i reached yishun w a happy mood..and we ate our pizza as planned..it feels lyk i haf been eating the whole dae..the klunch (although the chicken wasnt as nice as i tot it would be), the titbits and the drinks..and now the pizza..oh man..nidda go on diet liao..yy took fotos o e pizza but i could not find it in my fone..poss e foto wasnt saved..dunno y...wonder if she wans the foto she took w lei..o coz there are sm unexpected things happening too..she was there at yishun too..as usual she din not kip to her promised time and was late..anw she asked y we ate pizza and we told her the reason..she sae she has prepared sth for me..i tot she was jux sae sae only..but hu noes..receiced anot prezzie which wasnt wrapped v nicely..well im rather honoured it was wrapped though..thx anw..dunno y time seem to fly rather quickly when i was at yishun..not lyk when im at jw..i alwaes feel so stressed at jw..lyk lots o things waiting to be done liddat..there i feel so relaxed and happy..就像是去探望老朋友，老同事似的。无忧无虑，好开心。haha i supposed yy feels the same too:p i suppose he released the claz late and it was abt 10 when we left..yy wanted me to open it but i din..she seems rather disappointed..i was on the way hm when i received a msg fr her telling me wad happen at jw tat dae..it did affect my mood for one sec..

reached hm..bathed..very tired yet satisfied..den suddenly the fone rang..i was wondering hu would call me at this hr..its yy!!surprised me coz i was only expecting sms-es..she was the one who wished me happy bdae on e 23rd..haha arent u hounoured? den more sms-es came..so glad pple still rmb my bdae!!not lyk wad sm pple sae, he tot he would still be the first even if he msged me at 0030hrs or later..we tok on the fone till her batt went flat..

sat.

its my bdae and i still nidda go work..i heard the teacher narrate the case tat happen on fri.. 我听了都觉得那个学生太可怜了。。有点辛酸。。有点难过。。热泪盈眶。。替学生感觉不值。。i was praying tat everyth went smoothly..alrite, overall, i would sae its okie..she was too bz and i hafta brg the two hm..there's one parent hu complained and wan to speak to higher authority so i called her..later she called back and i tot she wanted to 交待 abt the case..but she wished me happy birthday! surprise 2.coz i tot she only sae sae only..she promised to brg it tmr..im qt touched at tat moment..i nidda chiong the typing of the attendance..i wondered wad she was doing the whole dae la..only managed to type abt five classes..i one hr liddat alr can type lyk wad she did in one dae lei..omg..i cant stand it..i was typing and typing when i realised there's fax..who could haf sent me a fax at this hr?sm ad from dell again? surprise 3 bdae wishes frm yy and yu!!i was real surprised to receive their fax lo..i will kip their fax..i hope they will kip mine too：p they are my 知己 cum collegues there..i couldnt do w/o them..i will be so lonely on the 30th:(

went hm after work..and there was anot feast waiting for me..猪肝腰子mee sua..and chicken wings..and 甜品 as well..sumptous dinner..delicious meal..received more bdae wished frm frenz still:)

sun.

reported to work as usual..surprise 4 i received a gift frm her too.. 真是没想到..sun went on as usual..i was rather surprised how he can teach the whole dae non stop frm 9 to 5 plus..as usual, he complained as well..she did come to the centre to pass me the prezzie..she did kip her words..surprise 5 she came to gif it to me and left..she saes she too lazy to wrap..she has used tat b4 and tot its not gd so gave one to me..thx lots!!

it has been a rather eventful dae..i mean my fri, sat and sun..i want to thank many pple..

1. thx frenz for e kbox session + bdae song + cake - ying, sab, sinwei, weekeat, sixiang, linrui and mingshu

2. thx pple for e bdae wishes and rmbing my bdae - yiyuan, ronnie, nicholas, yuzhu, serena ho, melissa, serena huang, liqin and 玲姐姐。

3. thx for the handbag

4. thx for the watch

5. thx for the perfume

perhaps i shd buy sth for myself too..more clothes to wear to work (though only left w lyk one more mth).. new clothes to wear to school..but i dun wan to go shop for all these on my own lei..

many thx to all my frens!!it will be, and it has been an unforgettable 19th birthday for me!!谢谢你们。。太感动了。。爱死你们！！

2007-06-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

thur..a dae i dun really lyk..haha so i shd update wad happen todae and forget abt it tmr..tmr will be a happy dae!sat too=)))

todae wasnt very very bz..dun hafta fetch her to and fro and tat saves qt some of my energy..i did a lot of fotocopying todae..i used lyk four rims of paper in one dae..tats equivalent to abt 2000 sheets of paper..it seems lyk i did fotocopying the whole dae...u mux be wondering is there so many things to zap?i can assure u there is..fotocopy for fri classes as well as sat classes..sm how i jux cant 放心 to let her do all the printing for the sat classes..im so afraid history repeats itself...and yes!cockroaches!!!i saw four of them todae!!omg!!im sooo scared!!first tm it was killed by a student who is younger than me..okie brave..not lyk me..second tm was when i went to take more papers den i saw two!!one of the box and the other inside the boxes..haha as usual i screamed..the teacher outside was wondering wad happen..den ha sae he will kill it and get rid of it for me..oh many thx man..so after tat when i opened the box i saw anot one!!haha my usual reaction..den the teacher 被我的 scream 吓到..haha so paiseh abt it..but still many many thx..he simply cant understand y i m so scared of cockroaches..wa seh v ma lu oso lo..i hope he dun spread this ard too much..

oh did i complain abt tue?omg!i received calls fr her to ask me abt sm classes..and i called back to tell them as much as i noe..i happily tot tat everyth was settled..who noes it wasnt..still left undone..wad is this man..den shdnt haf call me la..call me mux haf been rather urgent rite?!i wonder wad she was bz w den man..a lot of things was left undone..alrite.. i can understand there mb sm fotocopying to do,but tat is only during tat period o tm only wad..wonder wad she has been doing the whole afternoon and night lo..argh..real bad man..full o complains..

发发牢骚罢了。。还是会继续作下去的。。有时候只是需要一个管道来发泄自己的情绪，或是一个聆听的耳朵来听听我的心情及级多的不满。。有时候会很想哭，小哭一场也算是让自己抒发一下压抑许久的情绪。。我会好好的。。一定会作到底。。有时候会说要离开，但也只不过是说说而已。。真不晓得到时候要离开时回报着怎样的心情呢？依依不舍吗？或许吧。。大家一起加油吧。。为自己努力，为自己奋斗。。

2007-06-18T23:16:00.000+08:00

finally ask them abt the leave on fri..it takes me a lot o courage to do so..duno why..arent i entitled to it?and obviously, she expressed difficulty..so i sae okie nvm, den i leave two hours earlier..she sae she will try..oh man..this really spoils my mood lei..wanted to eat pizza with yy when i go yishun wan la..but bcoz o this place w unreasonable pple hu cant seem to put themselves into our shoes..wad do u mean by can dun take leave not?well if i can dun take i wun haf ask u in the first place rite?so in e end sae bye bye to our pizza festa..den after our dinner started our foto taking..haha so funny..the whole process..and the outcome..

yy wans me to post the foto on the blog..haha if u do notice, there is sm slight diff btw the two fotos..heyy gal still nid me to send the fotos to u not..

sat at work..oh man..early in the morning when i go toilet, there was shit in it..omg..den when to the other wan, oso the same la..wa seh..admin hafta flash toilet still..and the toilet is smelly la..tm pass rather quickly on sat..this is mainly y i lyk sat..

sun i tink i did a gd deed..i did ask him if i could take his foto..and o coz he sae cant den still sae i bian4 tai4..nvm..anw i did provide a chance for her to tok to him..hehe gd deed done for the dae..if this small act does make her happy i dun mind doing it every sun=) anw he oso realise we all abit sian diao liao..all lyk counting down alr..so working oso 提不起劲。有时候会想，做得再好，也不会有人感激你或什么。。但有时候做得不好又好像对不起自己。。

todae she called me rather late to ask me to change off dae..oh man..tat's the last thing to happen..i wun agree to it!she pleaded for me to cahnge off dae and i pleaded not to change my off dae..and i told her the reason y..i told her sat is my bdae and i noe its difficult for her to arrange pple if i wanna take leave, and i was kind enuff nv to ask her for elave on sat le, so i mux off on fri no matter wad..den she laughed..den she ask me to take leave..although tt was wad i initailly wanted, but it seems lyk she has indirectly forced me to take a leave tmr..and upon knowing this, i was smhow stressed up..den she came smmore..and indirectly scolded me for sth which she tink i did wrongly and has caused the company to suffer losses..but i was qt certain i m rite kk..so this makes me rather bu shuang..den i suddenly realise i nidda fotocopy materials for wed calss oso since i on leave tmr..wa seh makes me abit stressed up and in bad mood oso...sm how i jux dun trust her..worried tat she mess my things up..alrite..i noe i cant blame her for these since she isnt really sure afterall all tat has happened..mb this explains my stress on the dae b4 my off daes..

anw i luv fridays!!im looking fwd to friday again!!

2007-06-15T10:31:00.000+08:00

i seem to c cockroaches everydae..im real scared o them lei..wed i was scared by e cockroach for four times k..and it was the same one..when i open he tray to load paper..i saw it e first tm..scared and screamed..den i quickly close it and open the second tray to load more paper..den to my horror, it crawled to the second tray as well!argh!!scared again..den i left the machine on its own to print..haha i was wondering if the papers coming out will haf the cockroach's body not..obviously it din..wanted to load the coloured paper to print the attendance..i pulled out the tray and the cockroach dropped out o the tray and went under the machine..argh!!so scared..i screamed again..and i was so afraid to go near the machine..the forth time was when i wanted to collect the printed materials and it came out again..omg!!pls dun let me see them again la..real real scared k..thur i saw two again..one was discovered by the students and i ask one teacher to kill it and get rid for me..thx lots man..the other was when i was emptying the dustbin and a dead one was found there..omg..i tink such scenes gonna happen everydae..oh gosh..is there sth tat can get rid of them w/o me having to clear the dead ones?lyk they can disappear themselves kind?im sure it will sell..i will be the first to buy..

i was stupid enuf to leave my keys in the centre on wed..haha u mux be wondering y din i go back to take rite?well, its coz the door does not haf a handle,ie u will nid a key to pull the door open..so if i dun haf key cant open,even if its not locked..luckily he has makeup on thur..else i dunno how im gg to open door la..so thankful for him..did thank him after i went in=) well den the unhappy part started..she called to change the date for the makeup to thur itself..which was lyk erm so last min..hafta call parents and ask them but obviously there are sm hu is unreachable..in the end, due to the poor turnout, the makeup remained as scheduled..so nidda call parents again..of coz scolded by sm hu ask y we kip changing tm..and she ask me to do sth ridiculous jux bcoz no one was able to fetch the student for the makeup..shd i agree?or rather i was forced to agree..

thur was a lousy dae..i haf lots o things to print, for classes on fri and sat..i went to buy lunch for her, fetch student fr student care, brg her for piano and later back hm..wa seh travel a lot k..most o which wasnt within my work scope..its not me the one hu agreed to do all these..but bcoz i was taking over her duties make it 理所当然 tat i hafta?well mb tats how the world functions..有时候是出自一番好意，好心去带，有时候是认为这样也不错可以打发一些时间，但他人却不会把这份情放在心里，反而还会骂人。真意忘恩负义。对人好不一定要求回报，但至少也该心纯感激吧。。and i ate cup noodle for my dinner..partly bcoz i wanna save money, partly bcoz i was sick o the food there, and partly bcoz thur was such a bad dae tat it makes no diff whether or not i haf a gd and sumptous dinner.. i nidda empty the dustbins coz the sce students will brg in drinks and food and dirty the classrooms..i nidda arrange the tables and chairs as well bcoz i dun tink she will do it..well, i was rather stressed on thurs, duno why..den tat irritating teacher kips toking to me, even when i told him to shut up coz he was really disturbing me..real irritating person..

anw after the long dae, haf a gd chat w yy..real gd chat..manage to find out sm new things and s, big things which i din noe initially lyk 7895 is not e correct no. , her ranking of the teachers etc..haha so gd to b toking during non working hours, no nida sae call u back later got parent, or all o a sudden p1 chi, 8 to 9.30pm etc.. 有一种同甘共苦的感觉。。on the same boat, tats it..

anw its over!!one more dae down..it seem lyk this mth is passing soo slowly lei..poss bcoz we haf all bin counting down to our last dae..its fri again! i luv fri!!!perhaps this is wad 先苦后甘 means..lousy thur followed by happy fri=)) haha it mux haf been a boring entry for pple reading my blog..coz i mostly relates wad happen at work only..

有时候会想，我是否有和某人擦肩而过但彼此却没发现呢？就像偶像剧里那种情节。。哈哈，看太多偶像剧了，时常会产生这些幻想。。王子和公主才能 lived happily ever after? 真心喜欢一个人千万不能没有自信。怎样才算真心呢？什么才叫喜欢?对一个没有自信心的人而言，有自信是多么困难的一件事，你知道吗。。

2007-06-11T23:01:00.001+08:00

todae's a special dae..it marks my six mths working in this company!!smtm i feel rather cheated and exploited and thought of leaving..yet, at other instances, when teachers are so nice and friendly and there are frenz out there 跟我同病相怜，同甘共苦。其实感觉也是不错的。。perhaps its such a special dae, sth special happen..when i was doing settlement, the machine did fuction as usual BUT the receipt out was a blank one!!oh man!!i dunno wad to do..i was stupid enuff to log on again..bcoz when i ask yu for help i realise there is such a function called the reprint function..wadeva..anw i did did the settlement, jux tat it was a blank one..shall tell them tat tmr..hu noes wad happen and y such things happen when i was abt to go hm..it delayed me frm gg hm lo..den i went to put the test papers back into the rm..i saw a cockroach!!!argh!!i screamed!!i tink its the nth time such a scene took place..but obviously no one came to my rescue since there is no one there..okie tats my usual reaction..i cant help it..im real scared of cockroach k..i dun wan to get rid o cockroaches..esp the dead ones..pls dun ask me to kill them...i myself is scared of them..i rmb sat, there was one at the counter, the side where pple walk..den parents came in who saw it, signalled to me, as if implying me to get rid of it..oh man..perhaps i shd really get rid o it..but i m real scared la..luckily one courageous teacher killed it and anot courageous teacher cleared it..thx lots man..im real thankful..

as i haf said, she brot hm all the work to do..i double check them again coz i m the one to be held accountable for if anyth goes wrong i guess..den i realise there were sm errors..okie..i noe its inevitable for her to make sm mistakes bcoz it was afterall my work and not hers..and yes..i noe its kind of her to haf offered her help (though i tink there mb sm hidden agendas as wad i haf mention).. but i still hafta check it..so wads the point?i rather all the work to be completed myself..and there she was telling me she has done it le so i can do other things..i appreciate tat but its really not necessary, if u ask me..

我觉得有些人真的很虚伪。。明明就看某人不爽，但却能若无其事地和他相处。。我实在办不到。。至少目前为止是如此。。不太明白。。明明很讨厌某人，但却能像老朋友似的和他聊天。。或许这就是环境所逼。。我们周遭的环境导致我们变成如此。为了保护自己，我们必须戴上面具，不能让自己的真实感情流露出来。。为了讨好他人，有些人选择背叛自己的原则，乖乖得让他人唆使。。为了个人的利益，我们得跟别人攀关系。。或是是吧。。每个人都有自己蓄积的一面，只是看自己要不要将那一面表现出来而已。。

2007-06-11T09:58:00.000+08:00

fri's my off dae again..i luv fridays! since sat was my mum's bdae, so we ate at pizza hut for lunch..but we waited long for the seats anf food..was starving there la..the sway thing was there was a performance at the stage which was jux next to pizza hut..its so noisy there k..the whole meal took abt 2 plus hrs..indirectly delaying my meet up tm w ying..so paiseh abt it:p after 'loitering' ard at cck, we decided to go this fashion..haha the one at kranji is real big k..wanted to buy long pants so i haf more choices of clothes to wear to work but it seems so auntie for me to wear tat..anw bot a skirt still..its a white skirt again..it feels gd to meet up w frenz..its lyk although we arent beside each other every tm but smhow it feels lyk lao3 peng you wheneva we mit up..就像老朋友重逢的感觉：) anw decided to go yishun after tat..den yy sounded as if i wun go there if he were not there..'the others tink otherwise'?er how to defend myself lei?go on fri in the afternoon?!haha..

sat is alwaes a bz dae..i woke up early in the morning den my fone rang.a new msg fr xl!!asking me to go work earlier..wa seh scare me lei..i tot nidda cancel claz again..luckily is 虚惊一场..i tink she is alwaes so stressed..it seems lyk we cant function wheneva she is on leave..poor thing..er i guess there are jux sm 无可奈何，有苦难言..i lyk sat bcoz i will be kept occupied and time passes very fast..

sun..there's sm 小插曲..frm tat i tink he is a real gd teacher..there are sm teachers whom i dislyk and hated..yet there are sm whom i admired rite frm the bottom of my heart..oh yes..and the chem qn..this is thought-provoking..qt fun lei..stimulate our minds to tink..haha it did stirred sm form of discussion..mb we shd stimulate more such discussions next tm=) i lyk fri, sat and sun=))

haiz..she came rather late todae..delay me fr gg hm...den she took all the work back hm to do..saeing that if i dun haf the tm she can do it at home..oh man..i tink this is indirectly not putting the trust in me liddat..feel so sad..put nicely, is to help me finish me work..indirectly is implying i may screw up their things liddat..den fri she took over the duties..it wasnt v gd coz i hafta settle the makeup myself when i returned..why shd i do it?isnt fri my off?okie perhaps i was expecting too much frm others..mb i shd oso understand frm her point of view tat its not within her work scope to do it too..she is jux hao3 xin1 'relief' only..i dun lyk it when i nidda settle things as such..sm teachers on hol..hafta arrange make up..call and call and call..so tired o all these..issue letters sm parents complain they din receive it and cm scold us for not informing them..more makeups yet to be arranged..pls pray tat all these run smoothly..

2007-06-07T11:19:00.001+08:00

昨天的这个时候，我还在担心，害怕着，万一事情真的发生了，我该怎么办呢？我真的不晓得。。好害怕。好烦恼。。我想事情应该到一个段落了吧。。他们只是不想跟我们这些 small fry 讲话吧。。所谓，经一事，长一智。。可以看到一些人的处事态度。。非常感谢她对我们的信任和肯定。。遇到一些野蛮的人，我们必须更坚持自己的立场，绝对不能动摇，否则人家会得寸进尺，欺负我们。。只要自己没错就该理直气壮。。见过大场面的人就是不同，就能沉着稳重的处理事情。。打从心底有些佩服她。。感谢她。。有时候，会觉得自己得到了上天的眷顾。。好欣慰。。感谢您了。

bot yanzi's new album..its e gai ban version..hehe so happy..wanted to buy her album long ago..ever since the album is released in fact..theres a dvd, which stores her 庆功演唱会。her 现场 real zai man..at least i tink so la:p i luv her singing..i luv her voice..i will continue to support her..i lyk this ablum more,compared to her perfect dae wan..listening to it wheneva i m free=)) tmr is fri again=D im so happy!!!its my off dae again!!!haha looking fwd to it every wk kk..but tinking o the things to be settled the next dae jiu xian diao liao..wadeva..i shd jux 享受 my off dae as it is..

不知不觉，我已在这件公司做了半年。。虽然我又万分的响铃早工作，因为真的觉得他们在剥削员工，但没想到还是呆下去了。。或许每份工作都会是这样吧。。一个人待在那边有些sian..(esp when the of them off ydae lo, no one to chat to..) 每天重复着做一些事，有够闷的。大概这就是所谓的上班生活吧。。再夺两个月罢了。。我会加油的。。我们一起加油吧！！

2007-06-01T13:58:00.000+08:00

its friday again..haha..so happy..its the only dae i m free and available..its june alr..the deadline is only in a few daes time..pple are saeing tat i can get into any course i wan (let alone law and med o coz) but life is never so simple..real sad when i knew i cant get into the course i wanted there..haiz but wad to do..still hafta accept it..tot o appealing but well, the success rate gonna be real low so shd jux gif up and look ahead..so yupp its gg to be a real challenge ahead of me..im really scared..gif me some courage to face it ba:p haha..i believe i can =) it will be a new start for me..

学校假期了。。看到不少人都有出国的打算，真的好羡慕好羡慕。。没想到这也是个这么难实现的愿望。。算了，只是说说而已，况且出国也得花钱。。还是在新加坡努力做工=)

现在看转角遇到爱。。对这首歌有些feel..haha..看戏会让我瞬间脱离现实生活。。幻想一下fantasy是什么，意识到现实多残酷。。王子与公主的幸福是童话故事，但谁能肯定童话故事不存在呢？ in the show, there is this line : 如果是朋友，不管你走到哪里，都会记住你的脸。真的是这样吗？比上你的眼睛。你能记得我的脸吗？有些时候会渴望爱情，尤其是看了偶像剧后。。或许是因为如此，朋友与爱情会傻傻分不清楚。。搞清楚状况后，才知道原来只是友情罢了。。但，我始终相信异性之间是可以有单纯的友谊存在的。。

我相信童话故事的存在。你呢？

2007-05-28T10:55:00.000+08:00

fri was my off dae...tats a dae im looking fwd to every wk..went to buona vista to accompany yiyuan to her interview..the place there was lyk 戒备深严 k..security guards everywhere..i nv tot o becoming a teacher..i tot it was a rather difficult and stressed job..really admire those who aspire to becm a teacher..anw i cant enter so hafta wait for her outside..den after the interview, jux walk and shop ard..its gss now..ARGH!this reminds me of the stupid gss promotion going on..din buy anyth la..jux walk c walk c only..oh man..in the end almost got lost there la..of coz eventually we figured out our way home=))

the dateline is drawing near..but i still haven made up my decision..wondering if there is anyone hu is offered the same course in the same uni as me..at least i haf sm kakis.. 我不喜欢在一个陌生的环境。因为那会让我变得很自闭。因为我得再结交新的朋友，但在这种情况我都会显得很 antisocial..if only im a social butterfly..

东西放在这么显眼的地方，难道不会想看看或读一读吗？不晓得有几个人的答案会是不会。。简直就有点夸张吧。。

想出国的希望似乎太渺小了。。有些难实现。。哈哈，在梦境里吧。。星期四还得做工，就盼望着星期五的到来了。。

终于找到这首歌了。。当时听见他唱现场时，的确有些感动。。好喜欢这首歌的歌词，好喜欢这首歌。。你呢？

2007-05-19T11:50:00.000+08:00

lots of work to be done..it makes me feel so incapable and inefficient..well, on the other hand, it does kip me occupied..

好想出国旅行。。很久没出国了。。那年要去云顶，但最后却取消了。。我伤心地哭了因为我好失望。。期待已久的旅程就这样被取消了。。现在呢，很想去台湾。。

台湾的西门町,五分铺,101 大厦...我的天啊..令我充满憧憬..

但似乎很难梦想成真。。有人能了解我这份想出国的心吗?即使只是到云顶，我也能够满足了。。

2007-05-14T11:16:00.000+08:00

ooohh finally on my off dae, i went to kbox!!COOL!!been wanting to go long ago liao..this time we went to the amk wan..its not as cold as i tot it would be though..nevertheless, its still v shuang..although poor pris has to sae gdbye to her 65 bucks..marilyn is a gd singer..shd go join superstar or sth..i tot she v angmoh pai4 wan lei..den after tat, walk ard amk hub, tok and chatted..感觉就像老朋友好不容易重逢。。from our conversation i found out sth..compared to pple doing abt the same job as me and getting 7.5/hr, 6/hr de able to quit w one wk notice and dun haf to forfeit anyth, it makes me seem rather stupid to accept wad im doing nw..anw 想开了。。its okie..it will be the experience gained, a lesson learnt..well, when we parted its lyk 6 le ba..den went to visit yy again and spent the rest o my tm there..tats basically how i spend my off dae on fri..

lead by example..i suppose not many pple can do tat..punctuality is a virtue..when they req (or demand, saying tat it is ought to be the case) others to be punctual, shdnt they themselves be punctual themselves in the first place?yet they come up with some valid reasons for themselves.. sometimes, when things becm a habit, its difficult to change..

看到有些虚伪的人，我真的好受不了。。有时候会想，是不是我们周遭的环境造成我们如此。或许吧，不是每次我们都能诚实地表现出自己真正的想法或感觉。。所以呢，我很喜欢和小孩子玩，因为他们是最天真无邪的。。

i love yanzi's song..this is e nicest song i haf heard from her newest album..if only this is her 主打。。

2007-05-10T11:16:00.000+08:00

i got my fone back!!!so happy..hopefully it wun spoil again else it would be the third time alr..

sunday was a happening dae..sth happen at the centre which makes me feel lyk a cleaner..the story goes..sm playful kids spill water all over the floor..it was lyk e toilet was flooded k..den i hafta go mop the floor in case any one spill and fell, injure themselves den parents complain again..when i was washing the cloth it reminded me of the centipede!tat dae the aircon was leaking so a cloth was left there to soak the water..at the end of the dae i washed the cloth..to my horror, a centipede crawled out!!argh!!i screamed o coz..its super long k..omg..anw, after mopping the floor, i realise there is a chicken ring wrapper in the toilet bowl!and of course i nidda pick tat up to in case the toilet choke den die liao..

after work went to shir party at downtown..reach there abt 8 pm liao..the funny thing is we forgot to alight lo, den being a loop service, the bus took us back to the interchange again..luckily the driver was king enuff to send us back again w/o paying the fare twice..but she was qt angry though..it seems lyk an admin meeting oso..not bad afterall..

singapore is really a practical country..smtm luck plays a part as well..perhaps i wasnt really gd enuff..

“怪的是我发现不知不觉不见到你不是很习惯 ”
燕姿，第一天

人与人之间的相处，有时候是真的很奇特的。有些人并非认识很久，但却像是老朋友，感觉十分亲切。有些人呢，第一次见面就知道合不来，只能成为泛泛之交。又有一些人则是聊不来，像是不同世界似的。有时候，会有很想见的人，但也只不过是想罢了。很多事不是想就可以的。。

觉得自己有点脆弱。。似乎得变得坚强些才可以生存。给我一点勇气吧，让我变得更坚强。

2007-05-02T11:21:00.000+08:00

i tink i m qt suay these few daes lei..my com was down..luckily its okie nw..my beloved v3xx wasnt working..i dunno y..they jux change a new set for me on fri but tues while i was msg-ing halfway, the fone switch off automatically!!and i cant switch it on liao!!argh!!this is driving me crazy..i sign the fone for two mths but i haven act used the fone for one mth!!i wan my v3xx back again..i wan to store new songs into it nw tat my com is okie..i wan my fone!it makes me feel so deprived nw..

ydae was labour day..haha real lao2 dong4 for me lo..i was working..its okie..smtm im jux wondering if its too big a responsibilty for me to handle..i doubt my own capability as to whether i m up to it..

anw, im starting to lyk my work..although smtm its qt ma2 fan2 to deal w sm demanding parents, i get to make new frenz and mit new pple, many of which are nice and friendly teachers=) its a gd feeling to noe that there are pple out there sharing the same sentiments as u..its lyk tong2 bing4 xiang1 lian2 kinda feeling..it feels gd to be rmb or smtm, appreciated for the things u haf done, even though it mb only a 'thank you'..all these really counts..haha but on the other hand, it seems so no life for me..off daes oso cant find anyone to go out w me since pple are all working on wkdaes..real no life lei..i haf been wanting to go kbox but it wasnt successful:( real sad..who wun be working on wkdaes?

好久没用华文了..可能有些字都忘记怎么写了..所以我决定了.每个entry 都要写些字.haha..有时候, 会觉得很了解一个人, 但似乎又有些事是自己不晓得的. 了解一个人能让我们更容易地相处, 因为都太清楚彼此的个性和做法了. 或许只是了解的过程吧..

2007-03-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

每当我的电话有问题，总是会有突发事件，会有人急着想要联络我。电话好好的时候呢，它却不响，为什么？？我不喜欢在最后一分钟才被通知，有任何的更动，而且，这次实在是最后一分钟的最后一分钟！！我不喜欢这种感觉。。但，我还能怎样呢？拒绝吗？也只好无奈的答应了。太可怜了，明天是我的休假，但却只能留在家里，因为朋友们都在工作。谁来可怜可怜我呢？我心爱的电话坏了，有点难过。但幸亏还在保证期之内，应无大碍。不晓得需要几天才会修理好。。一连串发生的事情，现在心情实在是坏透了。。

2007-03-19T11:18:00.000+08:00

seems lyk many pple haf alr applied for their courses..i wonder if anyone will enter the same course as me..im thinking of acc or business, hmm but so far din noe many hu haf the same thoughts as me..when pple ask me wad course i want to take, usu my ans is i dunno..does anyone really haf in mind wad they really want?when it comes to making choices, i m lost..
this explains why i have not done my application yet.. i still haf one more week..

at times, it really depends on how u phrase urself when u r toking to pple..making it sounds nicer, even if it means u r not really expressing wad u really intend to, does help in certain cases..it becomes much more easy to handle..要学会懂得如何讲话，自己才不会这么吃亏，大概是这个道理吧。但，到目前为止，我似乎还没学会。

2007-03-13T12:05:00.000+08:00

finally!! i bot my motorola v3xx!! its a super cool fone! i love it!! although its camera is only 1.3mega pixel (not even half of that o nokia's n73), im fine w it since im buying a fone not a camera:p nidda look for more exciting games to install in the fone only..

sat managed to apply leave to go for open hse..i was still wondering how much i hafta spend on transport for all these trips (last time used to pay student rate and din realise how xing fu tat is)..haha who noes there's free shuttle bus into those campus..went to ntu first den nus..feels so diff when studying in uni..feel abit lost when entering nus..its lyk so big and dunno where to move to..hope that my uni life will be an exciting to amke up for tat period..initially tot tat those toks were rather useless..but the business tok that i went to in nus was qt okie lei..shd haf attended sm business toks in ntu as well or go for any campus tour and not leave ntu tat soon..any of u decided on wad course to go alr?tell me lei..it seems lyk gp is still an impt criteria smhow..argh!!and my gp is so lousy:( btw, medicine is SUPER difficult to get in la..nids portfolio, interview and essay writing...and the students there were telling us how we can prepare ourselves for interviews..anw i nv tot o gg into medicine..basically bcoz i dun tink im a bio student.neither can i imagine myself being a doctor, responsible for pple's lives etc..its too big a responsibility for me..i cant imagine myself becoming an engineerer or researcher either..spend my daes doing research which does not guarantee any success, am i really up to it?

after gg to the open hse went to watch huang cheng ye yun! 在观看的同时，许多点点滴滴的回忆浮现在我脑海里。。真是让我回味起那段黄城的日子。。那可是我在初院最快乐的时光，虽然每天都很晚回家，但大家无怨无悔，似乎都在为同一个目标努力。 ‘黄城让你的生活天色彩，飞起来，让你飞起来，黄城绝对最精彩。’

todae is my off dae..initially tot tat able to work on weekens is no big an issue and so i accepted this job offer.now den i realise tat will mean tat i hafta forgo alot o opportuinities to go out with my frens and everyth..why? bcoz everyone's schedule is such tat they only hafta work five daes a wk, excluding sun and sat..this means tt when i m not workign they are!so how can i plan for any outings during my off daes lei?!so poor thing rite?hao bu rong yi ge a dae off liao still cant go out w pple..haiz wadeva..i jux hafta get used to all these..afterall, when pple start to work there nids to be sm sacrifices to be done..i dun rmb my parents meeting their frens for dinner or any outing..perhaps this is just life..

2007-01-02T12:41:00.000+08:00

first pot o the yr..ydae's new yr..i love festive ocasions bcoz it gifs me reasons to do certain things:p ydae's my off dae too since its a public hol..went out w my mum to buy sm clothes..haha seems lyk i alwaes wear those same few custumes to work for the past three weeks..bossini 50% storewide lei and o coz i bot sm clothes there..nw lyk baleno s&k all tgt wan..baleno 70% off lo but not storewide la..o coz bot fr s&k oso..den overheard the salesgal saeing they not enuff carriers..if no choice hafta use hangten de..haha den the baleno salesman oso came over to huan4 san3 qian2..lyk co-operating..hmm suddenly the econs stuff came across me again..market structure..weird.

den stayed hm to watched bai fen bai..haha i m SO HAPPY!!!coz its cao ge bai fen bai ting zheng hui!!his new album is out le!!mb i will be buying it;)oh man i tink he is super talented lo and i love to hear him sing:D esp when he sings xian cheng..chao ji hao ting de!!so lucky o me to be able to catch this episode of bai fen bai..hehe:))

anw i spent my xmas at genting!heex Fun at the Peak! cant enter the casino yet coz nidda be at least 21..but it does not really matter to me la since my main purpose of gg there is their theme park..oh bcoz we went during xmas+sch hol so they extended their opening hrs..indoor theme park is opened till 4am lei..so cool lo can play until siao..but the queue is very long oso la..no choice lo hafta queue up for almost evey game..the second dae at genting was spent at the theme parks..yuppx the WHOLE DAE!!from ten in the morning to two in the morning..haha..so i played qt a lot..but sm nidda queue super long la..the go kart thing queue for abt 45min, cyclone oso, den games tat can accomodate more pple each time wil be faster lo lyk pirate ship only abt 20 min and the swing oso qt fast.basically every game is SUPER LONG queue de.either u queue for ur turn or u dun get to play any..den we went to sit the flume ride..prepared to get wet liao but din expect ourselves to be SO wet lo..its lyk drenched lei..so after the game we were so cold that we could not carry on but hafta go back to get changed..well but its still a fun thing..there's a countdown timer to xmas oso..and it attraced a lot o pple there..really shui3 xie4 bu4 tong1 lo..tat tm we were queueing for bumper car den there is this grp o guys who joined in those singing o the christmas carol and made some noises..haha okie la zheng tian qi fen mah..play, eat and slp all the time..basically i played all the thrill rides at the outdoor theme park except the corkscrew and spaceshot den indoor theme park not as exciting la mostly those children rides and family rides lyk merry go round, ferris wheel all those..haha but oso got ride la..haha the ticket, wristband i bot was qt worth it;)

i guessed it'd be a LONG time b4 i would be gg overseas again:( and i nv board a plane b4.sounded so ke lian..anw at least i enjoyed myself at genting=))i dun mind gg there once a year lo..o coz la must haf pple to accompany me to sit those rides..i dun wan to sit those rides alone..it seems so pathetic lei..

shall update smth abt my work..abt three weeks of work le and i m gg to get my pay!!working as an admin cum cust srv at a tuition centre..anyone nids tuition can approach me..haha..smtm i very free lei coz my collegue there work for five mths le den those parents noe her beta and trust her more..so usu will approach her den i v free lei..seems lyk i v redundant liddat..when parents make enquiries i dunno this dunno tat wan haiz seems to be giving parents an impression tat i dunno anyth..lyk bai2 na3 xin1 shui3 liddat lo..sm parents dun trust me lo..when they want to pay tuition fees mux wait for her dun wan to gif me..makes me qt sad smtm..the only thing im useful is when it comes to com!she is computer illiterate and my eng is beta than her..so when there is typing and wad not, i will be assigned tasks to do..
haiz i wonder if i m of any help..well my collegue is qt friendly and nice..the teachers are friendly too..the working environment is fine=)and the plus point is tat its very near my hse..can even walk there oso lo..the walk there takes abt 15min..this means that i dun hafta wake up too early to go to work..haha..

seems lyk everyone has found a job.does this mean tat it will be tougher to arrange for a date to go out w my friends??oh man!esp when my off dae is SO different from my friends..haiz so sad:((

enuff said..a long entry since i din update for qt sm time liao..heex;)

2006-12-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

i watched bai fen bai on fri..its jj lin!!!SUPER COOL!!!it seems lyk it will be a long time b4 i watch bai fen bai again..if got any interesting episode lyk gt jjlin or caoge all these pple must let me noe lei..fri is jj ting zheng hui..its chao ji nice..his xian4 chang3 is very gd!!and its 自弹自唱。我超级羡慕会自弹自唱的人。尤其是一些有才华的人，我喜欢小猪会打鼓和跳舞，曹格的现场，俊杰的自弹自唱，有够动听的。对了，曹格也会弹钢琴。俊杰会bbox.超帅的！！在节目里，他也有现场创作，小猪也插进一脚。如果有机会在小巨蛋看他的演唱会那该有多好。i enjoyed this episode=))

i was watching anot korean show..i tink its called hao jie chun xiang..chiong to finish it lei..the ending is qt funny..nono act the whole show oso gt funy parts..jux that the ending left a deeper impression in me..coz it combined sm korean shows into it..the scene was abt sm scenarios they imagine themselves in..its lyk smtm when u r caught in sm circumstances and u will haf sm scenarios in ur mind kind..hope u understand..yea den got winter sonata, full hse when ju eun cleaned young jae's hse..yea that part..den still got sorry i love u..the part when eun chae got cheated and met the guy..even the clothes she's wearing is the same..haha...我可以深刻体会戏里的一句话：有些事不是喜欢就可以的。的确，有好多事都是如此。

oh sat i went to school..it has been a looonng tm since i entered the sch..jux went back to join one o the practices..okie la din really exercise a lot..took a few fotos there..shall ask pris to send me the fotos so i can upload them:p i sprained my ankle again..its now swollen..and the funny thing is tat i din sprain my ankle during e trg!its when im walking!!oh man i bet a lot o ple will be laughing at me..how can i poss sprain my ankle when i m walking rite?!i oso dunno how it happen..

hehe caught the first episode o shen qing mi ma ydae..zai zai is so cool in the show!!wow..chao shuai de..the beginning part which toks abt the childhood part, i tink its qt touching..i act cried when wei yi and shen shen parted..the theme song jing jing de is now stuck in my head..when i first heard the song it wasnt tat nice, but now it seems to be a v hao ting song lei..i tink tis is the mei4 li4 for theme songs in shows..the show will jia fen to the songs..and the lucky star symbol=) i will continue to zui the show..although it shows only once a wk..

there are a lot o shows which i wan to watch..bai se ju ta, er zuo ju, dong fang zhu li ye, hua yang shao nan shao nv, tian wai fei xian, one litre o tears...i dunno when can i act finish watching all these shows..i wanted to go overseas as well..esp taiwan..poss bcoz o all the taiwanese shows i watch..but i cant go overseas this hol anymore..i haf not boarded a plane b4 too..tis sounds abit sad..i will be starting work tmr..wish me luck..

(edited)

2006-12-06T12:20:00.000+08:00

i have finished watching sorry i love u alr..and i cried alot..i tink after eun chae left choi yun tat episode i have been crying..the first episode a bit boring but as u watched and u get to noe more abt the plot, u will wan to continue watching it..smhow when i saw choi yun singing, he reminds me of rain!!esp the side view..really looks lyk rain..okie la front o coz not lah but side view, dunno why jux reminds me o Rain lo...the plot is real gd...there's friendship, love, hatred and kinship..its a real sad show..twds the end got sm twist in the show oso, which makes pple cry even more..the ending is sad oso..not v lyk those typical korean dramas where the girl died o sm illness and the whole story revolves ard it..nice story=)) the part when he made a promise to 上帝，oso shows his love for her..赚人眼泪的一部悲情故事。的确催人落泪。if u lyk those crying shows then this is a must watch..haha cyn sae if u din watch this show u wun noe wads a quality korean drama and after watching this other shows arent nise liao..haha.. but i tink i'll still continue to love korean dramas de.. sad love story..the two lead below:

intro sth..xiaozhu mv again..hehe..jing wu men..pay attention to the ending part..its 椅子舞 haha chair dance qt COOL i tink..okie okie personal preference again

when i m searching for a job these few daes, all the econs stuff come to my head..labour and wages things..imperfect information o the labour mkt, wage taker, MRP theory, job unions etc..haha i still rmb definition o unemployed..pple who are willing and able to work but unable to find a suitable job..oh and i m employed alr!!so im no longer the unemployed..starting work next mon and working on wkends with leave on wkdaes..seriously, i dun mind working on wkends la..usu wkends are my slacking daes..haha can treasure these few daes o freedom which i haf and ask me out:p haha..i nidda work till july..which means i dun hafta find a job anymore..den i suddenly wonder when will my course start?will it clash?i hope not..

i work as an admin executive..hehe..sounds okay rite..but attire cant wear jeans and slippers so i nidda buy..haiz hafta spend b4 earning..act b4 this, i m offered a chance to b a staff under kbox wan lo..den i dun haf to spend money to buy new clothes and all those..but coz xmas i gg out but festive period they'll b v bz so cant=( and so din work in kbox..

it all come too suddenly..i tot its only an interview for the job..the interviewer ask me: wad kinda person m i..i sae quiet (haha so honest rite looking for customer service and admin job still se quiet) den she sae im supposed to tok to pple when they walk in ask me can not so i ans if i m forced to ok lo..she sae its not forced k..haha..wonder why she still select me when i sae im quiet lo..den twds the end she jux sae welcome and im alr selected!!so surprised!and nidda sign contract immediately lei..wa seh interview cum contract signing dae..i was qt scared coz it all came too suddenly..im not mentally prepared..but i still signed it..at tat moment i really hope i wun regret it..but now i tink its not so bad rite..at least im working and not rotting at hm..will u accept this offer if u were me?i hope i wun regret it..will noe more when i start work next wk..wish me luck ba..i wun be able to watch tian wai fei xian and bai fei bai alr=( so sad lo..anyone got tian wai fei xian vcd not?lend me lei..

so went out w yr to buy clothes ydae..she wans to buy jeans oso..she managed to buy wad she wans frm s&k..haha i tink i can becm dai4 yan2 ren o s&k den i intro my frenz to go there to buy..i tink their clothes is real nice lo..okie la purely my own preference..i brot a shirt (after much consideration and after much persuasion frm yr) i m not the kind tat will buy immediately wan..i will eye on it for sm tm de..still nidda buy more and shoes oso..headache..

2006-11-30T13:03:00.000+08:00

hmm..a lvls was over..but i dun haf much excitement in me when its over..perhaps i din work hard enuff..nw i wanna find a job..but i guess it'd b difficult..hu would wan to employ me, with no work experience or anyth..hafta continue waiting..seems lyk a long tm after my last entry, i shall haf a long entry den..

so basically i din accomplish much..seems lyk im wasting my time...watching vcds and sm yu le jie mu..tat tm(qt long ago) i saw cao ge's performance at vivian's concert..chao ji you mei4 li4 lah!!esp twds the end when he hold vivian's hand, knelt down and kissed her..*faintz* i tink he's a shen1 shi4..and chao ji lang4 man4 oso..haha fell in luv w him:p he sang a song w zuo wen xuan oso - liang shan po yu zhu li ye..its a nice song..in one o the performances, zuo wen xuan was qt nervous and dunno look where when she's singing..den after the performance, cao ge told her:哪里都不用看，看我就好。wa seh *faintz* if only he sae tat to me..okie lo i noe its not very poss..well its jux a wad if..

i luv goong

it was the first time i watch it on channel u..alrite i noe v slow..but bcox o sm lousy timetable i sacrificed some o the episodes..so i missed the middle part..only watced the front and ending w/o knowing wads gg on in the middle..i wanted to watch it again!!im alr on the waiting list for its dvd..i hope i will get to watch it soon..and i realised dvd is very gd nw..can act select which episode u wanna watch specifically lei..or is it becoz i din watch vcds b4 tat's y i dunno..

i watched anot korean drama..my girl..

inside the show there's lee jun ki too!the story plot qt xin xian..interesting..sm parts are qt funny oso=)) initially b4 i watched the show i tink lee jun ki is abit..erm yea..but now okie la not so bad..tink he looks qt shuai oso..so smtm i tink the image o the actors are being su4 zao4 by the show they acted in..i wondered which show he acted in first..the movie or this..there's an ng part which is when i realised he can really cry!!there's this scene when he is not suppose to cry only 热泪迎眶 but he couldnt control it..his tears jux flow..看到了男人流的眼泪，似乎会让我有些心痛。on man 天生演员的料。有些人要哭都哭不出来。非常羡慕那些眼泪可以收放自如的演员。this makes me interested in watching the king and the clown..shd i buy the dvd??i dunno if its worth it..tat tm when the movie was showing, i wanted to watch it but those ard me seems to hafwatch it liao..abit disappointing..

shen qing mi ma is gg to show on scv liao..yea!!so excited..i will watch it man..heard tat bai se ju ta will be showing on channel u..is this true?i din see its yu4 gao4 on channel u b4..hmm seems lyk im using a lot o chinese..cant fully express myself in eng:( oh man..i hope i wun fail my gp..i sincerely pray so..*prays* is this a very loong enuff entry?nth to blog liao..

2006-09-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

new layout..abit tired o the old one le..anw i watched bai fen bai on fri...wahaha...guess wat that episode is abt?bai fen bai lan qiu she!!and the guests are jay chou, liu geng hong, the other cant rmb him..its real exciting to watch them play!!esp when the ball enters the basket with a swoosh..haiyo dunno how to describe lah..dun tink u noe wad i m trying to sae..its a very nice sound to be heard when pple are shooting..haha..and the forfeit is the loser team mux sae 100 aiyo..yea the chou jie lun's style de aiyo..tat new song w a lot o aiyo, he sae he wrote it for his fren xiao zhu wan:p oh i mux really sae jay mux act cool every second lah..yes every second!!abit kua1 zhang..in the end he lost to xiao zhu's team..haha...xiaozhu is qt zai:))budden jay doesnt want to admit defeat lah...sae wanna dan1 tiao1 w xiaozhu..haiz lyk abit shu1 bu4 qi(jay fans dun k me hor)so in teh end tat wan is draw so he sae he only lost half and decided tat his team will only sae 50 aiyo..wow this episode is really qt interesting..enjoyed watching bai fen bai when xiaozhu is hosting:))btw i would lyk to clarify sth i dun lyk jay..im not his fans hor..

2006-09-22T13:11:00.000+08:00

its all over...but this also means that a levels is drawing near..argh there are sm things which u wouldnt expect to happen but it act happen on me during the papers:((and time is so precious lah...and there r sm papers which i could not finish...so does this mean tat i shd not think too hard?or shd i do more practices to increase my speed? i tink teachers are real efficient.i suppose they must haf finish marking by now.this means tat i shd try to enjoy my life now b4 returning to sch on tues to face my lousy results..

much as tests and exams are a gauge for one's ability, it oso depends on one's luck.if it so happen tt all that u studied came out in the exam, wow, gd for u den. on the other hand, even if u haf mugged ur guts out and studied real hard, those din come out, pray for urself.does this then mean tat no effort is put in in the studies?plz, dun judge a student's efforts by the results he or she obtained in one test alone..and nv deny a student o his or her efforts..these will only discourage us further..

someone said
one sided love, if there is no greed its lyk heaven.but if u becm greedy, it becm lyk hell.
someone said
it doesnt matter how much u haf in life but how contented u are w how much u haf.

both quotes taken from sm korean shows which i haf watched..think over it, esp the second one..

2006-07-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

wow..it was indeed a wonderful experience...i haf no gone onverseas for qt sm tm liao, encountering pple fr overseas is well, anot mtd...its qt interestign to note the diff in cultures in diff countries...haha and i saw a shuai4 ge and a cute guy=) well not all agree w my taste but i still tink tat he is shuai4!!too bad din haf a photo o him to justify my stand..din noe his name oso...haiz...this jux shows that diff pple haf diff taste..it was a day i will never forget=))

wed is comm serve dae..and the children are all so cute...i love playing w kids becoz i tink they are the most innocent.they wun lie to u yet they are true to u..how wonderful if this innocence can be preserves in humans as we grow...seeing them play, tok and smile jux makes me feel so happy...haha...mb i can work in a child care centre and work w children all dae?!

omg i really hate her...the thought o her jux irritates me and makes me feel so sian...who is she to judge how much i studied or whether is studied enuff...does my result reflect how much i studied?is there a direct r/s?i dislike the way she questions us.i really hate it.she told us not to trust the books.its not my fault either.how would i noe?alrite now i noe so how?how to pass essay?i dun rmb me passing an essay.tis is real dead..

when u alrdy haf in mind wad to buy and really want to buy it, it often fails and turns out that u dun get wad u want. i wanted this pair o shoe i saw at far east but when i returned to buy anot dae i cant find it anymore=( den i saw this pair of shoes from ice lemon tee last sun in jp when i decide to buy it i couldnt find it anymore.not in the branch in far east, nor j8.and i cant find it in jp too.perhaps tis is telling me not to buy any new heels.its jux fated.when u want sth it often slips away alrdy.i gif up buying any heels le..its tiring to find a real suitable shoe...

不知道是否真的是日有所思，也有所梦. 梦境是完美的,只有现实才是残酷的.一件高兴的是可以让我忘掉十件伤心的事,你了解这种感觉吗?思念.等待.期望.支持.鼓励.力量.让请保持原状就是最好的解决方法.目前为止,似乎有点笨,那只是理智的我冲动的时候.理智的我还是快乐的=)))

2006-07-06T01:03:00.001+08:00

back to school again...and one by one, we will be getting our results back...our phy teacher saes our phy results was a brazilian tregedy.maths teacher saes our maths results was a england tragedy...haiz...hafta study and work harder in exchange o freedom...tats wad my gp tutor saes..well to a certain extent its qt true...

wanted to change a new blogskin but a bit lazy..shall wait a little while longer den..

well..last few daes were spent gg out...mon went out w cynthia and yawen to kbox...and i was super early so hafta wait..it was $9+++ and the fish is a very small piece..kboxing is still enjoyable=) oh yea..i also realised tat the two o them were behaving suspiciously too...it turned out that they were deciding wad to get for my belated bdae prezzie...THANKS LOTS...i really love the wallet...haha coz yawen haven confirmed w me hu shared the wallet so i cant pin point the names...but still thx!!!wo yue4 kan the wallet yue4 shuang...i could still rmb the scene when cyn passed me the wallet:p went bugis after tat...cyn bot a bag after a successful bargain o $1 less and yw bot a jacket oso after a successful bargain o $1...cool none went hm empty handed..

tue went to far east w ying..we haf a common target--to get a new shoe!!!there are qt duo shops selling shoes in far east...i kan4 shang4 one o the heels!!budden i was wearing a shoe so din manage to try it...hopefully it has my size and will still be on sale when i get down to the place again, i hope in one or two weeks' tm//den carried on walking and walking, eventually reaching ps..haha whenever we pass by a S&K shop she will sae its my fav shop...yea jux lyk how it reminded me of her whenever i pass by an espirit shop=)) wonder how those kuo4 tai tais shop for hours everyday...dun they get bored?hmm i noe why...poss if i can shop and buy anyth i kan shang, i will luv shopping too...yupp yup tats the diff..must be...

xiao zhu is back!!(although i dunno the reason for his absence for the past few episodes) and its great!bai fen bai w hi ard is really much more entertaining, at least to me...i m in love w cao ge's songs nw!!listening and listening to his album..i watched that tian shi wo ai ni show and i cant believe i act cried when watching it..the pics drew by xin for xiaoyue were soooo nice!if only those happen not only in dramas...does everyone haf a guardian angel?den where's mine?

there are many things happening which makes me sad or dislike (sth hate) doing wad i m doing nw...however there is this sth which can make me 打从心里灿烂地微笑。although there is only this sth, i m alrdy satisfied *smile*
some things need to be said but others need to be felt...

2006-07-01T11:11:00.000+08:00

i m alrdy 18!!i can watch M18 shows....haha....although its lyk a bit late, i would still lyk to thank u pple for sending me all the bdae wishes...big thankyou!!it feels great for u bdae to be remembered by others=) thx lots...spent my bdae studying for common test...its really no life...

my wish came true!!:D

well common tests was over...no comments...was hoping for it to end early but when it really ended it would mean that prelims and a levels are nearer...

i tink watching yu le xin wen is so interesting...watched the interview o vanness and kangta on kangxi..its super nice...and i tink vanness is more shuai nw!!and the jing dian part is the dancing!!!zan.diao.shuai.damn COOL..and last week wo cai there si cao ge..he mo2 fang3 donald duck super alike man! and i like bai fen bai too!esp when its xiao zhu and s, mo qi shi zhu:)hmm watched two episodes o bai fen bai but i din see xiao zhu why?????

lately i haf been listening to cao ge's album...tink i heard it many many times liao but i m still not tired o it....his songs are super hao ting!!!highly recommended!!!chao shi li pai de...theres a bonus vcd in the album...i just watched it ydae...他深情的演唱，令我陶醉在他歌声里。

argh!!!i wanna watch wang de nan ren but it seems lyk pple haf alrdy watched it or haf plans to watch it w others liao..so sad....

haiz under exam stress i always sae i will start studying earlier for my exmas the next time so that i wun hafta do last min work again..but how many times will all these promises be fulfilled?none..hopefully this time i will succeed..

2006-06-16T01:13:00.000+08:00

tis is one of the songs in the album i jux bot.this song is based on the story o his friend..pay attention to the lyrics..

笑我笨

一点半的我默默在等　只等待一个人
路边没有人　路边没有灯　我好冷
他们都说我该回家了　叫我别太天真
他们都在背后笑我对爱没天份 ohh

每个人都在笑我　笑我不知所措　
每个人都说我们不会有结果　
不会　不能　不该有结果　不会　不能　不该有结果

三点半啦你终于到了　到你家的门口
我看见你和那个男孩　手牵手
我的要求也不算太多　
只要你守承诺为何欺骗我　为何折磨我　好难过

一个人一个人　无聊地在等总以为就快有　
奇迹的发生才发现自己　是那么的　那么的笨
不会　不能　不该有结果不会　不能　不该有结果

听了好感懂喔。有时候一首歌还真能写出你的心情。或许爱情真的是盲目的，果然是当局者迷。有些是你知道不会有结果，但却始终不愿放弃。思念好像真的很痛苦似的。我的要求也不多。我需要力量，谁能给我呢？

2006-06-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

i suddenly realised sth...i meant post on my blog but she tot was post to me via mailing...i just figured this out a few daes later...paiseh xp...well so i jux took this from her blog..haha dun tink she will mind de=)yupp this was the cake and on top of it was the candle which has sparkles and will relight after u blow it when it was lit for 1 min..

anot week passed...we are all strange human beings...knowing that there is really too many things to study piles o lec notes to swallow, tut to digest and tys qns to assimilate(hehe this description seems qt qia4 dang)...but we will still slack thinking that we haf one LONG hol to study...two weeks o the hol has passed alrdy....hope my revision will becm more effecient as time presses...

2006-06-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

oh yes!!went to kbox ydae to SING!!cool.singing is enjoyable.esp when u are singing those songs that makes one high.im qt high when i was singing di yi tian and lian ai ing and the rest will (hopefully) be influenced by u and get high too=)and anot gd thing is can get to watch the nice nice MVs..sm with shuai ges, sm w cool dance...haha zhen shi yi da xiang shou!!!but dunno why we get the lousy rm(coz its new their working area)..and its $9+++.why more ex than usual?no special occasion wad?!dun tell me sch hol tt's y they charged $9...and one more thing they round up the bill...urgh...alrdy +++ liao still want to round up..but still we still go there to sing...prob coz inelastic demand(erm tink so), no suitable sub ard ba..oh and i haf bot cao ge's ALBUM..i bot a zheng ban zhuan ji!!pple ard me dun really seem to lyk his songs v much...well but its ok wad matters is i lyk...haha..so proud o myself lor support zheng ban, antipiracy...haha...i tink tis is the 5th zheng ban i bot alrdy=))although haven listen to it yet, i m sure the songs will be super hao ting de...haha...tao2 zui4 zai ta ge sheng li.....

2006-06-08T11:29:00.000+08:00

ydae ydae erm yup tues i watched kang xi lai le.. and they interviewed the bball players from SBL...oh man...they are really really VERY shuai!!!chao ji shuai ge!!!i wun mind gg to support all their matches if i could...qt glad when i get to see shuai ge ard...they r shuai and most impt possibly becoz they are tall oso ba...hmm mb its the sportsman kind o shuai...can imagine how much more shuai-er they can be when they are at the bball court=)

ydae went out w the 4d pple to marina square...agreed to meet at 4pm at city hall and sab told me she will be PUNCTUAL but obviously, as usual, she was late and so was ying..when they reached they passed me a big cardboard, giving it to me as my bdae present..thx dears though it was a bit early(my bdae is at the end of the mth)...im not a very expressive person...hmm possibly its to make up for all the previously belated bdaes...im qt touched act...have been dreaming o bdae surprises lyk those in the shows...haha but i sort of noe sth would be gg on liao..coz i wanted to tell sab that i wun go for the outing liao but she 'threathen' me to go otherwise will duan jue guan xi w me...well still i appreciate that=) den went off to pizza hut to eat...and they sang bdae song for me!!which makes me a bit paiseh...and the candles...so cool...theres sparkles!!nv seen tat b4..the flame wasnt supposed to be extinguished..so yitian and sab tried again..and it was a success!!!so the trick is to light it for one min first..we were qt excited..or was it only me?!anw so we let it burn but cox cant extinguish so we were qt helpless when it burnt up all the wax..in the end the plastic gone burnt too..releasign poisonous fumes...

i watched anot show when i reached hm and i saw ah di crying...omg...so xin tong to see guys crying loh...and i found out that his horoscope is oso cancer!!and this reminded me of myself...他们说他对爱情很专一，我想我也是吧。对爱情专一，恋家，重感情的人，似乎和我有点相似不是吗？他也是个感性的人，否则他也不会哭了。所以我也是个感性的人，所以我很容易落泪。haha so its not my fault...

i haf decided to buy cao ge's album le!!!yeah!!i want to get a motorala V3 too but hafta wait for the contract to end...whenever i saw pple using it i will be so envious!!i want to get a new wallet becoz the one i m using is no in a v gd condition and i want to get one from wallet shop but well...i want to get heels...it has been a long tm since i last wore heels..and i do not haf other shoe at hm..only one pair..so sad lei...but it proved to be a practical pair..suitable for all outfits and for all occasions...but its real hard to get a man yi pair o shoes..i want to get a new pencil case, the flatflat kind so that it fits well into my bag...but seems lyk the liu xing kind is the big big kind which i dun really lyk..haha this can wait lah cos i can still use the one i m using nw..haha wonder when i will really go nuy all these...usu dou shi shuo shuo den c when go buy but dou mei mai..its okie im happy w wad i haf=)) o coz there are still sm things which i really want but really cant get oso..nth is prefect..

2006-06-05T12:00:00.000+08:00

went for another co concert ydae...wow second co concert for me liao....although i noe that there are many others who haf been to countless ones, well at least i went for two in one month!!i was late for the concert=(it wasnt exactly my fault.wanted to buy flowers but there wasnt any decent ones ard..the florist saes sun the shop has no delivery so not many flowers...there is only one sunflower for sale but it has not bloomed!!!so buy oso not very gd rite....only manage to buy a small bouquet for ying....haiz so in the end hafta go buy those jia ones, the bendable kind, erm think u noe wad i mean...i m so sorry gals....yupp the flower buying process took longer than expected...never knew that buying flowers can be so 'tedious', but gals still hope to receive flowers on appropriate occasions, agree ba=)hafta go out earlier next tm...well if there is still a next time...so we were late yet not very sure how to go to the place...haha but eventually reached the place though...den another malu thing dunno where our seats were....i think we were among the last to get to our seats loh...so malu....stood there for so long....our seats were actually on the other side where we entered!!shd haf had two entrance lah den we can reach our seats faster...hmm..and our seats are not very gd..its the first 3 rows+extreme right=only can see pple's back.cant see faces...haiz so a gd seat oso makes a performance seems beta...it was a great performance..seeing the 整齐-ness during the 大合奏 its so cool!!台上一分钟，台下十年功.haha...the encore piece is da chang jin's theme song...wow...when i was watchign the performance, i haf some qn in mind...lyk do the performers alwaes wear white and black, will they be very nervous b4 this,xiao zu performance needs zhi hui not, is a zhi hui very impt???haha....kan de chu i m an 'outsider'..haha...

den on my way home, i was listening to the radio and i heard cao ge's interview!!!!oh so cool!!!makes me have a stronger desire for his album....haha...

its really time to start mugging liao..does a timetable help?nope, i dun tink so.i wun follow it any way...hafta tink o others ways to motivate myself to work...

fantasy

neverending project meetings

wondering and wondering

我不难过

我好想好想

不懂

pls stop

last week of hol (2)

last week of hol (1)

CCC cum SMRT week

holiday week 2(:

抉择

holiday is finally here!!

SHORT term torture ended

12 莲花 (:

its all coming back again

li jia wei!

bye bye

roadshow @ woodlands!

lin you jia is here!!

new yet familiar

last dae of work

bidding is killing me

drastic change

谢谢你们的陪伴 part two

谢谢你们的陪伴 part one(:

dear diary

lot 1 (:

the tunnel tour! :D

my life during the hol

sakae (:

不想醒来

恶作剧2吻 完结篇 ):

深深的领悟

summing up

hear my complains, again

tired out

previously

我有好多话要说

无言以对

情人节快乐！

新年快乐！

whats this

what am i thinking

不一样的仔仔!

truly magical christmas

latest craze!

FUN at the peak!

self reflection

我怀念的

week after mid term break - week 8

mid term break?

我的第一次就这样毁了）=

HAPPY-ing..then

woo hoo~ =D

881:D

random thoughts in a confused mind.

sick

tired

wads happening

updates - i'm back!

lousy daes

an awful dae

tired

my birthday!!

(edited)

恶作剧2吻完结篇 ):